Final

Kind of late announcement, but I have shifted to

http://fivemoremonths.blogspot.com/

Not good

It is late now, supposed to be sleeping. However all my teammates are still up and working hard. Leave only me who are lazy and go back to sleep. Bad bad.

These few days a funny thought comes to my mind. I do not believe it. How could I think of giving up my studies here? Then go for travelling and resume studying at other university. Am I too stressful in this particular university (so mathematical way of writing)? So far it seems like I am doing fine and trying a lot of unexpected things. Why this kind of thought comes to me?

Maybe I need to rethink the reason why I am here. I guess not many people can actually answer this question to themselves. However, they are still able to live their lives. I should put it aside first...

Back

Most important thing to say. I am back, safely. Look forward for the update of my trip.

Haha

Yesterday morning, when I woke up and saw the email. My heart was so cold... After awhile, I finally realised that it will probably solve our problem. Yes, a good news. Which can save me a lot of trouble. So can go on the trip with a good mood.

Now only need to confirm the timeslot for performance. And travel plan is finally out. I feel so tired today, will not do work today!! Need to rest.

Yes, it has been long time since I last wrote. Even the previous post, I actually wrote it few hours ago though it was dated much earlier. It was so busy, so busy... And it will continue until schoool reopen... Then another phase of business.

Add oil!!

Things

It has been terrible for me. So many parties trying to stretch me at the same time. It is good to stretch ourselves, to help us grow. But please not at one go.

I know I should be appreciate as this shows that there are so many people who are willing to help me to grow further. And I am really thankful. Most importantly, you are just doing your parts to help me, since no one knows how many people are stretching me.

Music, leadership, administration, construction, design, emergency respond and more... All these are compacted into this holiday. My first summer holiday is so eventful. I am so luck. The only worry in my mind is that I will fall sick or too tired, until I could not further learn in the upcoming trip. And I am feeling unwell now... I do not wish to waste my parents' money just like that.

Oh

Just back from outside. These few days are really tiring, could not get enough sleep. Two more weeks, then it is the day.

Work harder and harder. Things will go better.. I just need more time to sleep.

Do Work

Today is a tiring day. I can only say so.

Every side demands full effort from me, which, sadly, I could not fulfill it. I went to practice just now, I just cannot make it. There is a big gap between seniors and me. I know they are trying to help me to stretch myself, but I have no more energy to spare. I wish I have more time.

Activities are still the same for everyday, just wake up and start work. I did not go back to continue with work. So many administration thing to be done. A long list of it.

I am still wanting for the call to tell me the results. I am confused whether I want it. But it seems to me an easy way out from current situation.


Still halfway reading that novel. Nearly two weeks, blame work that prevents me from reading it. This volume is about nationalisme. I am seriously affected by the book, not those bad one. Just that it really makes me think a lot.

We should learn and use our language. Then why should we learn foreign language (in this case, Dutch)? This is to help us to see what we cannot see about ourselves. People at the other side of the world might be able to understand us and our people better than us.

You are the hope of your people because you learn.

Smile

Days pass so fast. Before I could realise (I realise now), we have formed a strong bond among our team. Thanks to seeing each other for more than 16 hours everyday. Except weekends, just for the moment. It was very itchy (wrong use of English) in my heart as I saw all the architecture things since some of us are from school of design and environment. Haha, I have never seriously thought of studying architecture before.

I think I have some lapses of memoris. Haha, something are missing from my brain. Anyway eyeing the future and forgetting the past.

Again, I need to nag. I really feel appreciative to my parents. The feeling is getting stronger and stronger as I see more and more things. I understand more the knowledge I learnt last time, the skill and life skill I acquired. I still remember last time I always complain to them that I do not want to learn subjects other than sciences. However now I know the meaning of those knowledge.

Put it in simple, just learn whatever we can, do not judge them.

Tired

Getting busier and busier. Less and less time to rest. Also nearly no more time to study.

Praying more and more these days. Just hope it will come true. Hope that health will not stop me. I want to save money!! Just now went to update passbook and my account is so empty. I pray..

I am tired, yet I need more energy to work. Nothing much to talk about my life these days. Wake up and work, and sleep. Not a very healthy lifestyle. I pray that my prayer comes true, then I will have more time for myself. I pray hard and hard.

Still reading that novel, very slowly. Too tired to read everyday. Especially my day ends at 3 plus am..

Home

I miss home. I always say home is where we are. It is not totally right, as our childhood memory will be always a home to us. No matter it is a good or bad reflection for us, we just feel home when we are back.

Tomorrow, safe journey. Welcome back.