lost in the land of unknown...

well it has been a month or so

 since i moved into my new space

 and as of this morning 

i 

FINALLY

figured out a few things

and happy to say

you can subscribe to my new site 

now via email and or in a reader

if you stumble over to 

http://www.tofallorstumbleupon.com/

 click on 

SUBSCRIBE

and i am sure you know how to do the rest

a chapter's end...

597 posts later...i am walking away...

saying fare thee well to this place

three years ago i found my way to blogger...a time in my life when i need a place to simply write. to escape my reality...the life i created..i needed distance from some in my life and was seeking a more deep and powerful meaning within my life and my relationships.

so i came here and i wrote...i wrote and wrote and fell in love with this space...i fell in love with the friendships created...

i fell in love with my life all over.

back in january of 2012 i bought my own .com. as the days of 2012 came to play time was not on my side for achieving my own personal wants. it was a tremendous year. one in which i feel has come full circle in the strangest scariest saddest yet successful of ways...a year in which i grew on levels i never thought could be possible.

i came here a few months after my father in law passed away from prostate cancer. i cared for him during his final months. i watched life slip through the sands of time. in august...three years and three days after the passing of my father in law i faced accepting that my father has been diagnosed with prostate cancer...i have seen it...watched it...felt the pain as much as a loved one possibly could...a road i hoped i would never have to walk with another again.

this circle has been haunting my spirit...yet re~awakening my mind...

yesterday i sat in front of this screen and said to myself...today is the day...i am going to end 2012 as it should have begun!

the.chapter.is.complete.

alas for me

oh i still have so so very much to say...to share...to show

i thank each one of you from the very depths of my soul for being here...each of you are daily reminders that have not gone away...your whispers are heard and have helped guide me quietly in my day to day...your friendships cherished beyond any words i could write...

this is not the end...a beginning

that should have started quite some time ago

tofallorstumbleupon.com

is where you shall find me

gone from here...

but still out there in this big crazy world in which we live

winston churchill once said:

"success is not final, failure is not fatal:

it is the courage to continue that counts"

the wind will forever blow~

day after day

be it calm and gentle

carassing you lightly

lifting you carefully

moving fluid

encompassing you

without ever realizing

the wind is walking with you

 

yet days of harshness

bitter and cold

biting you with each movement made

pushing you

even if you are unwilling to take the next step

the wind coerces you as you stand in stillness

the wind will forever blow

 

the winds of change of been moving in and out

in rhythms i think at one moment
 

...sigh...

this is good

then

without any further notice than a quick blink of my eye

it is a
 

...sigh...

of

what is happening
what are you whispering
what am i suppose to be hearing
what lesson is trying to be taught
what path are you wanting me to walk
what is the meaning of such change

once more such time has passed
and life has pulled me in
every possible direction
i think could be