Sun. Disappear
Barefaced and honest.
🤘🏼💖🤘🏼
Favorite track: Face Value : Stay Lucky.
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Lights Out
01:41
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I don't know where to go from here
I'm so confused
This stage of my life feels so liminal
And the only anchor I have to reality is you
I know that you have your own things to worry about,
And I know it'll all turn out fine in the end, but
Everyday I worry that I'm not good enough for you, but
I'll keep trying
I'll find you in the morning sun,
And when the night is new, I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you
(You know, it’s so telling that I know so many people and I’m still the loneliest girl in the world.
But if I killed myself it’s not like nobody would notice. I think if I killed myself everyone I know would cheer. God, I deserve to kill myself so bad.
Despite everything, I still feel like a ghost in this world so what more should I do than die. I’m so tired of crying. I feel invisible, and it’s like, nobody truly understands me. Nobody KNOWS me, not like they think that they do. It’s always, like, oh it’s the surface level bare minimum bullshit but no one understands how much pain I’m in every day of my life. It’s not worth living, I just push everyone away when they get too close.
I don’t have anybody I trust enough to talk to or to depend on but myself and that’s just so awesome, isn’t it. I’m so tired of offering myself comfort when at this point it’s all I do when I’m awake.)
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I’ve been here a thousand times and back again
I never believed in you
I’ve been here a thousand times and back again
I never took you for this
I took you at face value
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I Stayed
03:45
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I stayed forever with you
I can’t take it anymore
I can’t take it anymore
Anymore, anymore
I stayed with you
All my life
I can’t take anymore
I stayed with you all my life
I can’t take anymore
With your influence, I stayed
With your narcissism, I stayed
With your insecurity, I stayed
With you, I stayed
I stayed, I stayed, I stayed
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4. |
Dried Blood
05:14
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Take what’s inside
Cure it between my thighs
You took it all from me
I’m bleeding, can’t you see?
I’m bleeding, can’t you see?
When words are unspoken,
The tube running through
All my sinuses bleed
They bleed me dry
They bleed me dry
It’s something hard
I’m overhead
Hearing your words
They manifest
And you bleed
You bleed me dry
It’s something hard
I’m overhead
Hearing your words
They manifest
And you bleed
And you bleed me dry
When words are unspoken,
The tube running through
All my sinuses bleed
They bleed me dry
And they bleed me dry
Take what’s inside
Cure it between my thighs
You took it all from me
And I’m bleeding, can’t you see?
And I’m bleeding, can’t you see
Me?
Hooked up and high
My poor body weeps
Writhing like a worm
Taking all I had
If I had you
You’d fail me too
Flailing paper wrists
Your heart’s sewn to mine
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5. |
Caviar Dreams
01:33
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Take a pair of two gold eyes
Flip a coin, hit the right side
Always faltering with no set meaning
Dwindling lies, love that’s fleeting
Painted nails
With no set color
As if it’s all getting duller
Painted walls
With no set border
Everything is out of order
Take a pair of two gold eyes
Flip a coin, hit the right side
Always faltering with no set meaning
Dwindling lies, love that’s fleeting
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6. |
Heathen
04:25
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I told you I loved you
I repent for
All that I’ve done
Every day I wake up
I find what you’re waiting for
Was just a farce
For I was nothing but
A pawn in your game
To hate
To hate
Take it up with the man upstairs
You told the masses then that I
Was a heathen
Burn me alive
On the stake
I’ll love you either way
Either way
You make
Me smile
Ever since the pastor had me sent back down
I never knew what you wanted
From me
It’s crazy that even after all this time
You had found a way to make me look
Like I was the evil one of you
All I wanted was to love
I never knew
That this was a crime
I just want to
Live in peace
Take it up with the man upstairs
You told the masses then that I
Was a heathen
Burn me alive
On the stake
I’ll love you either way
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7. |
Sodom
03:18
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I am unwilling
Unwilling
To be in your presence
A multitude of pleasance
I’ve forgotten my way
It feels this place is Sodom
Scraping flesh pellets of boredom
It feels this place is Sodom
A faithless solemn blossom
A danger never sodden
I’m so tired
Of all the things you say
Cradle me in mud
Tell me what to say
Tell to stay
It feels this place is Sodom
Scraping flesh pellets of boredom
It feels this place is Sodom
A faithless solemn blossom
A danger never sodden
Never sodden
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Melancholy Lullaby
02:20
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As tides change and the days get shorter
I can’t tell what the world’s turned over
As the tones change within the way your voice wipes through my other half you
Never seemed to care for what we’ve made here
Anyway
Wondering how long
With you, you said to wait
But I don’t know how long I can stay
Now after everything you’ve put me through
I can say with everything in my body
You never wanted me here in the first place even if I
Continued to be what you wanted
Me to be
Wondering how long
With you, you said to wait
But I don’t know how long I can stay
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9. |
Face Value : Stay Lucky
01:35
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I never believed in you
I never took you for this
I took you at face value
Face value
Face value
Face value
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KINGS LONE Columbia, Missouri
(She/Her)
NOISY INDUSTRIAL DOOM PRINCESS ✨
I’m an Angel back from purgatory to
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