life since then

Can't believe it has been 3 years since I last posted in blogspot. I am almost forgetting the existence of this blog until today. Opened up and saw my final posts were all about recipes. I guess I had lost that life of sitting around and writing nonsense words since two monsters have taken over my life fully. Still cooking but to the extend of limiting my daily cooking time to 40 minutes. My goal is to have food serve on dinning table within 40 minutes I arrived home from work. Most of the time the goal is met except today. I had underestimated the time to cook Japanese curry because I didn't realize it's a type of stew. The potatoes and carrots have to be slow cooked at least half an hour to get soft texture. However there is still half a pack of roux left so I will leave it for weekend cooking next.

Time flies. Really. Grew couple of fine lines beside my eyes, tummy budging from the effect of stretching skin by carrying two offspring and few strands of grey hair found in the span of a year. The age is catching up. At this time of life, my mind is going around to how to provide the best for my kids, filling them up with survival lessons and building great characters of them. Met my buddy last weekend during a good friend's wedding reception. Still remember how she accompanied me to get soy milk during my first pregnancy every day at 3pm. I needed that walk so much to relax my muscle and got the girly talk done. 

Somehow it brought back some memories of another junior who had since left the company who loves playing with hair so much she was in my office most of the time to tie my hair into different style or bun. Felt like eternity whenever memories started flowing in. Then it went back some more to another buddy who was always with me , in my office chatting and laughing. Most of the ladies I know already have their family and be a mother. So much random thoughts tonight. 

Recently read the message posted by a 27 years old lady called Holly Butcher where she is at her final days of cancer suffering. It made me think of my friend and cousin who had passed away few years back at the age of early thirties. Life is so fragile. You never know what will come one day, in few minutes, hours, days, or years. I am learning and keep reminding myself to always be kind to everyone around me. Sometimes I forgotten and is rude to people that are close to me. I guess I need to make that sisters' trip happening soon. Yvonne is trying to bring everyone together but no one seems to giving it much thoughts as her. She even tried to figure out the itineraries and did research of places we initially wanted to go. Things are not easy to bring all sisters together as we are scattered around the globe. Everyone has own commitments either to family, work or study. 

Today I managed to catch up with an old friend who is also a close friend. I almost going to console myself of the missing things I am still wailing for then realizing I did not miss anything. It's my own fault for not following up close on each friends' update. My cashew nuts are done roasting in oven, and time for me to put my son to bed.