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Traumatized!

Malam sabtu lepas, kami anak beranak trauma akibat ribut sekitar bandar. Lepas Maghrib cadangnya mencari baju renang utk kelas Sabtu. Dok belek2 dalam kedai tetiba dengar hujan lebat sangat. Memang havoc, dengan angin kuat, adib dah start peluk2 aku.
Pikir2 memang kena balik jugak sebab takut air naik. So, redah hujan masuk kereta. Kalau parking jauh memang lenjun habis.
Kat bandar angin memang kuat, dekat depan Sara Thai Kitchen dah banjir. Aku nak lalu Padang Lalang sebab tengok kereta depan Vistana dah slow, maknanya depan Sri Malaysia sangkut air la tu. Bila lalu kat Padang Lalang tengok semua kereta berpatah balik, air pasang besar malam tu, patah balik, lalu pulak Jalan Beserah. Sampai je simpang kat traffic light Air Putih tengok semua kereta slow,dalam hati dah berdebar2 takut ada accident, rupanya jem jalan dek sebab pokok tumbang kat depan pasaraya Eng Hong, mmg besar pokok yg tumbang tu..dalam hati doa je supaya takde le org terperangkap, takut jugak kot budak2 ni nampak, Afiq makin kuat berdoa dan berzikir. Aku cuba guna simpang pintas ke Kuantan Garden, tak lepas jugak, pokok tumbang lagi.
Aku dah berpeluh2 dalam kereta, budak2 ni dah le takut. Lalu pulak laluan lain, Alhamdulillah laluan Kubang Buaya boleh digunakan. Tapi banyak rumah yg tercabut atap, pasu2 besar tepi jalan semua pecah, Afiq pulak nampak ada anjing yg terbaring kena hempap pokok. Maha Suci Allah, itu semua peringatan untuk kita yang lalai...

Bila balik rumah, aku tengok semua hero kesat air mata, dalam kete aku dah pesan, sebab tu la kena solat betul2, mintak Allah selamatkan kita. Sampai je rumah terus depa solat Isyak...malam tu la aku tengok depa solat paling lama..siap doa lagi..full package. Dalam hati berkata, inilah hikmahnya bila diduga, anak kecil pun mengerti ttg keperluan bersyukur..Apatah lagi kita yang dah kertu ni..

Jodoh tak panjang...

Aku mula kenal dia tahun 99, memnag dia memahami aku, mana je aku pergi mesti dengan dia, dia byk bersama aku dalam episod sedih, suka, duka. I love him a lot. Banyak masa dihabiskan bersama.
Dah beberapa lama bersama, ada la suara2 sumbang yang mengatakan kami tak sesuai bersama, dah tua..cari aje yang lain...Memang aku marah, sebab aku tau walaupun rupanya tak hensem tapi banyak kelebihannya, lebih2 lagi dia pandai berbudi, pada yang tua ataupun yang muda. Itu yang menyebabkan aku memang sayang dengan dia.
Tapi dah nampak angin2 keretakan hubungan kami, kadang2 dia ok, kadang2 dia tak ok, macam merajuk je dengan aku, mungkin ada perbuatan atau perkataan aku yang mengguris hati. Aku cuba jugak pujuk2, dan nampak reda le sikit rajuknya tu.
Tapi rupanya memang jodoh kami tak panjang, ada orang lain yang berkenan, nak dijodohkankan untuk anak gadisnya...

Aku terpaksa lepaskan dengan berat hati..Cinta pertama tu..mana boleh lupa...
Aku harap "IS" bahagia dengan orang baru, katanya ada kat Beserah, kalau sesapa terjumpa bagitau aku ya..boleh jugak aku pergi jenguk2.

2012 is here

2nd day at work for new year. 2nd week of school for the kids. Today not so good, they woke up late because Mr Bos is not around to wake them up. Bila dgn mak, huih..liat, kalau dgn ayah, sekali panggil dah bangkit.

Took leave for the first week, arrage for new KAFA place, uniforms, etc. Mind and body needs to adjust to long forgotten routine. Now i have to get up much, much earlier. Need to prepare meals for the 3 heroes. This year i decide that i'm not going to give them options of what to bring to school during recess, ikut je menu aku..Dulu ok lagi 2 org, ni dah 3 org sekolah, macam2 menu, pening chef.

It's hard to believe that Adib is already in year one. Sedih pun ada..my babies are all grown up...he was very excited....unlike me...letting go is hard..

To the 3 heroes, do well in school. Hopefully we'll be able to get the reward during the coming school holidays!

58 or 60?

Retirement age, itu la dilema dlm diri aku sekarang, ntah2 tak sempat jangkau usia emas...huhuhuhu tahun depan dah masuk 4 series...dah layak baca majalah Midi muahahahaha...

bila pikir balik, rasa nak ambik balik option umur 55, tp masa sign tu ingatkan bila2 nak pencen pun boleh, tp kena pikir gak, masa tu bebudak tu kat mana, kalau belajar lagi cukup ke duit nak menampung pembelajaran..dah le sekarang ni kalau takat diploma or degree pun payah dapat kerja...kalau aku sambung sampai 60, ntah ok ntah tidak, bila lif opis rosak, mau ketar lutut naik tangga, silap2 orang hadiahkan aku tongkat untuk hari jadi, lebih sadis kalau bagi kerusi roda...inipun byk benda aku lupa...kalau 60...alahai....

hihihihi..imaginasi mesti lebih..tapi kalau tgk mak aku steady je lagi...biar dah lebih 60...tapi bila pikir balik, aku kena pencen lebih awal la, ada masa aku pi dating dgn Mr. Bos, maklum la lama benor dok jauh2...hmmm..macam ni baik aku pencen tahun depan je ngeh ngeh....

With or without you...

It's been almost 2 weeks without mom and my sister since they left for Haj. The kids and i are slowly adjusting ourselves to the new schedule. A few adjustments needs to be made. Transit place for the kids, new van for Adib..The kids, especially Adib was very worried about adjusting to the new plans. What if the van forgot to pick him up...what if he falls sick...etc, etc. That's too much of thinking done by a 6 year old. He's also worried if nobody will cook for him, if i had to go on a course, there's only going to be the three of them alone..poor boy. He even grumbled why didn't he had a haj passport, why is it so expensive to perform haj, and why did they leave us alone...It was heart wrecking indeed.

The first few days were very hectic. Lots of tears for the kids. Sometimes they were late for religious classes that they didn't have time for lunch, so they ended up like hungry tigers when they got home. They also cried on some nights. So we gave in and took them 'jalan-jalan' to let them had some fun time. Now it looks better, their faces are more happier especially when they receive sms from my mom.

Hopefully they will be able to perform the ibadah without difficulties. Amin..

a heart wrenching moment

Yesterday he called me at 5.58pm, he was asking about the raincoat that i gave him recently. i told him to check it first, if it's unsuitable then don't use it. I also told him that the radio mentioned about heavy rain and asked him to be careful.

After iftar and maghrib prayers, i received a call from him. i was just about to ask him about the raincoat and he told me he had an accident. Allah..i couldn't believe my ears..my heartbeat stopped at that moment. He said his hand was badly cut. i wanted to ask more, but then he was going to the clinic and told me that he'll call me...
I don't know what to do or think, part of me blamed myself for giving him the raincoat...i kept praying let him be well...i'm here and he's there. At that moment i remembered that the day was 14th of Sept, the day Papa passed away..i was so worried but i couldn't cry.

Later he asked me to call him. When i managed to talk to him, tears kept falling, i couldn't speak...he told me that it was raining heavily and somehow the raincoat got stuck to the chain of the motorbike. He fell down and another motorbike fell too, he said that if it's only him who fell down, the cars might hit him. Some cars stop and helped him to get up.
I only thank Allah for saving him..it could be worse..

Today is his birthday, and thank you Allah for saving him. I can only pray that if anything bad happened to him, let it be in my presence.
That heart wrenching moment, one minute he was talking to me, the next hour he was already in pain.

This entry is dedicated to all, enjoy your time with your loved ones, we don't know if that's the last moment Allah permit us to be together.

Mr Boss, happy birthday, despite the painful cuts & bruises, and maybe scars, i still love you.