The last 2 days we have spent up in SLC.  The first day we took the Front Runner (train) up there which the kids LOVED, and today we just drove up on our own. On Thursday when we went up we went to City Creek first to grab some grub and while we were at the fountains we had a very special person standing right next to us. It was my first experience meeting an Apostle, President Uctdorf. At first his security guy said that we couldn't shake his hand because he was in the middle of talking, but then he said as he starts walking he would love to shake your hand, so I waited...yes i did. And He shook mine and Saylas hand and gave her a little rub on the head. Experience we will never forget. THe first thing that sayla said was..."Where's Eyring?" Pretty cute. Here are some pics of the 2 days.

7 months later...

Back in the blogging world I come. I think i've said that a few times, but I'm working on a little something that I will be posting about soon. I'm sure there is absolutely not one soul that even comes to my blog much anymore due to the fact that there is usually a 6 month lapse in between each post. Don't blame ya. Well for those who are reading, life is definitely different than it was. I now have 2 children. Our little William Gray introduced himself September 21st 2012. He is my little boyfriend. My goal is to get his birth story up sometime in his lifetime. ;) Sayla adjusted better than I expected. Now that doesn't mean that it was easy, cause it wasn't and it still is not. I always dreamed of having lots of kids when i was little and even in my older growing up years too, but i'll tell you this...motherhood is the hardest thing i've ever done. the rewards that come with it are for sure worth it, but HARD is almost an understatement. There are people in this world who are just born to be mothers, and I truly don't believe that it was a gift given to me at birth. I know that I am really hard on myself. I do expect perfection in myself in so many ways. It's something I am constantly struggling with. With that trait, motherhood is almost always a failure in my eyes, so it's hard. It is such a joy to see Sayla grow up and bloom into her own little person. We have a fire and ice kinda relationship that is always a struggle for me as well as her. I am learning how to  help her blossom in the sweet dynamic, determined little girl that she is, and most of the time I like to be in control, and with her that usually doesn't happen. She is the best big sister. I have so much i want to change in my life right now and I am definitely on a journey to find myself and where and what I am supposed to do and be in this life. I know I should probably have that figured out for the most part right now, but I don't. So be looking for what I've been working on. It will be coming hopefully sooner than later. In the meantime enjoy some of my pictures. 

Life as we know it.

It's been a while. randomly felt like updating my blog, so here I am. I tell myself all the time I should be better with it, but I struggle. Life as we know it, flies by, and there's way too much to be able to get in in one post. So here are a bunch of pics of what we've been up to. Lots of fun, and getting ready for our new little guy in 5 weeks. It might change, but as of now, the name we have picked is William Gray Stradling. He will go by Gray. Cliff's grandpas name is William, and so is my Grandpas name, so it's pretty special. We can't wait to meet him. Nervous for the adjustment, but also excited and know we are all ready for this addition. He will be very much loved, and is needed in our little family.

We have really been struggling with Sayla and her sleeping at night. I am going to go and pick up the book Happy, healthy Sleeping.....Something like that. I know there are a lot of good ones out there, and What we did with her as a baby worked, but we are in a totally new phase, and it doesn't quite work the same when they can get out of their beds. On average we are up 3-5 times everynight. I know with our new little boy, it will put us over the edge if I don't figure something out. Even just eliminate 2-3 of those awakenings will feel like heaven. Wish us luck. Sometimes I wonder what the heck i'm doing wrong. I also wonder more often or not if I'm cut out for this Mom thing. I love it, (at times) but I'm not lying when i say it's the hardest thing EVER for lots of different reasons, and probably the main reason is the simple fact that I feel like I'm not cut out for it, and my poor Sayla and babe to come deserve so much better. It's frustrating to feel such a huge responsibility with teaching your children, and you want them so badly to be perfect well behaved little ones, and you know that how they act reflects a lot on you, especially the mom. Lately it's been more difficult as you can probably tell by my post so far.

Cliff hit the big 30 today. Happy happy birthday to my man!! I'll try to be better with posting. Hope you're all doing well. (those who read). :)