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Fear the Walking Dead
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...I Lose Myself

  • Episode aired Sep 30, 2018
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  • 53m
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Fear the Walking Dead (2015)
The Walking Dead: I Lose Myself
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Morgan struggles to find the strength to help friends in dire need before it's too late.Morgan struggles to find the strength to help friends in dire need before it's too late.Morgan struggles to find the strength to help friends in dire need before it's too late.

  • Director
    • Michael E. Satrazemis
  • Writers
    • Robert Kirkman
    • Tony Moore
    • Charlie Adlard
  • Stars
    • Lennie James
    • Alycia Debnam-Carey
    • Maggie Grace
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    6.3/10
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    • Director
      • Michael E. Satrazemis
    • Writers
      • Robert Kirkman
      • Tony Moore
      • Charlie Adlard
    • Stars
      • Lennie James
      • Alycia Debnam-Carey
      • Maggie Grace
    • 54User reviews
    • 9Critic reviews
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    Lennie James
    Lennie James
    • Morgan Jones
    Alycia Debnam-Carey
    Alycia Debnam-Carey
    • Alicia Clark
    Maggie Grace
    Maggie Grace
    • Althea Szewczyk-Przygocki
    Colman Domingo
    Colman Domingo
    • Victor Strand
    Danay Garcia
    Danay Garcia
    • Luciana Galvez
    Garret Dillahunt
    Garret Dillahunt
    • John Dorie
    Jenna Elfman
    Jenna Elfman
    • June
    Tonya Pinkins
    Tonya Pinkins
    • Martha
    Aaron Stanford
    Aaron Stanford
    • Jim Brauer
    Daryl Mitchell
    Daryl Mitchell
    • Wendell Rabinowitz
    Mo Collins
    Mo Collins
    • Sarah Rabinowitz
    Alexa Nisenson
    Alexa Nisenson
    • Charlie
    Jenny Biggs
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    Isaiah Cox
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    • Director
      • Michael E. Satrazemis
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      • Tony Moore
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    3JensSeidl

    Lazy writing is killing the show

    I don't need to list the way too many plot points in this last season where the writers just got lazy to have yet another "twist" or progress the story telling by introducing yet another stupid thing done by one or some of the characters, or some random "coincidence" that just stretches the viewers belief beyond all limits. Get some decent writers back because this could be a good show.
    8shelllane

    Loved it

    So despite all the negative comments, I really enjoyed this season. Thought it was great seeing the older characters develop & grow. Was great initially watching Strand as a changed character but was so gutted when he reverted back to being an @rse! Love the new characters June & Al. Goes without saying love Morgan!
    7fernandoschiavi

    "...I Lose Myself" feels less like a season finale than it does a series finale

    The group pickup an unconscious Al in the city where she discovers a tape from Martha to Morgan. In the video, Martha tells Morgan that she's disappointed in him and vows to make him strong. Morgan decides to help her despite John telling him that she's a lost cause. He meets her at a mile marker where she started her vendetta and drags her to a car before killing Jim's corpse. June, at the truck stop with the group, tells him on radio that everyone is sick and Martha causes the car to crash. She reveals her walker bite from Jim saying he must either kill her or she will kill him. She snidely reveals that she poured antifreeze in the water. Morgan suddenly loses it and starts choking her in anger before stopping himself. He handcuffs Martha to the car and hobbles away.

    At the truck stop, the group slowly succumbs to the poison until Morgan gets into radio contact with them and June tells them alcohol will dilute the effect of the antifreeze. Morgan arrives with Jim's beer in a truck and the group is cured. The next day, Morgan puts a reanimated Martha down and after reading Clayton's journal, Morgan decides they're going to continue helping people where they are at.

    After "No One's Gone," Fear's course correction was itself in need of a course correction. But by introducing a new villain in Martha, the show instead went all in on Morgan's quixotic efforts to save her. Lennie James is certainly up to the task, making Morgan's inner turmoil believable. In the end, though, the finale's script, penned by Chambliss and Goldberg, isn't quite up to the task of sewing up this season in a way that feels true to Fear. Without Nick and Madison, "...I Lose Myself" is a grim reminder not of Morgan's personal struggles, but of the show's struggle with itself in the absence of two main characters.

    And if it seems as though I'm dancing around discussing the finale itself, it's because I am. Aside from strong performances from James, Pinkins, and Maggie Grace, there isn't much I liked about this season ender. Just like last week's "I Lose People...," numerous plot contrivances plague this episode. In an unintentionally meta moment early on in "...I Lose Myself," Althea reacts to a moment of dumb luck by exclaiming, "You've gotta be shi**ing me!"

    The episode only goes downhill after that - and not even John Dorie pitching some serious woo with June can save it. The crux of "...I Lose Myself," and indeed the crux of season 4B, is the notion of helping fellow survivors. It's a noble thought, this idea that by saving others, we ultimately save ourselves. This becomes a bit harder to believe, though, when the very person Morgan has endeavored to save has poisoned his friends with antifreeze. In dealing with this unexpected conundrum, Morgan is faced with a watered down version of an ethical dilemma known as the "trolley problem" in which saving one life is pitted against the saving of many lives. However, what should be a moral quandary is just a head-scratching exercise in futility. Why save someone who doesn't want to be helped if it means risking the lives of survivors who actually want and need help?

    As for everyone back at the truck stop, it's here that the finale completely loses its way. Poisoning nearly every character is one thing - but there's nothing dramatic or engaging about multiple shots of the group slumped over in chairs or on the floor. Alicia certainly deserves better than this, especially after Debnam-Carey's career-defining performance in the far superior "Close Your Eyes." As luck would have it, June knows that ethanol cures antifreeze poisoning. Luckier still, there's a whole tanker of the stuff at this very rest stop. With this news, the group, which just moments before was on death's door, suddenly finds the wherewithal to kick some serious zombie ass.

    But this turn of events begs several questions: Why does the group choose to go out the front door, through the thickest part of the horde? Doesn't this place have a back door? And just because the tanker gets shot up doesn't mean the ethanol is now somehow useless - right? Can't the group use what's gushing out of the bullet holes? Isn't this essentially ethanol on tap? The final nail in the episode's coffin is Morgan showing up to save the day. As if Luciana granting a dying man's wish with one beer weren't corny enough, Morgan drives up in an Auggie's Ales truck. Please, enough of Jim. Enough with the beer. Enough with this mawkish sentimentality. None of this changes the fact that Jim was an unapologetic j*rk who cared more about himself than anyone else. In the end, Fear banks heavily on the group going forth into the world to help others. On paper, this is very much the sort of optimism so many of us need right now. But in its execution, this desire to write off Alexandria in favor of helping local survivors feels more like an ending than it does a new beginning. In other words, "...I Lose Myself" feels less like a season finale than it does a series finale. Were the latter true, I'd be more at peace in writing this show off. Because in its current state, this isn't the Fear I once eagerly championed. For all intents and purposes, that show is dead.
    3adelao-02096

    Tired of Morgan

    Not a good end of season, not a great season overall, seemd rushed towards the end. I was not a fun of Madison or Nick, not sorry they got lost on the way, some of the new characters are better, but making everything about Morgan is just annoying. I fast forwarded most of the seson finale episode, can't stand anymore to watch scenes with just Morgan or Morgan and crazy lady, what was the point of that? Morgan the saint? A converted man? Please... it's boring and totally unrealistic. You want to prove you would do anything to help your friends, than stay with them don't go chasing crazy people. Not looking forward to Season 5, unless they loose Morgan and concentrate a bit more on the other characters.
    3Rob-O-Cop

    Marketing Strategy - please don't cancel us, look 5 x 10/10 reviews, it must be good..

    Updated after watching the episode.

    I'm still having trouble believing that the script ISN'T written as an experiment in how stupid you can make plot points and get away with it. The ethanol tanker, cos that stuff was in big demand and tankers of it were all over the place just before the zombie apocalypse, yep, anyway...., hey look, there's one outside and they need to drink some of it cos it cures anti freeze, but it gets shot up,... and then there was none, hang on.??? like not even some in the bottom of the barrel?, or a last drip or 3 of it coming out the holes they could get with their bucket, or like puddles of it they could scoop up from the big tanker that spilled it's content onto the ground. Seriously, no seriously, could the 5 year old children who write this script not come up with a better reason for the ethanol run to fail than it poured onto the ground and becoming invisible? Here's one, it got set on fire, there you go, problem solved, and a nice special effect stunt to make it exciting. Honestly all of us apart from the '10/10, best-episode-ever!!!, 'please-don't-make-me-lose-my-job-by-getting-my-show-cancelled' bots' feel we could write a better show than the handful of people actually hired to write the show.

    The rest was the normal (for this show) children's preschool level story telling, grunted in caveman level explanations. Morgan need to show he 'does what he says', Morgan tells everyone, "he does what he say", Morgan do what he say!!! everyone laughs 'ha ha, ha ha'. It really is that simplistic. And the moral of the story, beer cures everything, let's all have a happy beer, even the kid, but just this once,

    Now there's a mysterious Denim factory we've not heard anything about before the last 5 mins?

    This season started out well with ep 1, then 3 ok episodes, then a really good episode in ep 5 - 'Laura', the John Dorie focused one, then, a bunch of rubbish ones and one other decent one in ep 11, but only just decent. That's a pretty poor result for series 4 but still better than the last 2 series.

    The actors are good, the production values, sound, and camera are good. The stories are terrible, and the writing is beyond bad, It's intelligence insulting nonsensical preschool basic rubbish. This show could be good. hire me, or anyone on this board apart from the drones you're already paying to put up good reviews.

    Check it out. 5 glowing reviews of this episode almost before it even aired. How does that happen? I'm guessing these are staff writers, or maybe even the actual program script writers who put so little effort in on the actual show they had enough time to come on here and put in a little job security effort to try and get a dying show that lost its way and is all over the place, renewed for a 6th season. Good luck to you team. Hopefully the $20 you invested in this campaign of hype pays off and you all get gainful employment for another year. But, back to the show. I'll fill in the detail as soon as I see it.

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      In 2012, all manufacturers of antifreeze began adding a bittering agent that is impossible to not notice. Any amount of antifreeze capable of making someone sick would be instantly detectable in a bottle of water.
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      • September 30, 2018 (United States)
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