divine loser

by clem turner

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this is a song about bad habits and poor impulse control. i am having a hard time with these traits in particular these days, but am learning that facing personal discomfort is much preferred over losing loved ones. anyway. folks have asked for this to be posted, and i have taken three years, but i have done it. feel free to download for free :)

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My bad habits don't heal
They wear a different dress
I'm coming down with something
I lost my own respect
My hands, they wander off
I'm not afraid of death
I'm just afraid of feeling numb
Forgetting how to love my cat

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
I just can't help myself

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
That fire from within

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
I put it out to grieve him

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)

I've got my daily bread
I keep it in my mouth
It blocks the cynicism
It blocks my song from comin' out -

"Connect yet stay opaque, "
I cannot have it both ways
Plеase do not tell the timе
I can't be trusted with the date

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
I just can't help myself

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
My god, of course you'd know

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself)
They sink into the floor

(I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself -
Myself, myself!)

I don't know how I am
I'll pay you handsomely
If I should drift away
Please don't revive me
Baby, just let me bleed in peace

(I just can't help myself,
I just can't help myself -
Myself, myself!
Myself, myself!
Myself, myself!)

It's balanced on my wrist
My pulse is populous
It grips my skeleton
Of course, you'd know -

My god, you break the skin
But may I be thy heaven?
Will you take my sickness
While I deprive you of your health?

I bit my fingernails
Until I tasted bone
So my body remains
But my purpose just stopped
My habits wouldn't heal
I had to have killed god
And my body remains
But the person is gone -

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released June 13, 2025
prod. mila moon <3
www.instagram.com/milaa.mp3/?hl=en

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clem turner Paterson, New Jersey

Clem Turner is a cloud enthusiast and painter based in Paterson, NJ.

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