A Season of Change

random moods
of an unsettled soul
still overshadow my smile
though I try to control
thoughtless actions
and those biting words
giving those ill thoughts
credence strikes me so obsurd
so I sip truth syrum
and just remember when
a friendship was true,strong
will it be back again
like the swinging door
of his changing mood
and the seasons of time
.....or will you stay unglued

Nothing Left to Say

Nothing left to say
to a twisted, jagged mind
that saps my strength,
my ingenuity
and breaks my sinking spirit
without a second thought
a pouting child
doesn't get its way
and stomps and pounds
its feet
no wonder true love
never stays
what's worse your
suspicion or deceit?
Nothing left to say
No, nothing left to say

Empty Chamber

empty chamber
precursor to loss
energy fading
pondering the cost
a remedy for the physical
disturbing the emotional
denial abruptly burns
as the tears of
reality churn
the wheels of inner
conflict
combat the sharp
words they afflict
no soothing a heart
that is now broken
not even the venom
of the words I leave unspoken
the empty chamber echoes
as it's so hollow
as I dream of happier
paths I wish I could follow

Noise

chattering noise brewing inside
irritates the sensibilities
and shakes the core of my sanity
the wait is long and arduous
while hope is feeble and tired
gathering wild rosebuds at my feet
I take what I can as I ponder defeat
the girl in the mirror, so foreign now
change is certain
no looking back now

Endometriosis

Yes, I do know what endometriosis is - unfortunately. I have it and it's not pretty. It's one of the most misunderstood diseases out there, and I think most people don't know what it is, although so many people have it. It's incurable and not always manageable. My disease happens to be one of the unmanageable cases and one of the worst cases. I'm in chronic pain, agony and have not responded to any of the treatment - at least not significantly enough. I've been forced to make some serious decisions and will be having major surgery next month (more on that another day). I'm mostly mad that there isn't more research being done to cure this disease and I hate to say it but I have to suspect that it has something to do with it being a woman's disease and probably politics too. I'm sad that people are suffering, most of us have pain to some degree and oddly enough some people who have it don't have any symptoms. Symptoms and pain don't always correlate with the stage of the disease, which I find very interesting. So many questions, no answers.

Endometriosis Anyone?

Does anyone know what Endometriosis is?

I have a lot to say on the subject but I'd really like to hear what the general public actual knows about this incurable disease.