as i've grown more aware of who i am as a person, i've had more frequent episodes of debilitating anxiety, panic, or otherwise general dysphoria. some days it feels like it can't get better because all my problems seems to be intertwined, and i can't find the knot that holds everything together. despite these episodes, my mental health is overall improving, but i still have bad days.
the majority of this album was recorded during a particular episode in which i was nonetheless inspired by my emotions to create something more unorthodox than my typical NMS fare. i had no expectations of what would come about with the setup i haphazardly threw together on the living room table, but fast forward a month later, i present to you "thermal narrative report".
i don't find much personal meaning in a lot of art/media. that doesn't mean i don't find art beautiful; i just mean, at the very least, i don't find a lot of art to be relatable. even with my own works: i don't really tend to make music in which i can tell you there is some deeper meaning. i quite literally try to make what sounds good to my ears at that point in time of recording—music that i want to hear more of, if i can't already find it elsewhere.
however, with this album, while serving as a culmination of everything i've wanted to do with this alias, i've surprised myself by making something that i also resonate a lot with. i'm inclined to say a lot of this is because of how the album was recorded.
with sampling serving, to me, as the main vehicle of emotional expression on this album, the times where the sampling starts stumbling over itself, feeding back, or disconnecting completely from the rest of the track really hit home due to how i've felt during my aforementioned episodes: abstract, out of body, and cognitively dissonant.
abstract: all the song titles are borderline meaningless, but secretly mean something i was trying to express in shorthand—a technique i have been trying to apply more, suggested to me by my friend Brock Bierly
out of body: the mixing on this album is strange and tinny, with every element seeming to sit in its own frequency band, despite how hazy the overall sound is.
cognitively dissonant: i keep in the wrong notes and haphazard tape cuts and (feedback squealing)(feedback squealing)(feedback squealing)(feedback squealing)(feedback squealing)
there's a ton more i could say about this album, but honestly my head doesn't work linearly enough to be able to think of everything in one sitting. i may update this page more in the future with more insight on my headspace during the time of making it, but otherwise in the meantime, i would like to lift the veil. hope it pays off.
credits
released May 2, 2025
recorded: march 29/30, 2025
..............: at home
..............: direct to tape
..............: using radio, synth, looper, fx & mixer
..............: looking out the window and inward
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Stellar work from telepath; and Nmesh conveys that dense jungle feeling like nobody else on this earth can. Astounding work. Love this on wax for a nice detox after both a bad or good day <3 kookyc
Gorgeous music that is almost impossibly still, “For Being” finds the meeting point between serenity and strangeness. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 16, 2019
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Who could've ever guessed that this whole concept, this whole glorious album, was just completely based off of a Rush song? I had NO idea until recently 2024. Last song is so badass, I just don't know where to start. ripcurrent