#moveon 2015

Starting for 2015 sgt x cool..
Been dumped for the 2nd time sgt sakit like the 1st..
Bile kau 'disuruh pergi bawa diri..'
Apa lg pilihan yg kau ada..
Menusuk..
Hanya mampu berdoa utk diberi kekuatan..
Seperti mana aku bangkit mcm yg 1st dlu..

Tipulah kalau x rindu..
Rindu momen2 tu..
Tp tu sume dh berlalu..
Kau hilang mcm xde ape berlaku..
So..aku jd stalker tegar bile rindu tu bertamu..
Syg kau xtahu..

Allah beri kafarah kat aku..
Lama sgt Dia tggu aku..
Ingat Dia bila perlu..
Ampunkan aku..

Semoga kau baik2 saja..
X ingat aku pn xpa..
Aku doakan yg terbaik utk kita..

Patah hati tu biasa..
Alah bisa tegal biasa..
Smga kuat bangkit semula..

-R.D-

pelan-pelan..hilang..

Sekali lagi..

-R.D-

fin..

Andai ini penyudahnya,

Terima kasih untuk segalanya..

-RD-

LETTER TO SOUL MATE

LETTER TO SOUL MATE

Dear Soul mate,

I don’t know where you are, but I know you exist. I feel you in my heart and I see you in my dreams.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. Sometimes I gaze up at the stars, and I feel comforted because I know somewhere you are staring upon the same sparkling stars searching for me ….. but yet lost in thoughts of me and the life we will someday share.

Will today be the day you find me?

-R.D-

Jauh.Bangun.Bangkit..

"Ya Tuhan… kalau dia jodohku, dekatkanlah. Kalau dia bukan jodohku, Jauhkanlah"

jauh..patutlah semakin jauh..jauh sangat..


Semoga tak lama.
Untuk bangun semula..


-R.D-

When a GIRL.....

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after afew seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

sekali lagi..

hati jadi berdebar..
tangan terketar-ketar..
mulut hilang kata-kata..

apa yang sepatutnya..
hati berkira-kira..
maju atau terus disitu pilihannya..
mungkin terus bertahan apa adanya..

Ya Tuhan..
Tunjukkan aku jalannya..
Permudahkan segalanya..
Hanya padaMu aku meminta..
Tabah hati harungi segalanya..
Moga tiada kali kedua..

Tapi Tuhan..
Jika ini takdirnya..
Aku reda pasrah segalanya..
Pimpin aku tunjuki aku sejelasnya..
Agar aku bisa benam rasa yang ada..
Jauh tinggalkannya disana..
Tanpa perlu ku ingat semula..
Bisa yang sama..

-R.D-

entri bajet @#$&!

Semakin aku lawan..
Semakin aku kalah..


Tp x kan mengalah..
Hanya pasrah..

Aku serahkn semuanya pada takdir aku..
Itu yang sepatutnya..

Terus berserah..

Moga Allah tunjukkan jalan..
Agar dipermudahkan segalanya..

Ps:
Selamat tahun baru..
Epy CNY..

R.D: Ni entry pertama 2013..

Xoxo..publish!!

Adam & Hawa..

Sekarang tgh feeling2..

feeling2 adam datang..haha..

Adam sape yg nak dtg??adam aku la..

Adam aku sape??ade ke??jeng..jeng..jeng..

Wahai adam..
datanglah pada saya bila awak dah sedia..(wallah..ayat x le blah..)

dulu lain..sekarang lain...

hrni hari ke 25 di opis baru..
so rutin di segamat totally aku dah tinggalkan..
so now proceed with the new life n new routine..


DULU:

bangun pagi kul 7.20 pon rileks lagi
tiap isnin bangun kul 4 tu perkara wajib
kat ofis boleh FB manjang
otw gi opis jln smooth gile..melainkan kalo ade kodok KATO tgh2 jalan..
xde traf lite n tol..gile heaven..kos to l= negatif
hnya ade 2 jalan je dr umah ke opis..
ade bilik khas n privacy melantak2 dlm bilik..
thumbprint jam 8 perkara biasa..
thumbprint, gi bekfes n masuk ofis kul 9..
parking spesial utk pegawai
bilik bos dgn bilik sendri sngat lah jauh..bos x tau aku wat ape..
dlu ade 12 staff nk kna supervise..
balik jam 7 dah rutin..
makan kedai hari2..
tido jam 9.30 paling awal
keja byk tapi wat santai2..
ade roomate,hosmet yang boleh wat gado..luahan perasaan hari2..
ade teman tido kat katil sblh..
bgn pagi boleh gado dgn org sebelah soh bgn n mndi dlu..

source: tumblr

SEKARANG:

pagi isnin dah x kalut nak blk segamat..
bangun weekdays jam 6!!
kuar umah jam 6.50 pagi..
kuar je umah, jln dpn umah pun dah jem!!
byk option jalan dr umah ke opis..sumenye highway..
dan bnyk TOL jgk dr umah ke opis..
no privacy, no room n just cubicle..
hanya ada 2 staff sj untuk disupervise..
FB waktu ofis??Sorry!!!
BOS depan mata..so keja all d time..bos xde mmg heaven!!
punch out plg lewat jam 5.20..(blh caye x aku blk on time skrg??)
makan kat umah je skrg ok..no mamak, no mek...
berebut parking dgn staff len n student..
bekfes kna ikut jadual..jadual bekfes aku tiap hari jam 8.30..
kna lalu 5 traf lite n 3 tol setiap hari..kos tol 1 hari = RM8.40
tido plg lewat jam 12.00..
keja sikit tp perah keringat..dah xde teman tdo..tdo sorg2 dlm bilik..
xde kwn gado pagi2..bgn pagi trs kna mandi..xde mls2 tgu org dlm blk mndi siap..
skrg ade mslh pendam sorg2..n msg mekni soh kol blk n wat luahan perasaan kt mekni..huhu..



takat ni itu je dlu update aku kat opis baru ni..bye2 segamat..

p/s: siyes aku rindu hidup di segar amat!!


R.D: hidup perlukan perubahan..