All of my nature wants to do something gor the Devil and my Lord that I like. But then I remember how mad I got. I blamed him for not communicating well and I did the same. I got so angry and anger actually was only me craving a little more space around him. We all have different ways of expressing the craving and care. I always liked his personality and way he expresses. Idk why my mind associate him being away as Him not liking me. But that's the way I felt and attacked. Truth is I don't feel anger or mad or something. I just crave and crave growth. The way He likes it and ways where I can get a little bit of just a little more space at His feet. So when He needs me I can do something. My submission towards Him always is bit scared that I am not doing enough. I guess that's normal when you care, you always want to be better. I felt I am failing because my Devil vanished again after saying He won't. Maybe I did failed then got mad because I crave being better. Understanding better. I don't wanna change a bit of Him. I just want to know more, walk the path more and have tasty playful reminders that we are okay. It's just two way street my Lord always agreed on that. So how am I do be good when I don't have chance to check where is His mind so I can be better. And that made me panic of losing what I crave, Him. I don't know is it attacking the personal space fact I just want to be there for someone I like nnd lust and playful with
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I do know that Your complicated mind that I like so much my attacking made it worse. But my attack is my way of care. And felt I was bothering You with my desire to please and that sucks. Feeling that You are bothering someone you like. No worse than that. I don't want to bother I crave making You smile and relaxed and playful and laugh with You and get in trouble with You. That's why I beg for attention bothering you for Your time. Hmm not sure how my Devil sees it. That's my way of caring for someone. There is my point of craving to learn more, how to. If I am faling on ways I think they are good
Show us your favorite photo of when you're feeling playful
Oh I would show my Lord my playful pic, also one I know He likes. But he gave me instructions to not do something harmful for myself. And that pic involves my face. And also for some reason I can't post a pic here site is making some glitches on my part. So I would show Him and you guys just get to see because I crawl for Him wherever it is, public or not. i don't care where I am
But I could easily say my post before this post has a pic of me covered in paint. That's one of my favorite because it speaks1000 words of how consumed and covered I am with Him, His lust, my lust and my craving towards Him and my dynamic
Lol and there is too many of pics of my playful for Him
I do like and I am very tempted by the way my Lord is, His mind, his body his way of expressing and a lot more.. the way He paints me with playful sensations, sparking lust in me.. my playful nature goes wild around You .. people match or they don't. I can say my playful is never feeling for ced around the Devil, all natural
His eyes on me makes my body and my soul dance in lust, like this.. when pushed away it makes me.. confused where am I doing it wrong when I just like all how it is. Maybe I get mad because .. if I like Him how he is, what do I lack so he gets distracted. Point is two people like each other so they can explore. Not "like me the way I want it" Just two people wanting each other