Acting like a human is tiring, I'm a dog
To me, humanity is a complicated thing. I don't know if I entirely subscribe to all that it entails.
As a transgender girlthing who considers itself a dog on the internet (and in person), I have a couple reservations about how to "fit into society". It's something I've been thinking about for a while now, and I find it very difficult articulate my thoughts. This post has been in my drafts for over a week, but now I think it's in a good enough state for the internet to see.
I'm very open about being transgender. I have pins on my backpack, stickers on my laptop, and trans flags on every profile I'm able to customize. While I do get plenty of positive (pawsitive 🐾) interactions because of it, I unfortunately also get an equal amount of hate.
In a world where people who are different are often treated as 'lesser', it makes sense that one might embrace the labels forced upon them rather than trying to reject them. A research paper on puppygirls 🔞1 I read a couple months ago really stuck with me. It does an excellent job of capturing my feelings on the matter and putting them into words where I can't. I never aligned with humanity, how could I, when organizations across the globe push for the eradication of others like me? Is leaning into the dehumanization and making it my own so bad?
Being out in public, I always feel like I'm just putting on a performance. Clearly it's a good one, considering nobody has called me out on it yet, but I never feel like I properly fit in with everyone else. The collar I wear daily is a rejection of responsibility, a rejection of humanity. Humans don't wear collars, animals do.
The effort required to be a person is much more than to just be a simple mutt. The expectations put on dogs are vastly different than those for regular people too. I'm a puppy!! I want to curl up on a dog bed and be fed treats from people! My only worries should be barking for people when asked to!!! Not any of this "school" stuff or "finding a job" or "being normal and respectable"!!
I wouldn't entirely say it's a kink, more like kink is the safest way to perform in a manner I am happy and comfortable without making others uncomfortable. I know some people have issues with using it/its pronouns, or calling me Puppy, but it's what makes me happy. It affirms the way I see myself, and the way I want to be seen by others.
By announcing myself as a dog, an animal, I reject responsibility, I reject societal expectations, and I am more free than I could have ever been as a human. This isn't the kind of post I would typically put on this blog, but it's something that is very important to me, something that I feel defines a big part of who I am. Woof woof.
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