**spoiler alert** I won’t rate this one because it wouldn’t be fair. It’s fiction and to say it is very politically incorrect and dark in a borderline **spoiler alert** I won’t rate this one because it wouldn’t be fair. It’s fiction and to say it is very politically incorrect and dark in a borderline manner would be a euphemism. It has so many wrong behaviors that I just can’t. Spoilers, if someone has not read it. - heroine is just 16, a gymnast, and hero is 32, her coach. - he’s engaged and living with his gf. So, the story is about the heroine trying to become an Olympic champion and training through the difficulties of not just being a bit late for that kind of practice, since they’re usually younger than her, but also going through a very debilitating and severe disease that she finds out months after she starts training. There’s also the affair she has with the coach, but it’s not the focus imo. The focus is how strong and determined she was even to the point of self destruction, that is something that some athletes experience during their career. Accidents, illnesses, injuries and constant pain are really part of the training of most athletes, we only see the good part, the game, and we think they’re all right and safe, while there’s a world of pain behind it, hard training, sacrifices, physical and mental pain. So, that part I appreciated very much, because it was very detailed and it was real. I didn’t like the story between her and the coach. He is engaged, much older, and has a position of power on her. So be warned. There’s cheating, since he has sex with the heroine and with his gf at the same time. He even marries his gf at a certain point and keeps having sex with the heroine. What I didn’t like, beside the cheating and the promiscuity that lasted basically until the last book, were other things. - the hero has always unprotected sex with the heroine and gives her plan b pill, that, for someone who should know something about health, it’s very hard on the female body and doesn’t have to be used absolutely as a contraceptive, but just as an emergency. He gave her three times or four, which was ott. If he just couldn’t resist her, at least buy condom and play safe. He put her health at risk. - he was responsible, more mature, adult, and on a position of power. I can understand he couldn’t resist have feelings, but he also blamed the heroine because she was the one who pursued her. Even if it were true, it’s not the 50s anymore when women were blamed for being raped, and when a teenager was blamed if her older stepfather or uncle abused her because she dressed provocative. So no, if a 16 yo gets in front of you naked and you’re responsible for her, older and engaged, you must be able to resist her. Maybe he could have been tempted but what he did was only his fault. And at least, use a condom. - I won’t be blaming the heroine for her weird thinking, she was of course a teenager with serious issues, and she wasn’t mature enough not to succumb to an older, more experienced and charming man. She wanted him for herself, and he was always around so, of course she was infatuated. - I don’t consider what he did some kind of abuse, she was of age and she gave her consent so it was not forced, she even initiated the act more than once. Let’s not be hypocritical and deny that 16/17 yo are children because immature they may be but definitely they are not babies. In many countries where it is allowed teenagers can have sex at 14, in the heroine country it was 16 and when she was with the hero she was 17 so no jailbait here. But the hero was in a position of power over her and he behaved without an ounce of care for her wellbeing, using her badly and cheating on his gf, all of this was not ok. - I think this author was victim of bullying and harassment because of the content of the book, well as I always say. We shouldn’t read Stephen king, we shouldn’t read Palaniuk, we shouldn’t read Frankenstein or other morally dubious books either. I only think that everyone can enjoy a book without approving of the content, and knowing that it’s nothing like it happens in real life. - so, we have, cheating, both characters are with op while they’re having their affair, unprotected sex, pregnancy, miscarriage, chronic illness, rough sex and some scenes where the heroine sees the hero having sex with his gf. There’s also the matter of age gap and power unbalance. The hero is jealous and possessive, the heroine is immature and both have a very unhealthy relationship. When her father finds out there’s hell to pay. And I can’t say I wasn’t happy, as a mother I would have been even worse. Because he was married and because he didn’t take care of her health. There’s a separation of three years. - I would have appreciated the book more if the hero had been able to resist having sex with the heroine until he was 1- a single man again 2- not her coach anymore. About feelings, I’m no prude, and I believe that people with a big age gap can fall in love, there’s no shame in love, but there is when other people are deceived and involved, as a wife or a gf. So, had he been single and able to give her a bit of time to grow up, and taking care of her with safe sex, well it would have been ok for me. ...more
I loved it. Hero and heroine are a weird pair, she’s a very sunny and open woman who is also a very successful hairdresser, while he’s an introvert lawI loved it. Hero and heroine are a weird pair, she’s a very sunny and open woman who is also a very successful hairdresser, while he’s an introvert lawyer. She tries to get him out of his shell, but when she overhears him and a woman in his office she thinks he’s cheating on her and she breaks up with him. No, he didn’t cheat and never did, but he was also very inconsiderate because he never tried to include her in his social life, which is not that great but anyway she thought at a certain point that he didn’t love and was ashamed of her. For some part, I didn’t like him, because he really took her for granted, but on the other side, I liked him because he was surely very socially awkward and always felt like she wa too good for him. The heroine is no doormat pushover. She makes him work very hard for a second chance and is even a bit cruel to him, but in the end all is well. She really loved him wholly and was very hurt that he didn’t show her the same consideration, so I can understand her bitter attitude and some unkind words she said to him. It was her pain talking. This is a debut book, I think, and a good one. Safety good, both celibate and with no other during their separation even if the heroine has a couple of dates with a guy just to make the hero jealous, but nothing happens. ...more
I started this after reading various different reviews, some very good and some very low. I was pleasantly surprised. The heroine is the hero’s second mI started this after reading various different reviews, some very good and some very low. I was pleasantly surprised. The heroine is the hero’s second mate. He’s a widow and lost his first mate in an accident a couple of years before. He’s cold and detached. She lives in the same house where he lived with his first mate and there are pictures of them everywhere. She’s left alone most of the time, the only moments when he’s with her are during sex. There’s a meddling ow, his first mates cousin, that is obviously obsessed with him, and works with him too. After some months during which she makes friends, she attends college and she enjoys her life in her new pack, she realizes he will probably never give her more than that, so she hides her thoughts from him. When he leaves her for some months she doesn’t tell him she’s pregnant so when he comes back home he finds her heavily pregnant. Then the second part is from his pov. The hero had it hard in life, he lost his father when he was a child and then his former mate was not what he thought, he didn’t love her and she even cheated on him. So now he can’t believe his new mate could ever love him or stay with him and be happy. He’s in love with her and during his journey away from her he understood he was tired of trying to stay distant from his mate and was ready to apologize and start over. But he finds a woman who’s completely changed, she doesn’t need him anymore and keeps him at arms length, so he has to grovel a lot before she even consider giving him another chance. The book imo was good, the first part there is not a lot of interactions between the main characters and it’s more he heroine discovering her own worth and learning to be independent, while the second part it’s about them reconnecting. The hero is dumb and unpleasant for the first year, but it’s because he’s afraid of being hurt again. He loves the heroine more than he ever did his first mate, so she’s no second best. The book is safe, there a bit of ow drama because the hero feels responsible for his late mates cousin, and the woman turns out to be a psycho. It’s also a clean romance, without lots of sex scenes, which I liked, because they were not that necessary imo. I know that some people don’t like the widow trope, so if this is not your thing, maybe you won’t like it, but I didn’t feel like he ever loved his first mate, he didn’t even like her and she didn’t like him, they barely tolerated each other, while the heroine was his ideal mate so imo he was given a better chance with the heroine and was more than happy with it.
Trigger warning for this one, another mafia book with the usual things, a lot of violence, a lot of deaths, a lot of torture and rape. The heroine has Trigger warning for this one, another mafia book with the usual things, a lot of violence, a lot of deaths, a lot of torture and rape. The heroine has the worst brother in the world, he deals with mafia and steals money to mafia men so they take the heroine instead. Since she’s a nurse the hero who’s basically besotted with her since he sees her, decides that he won’t kill her but he will use her as a nurse for his men. lol! Of course there is a lot of lust and plenty of sex between the characters that i skipped because. The hero finds out she was sold by her brother to some of his men who raped her and tortured her for days some years before. He kills everyone involved in this, from his father to her brother to all the people involved. Ok, mafia thangs aside, some things were really ott. The hero should be the cruelest and most savage mafia boss in the world, he kills for fun and bathed himself with his enemies blood. But when his sister comes to see him, he gets emotional, his words. This made me LMFAO. I was, just. No, really? The big bad wolf gets emotional? Puhleeease! And then the heroine gets pregnant. The hero proposes because his father expects him to marry her since she’s preggo. And the heroine, who was basically a prisoner before this, gets angry and pissed because she thought it was the hero who wanted to propose because he wanted to, not because his father forced him to. Duuuude. Really? Woman. You’re living as a prisoner with the worst mafia men in town and you’re being difficult for a stupid detail like this? I just couldn’t. And then, the heroine is pregnant and a prisoner, and the hero enjoys making her jealous just because. Man. Grow up. I thought he had more important things to do, as kill and maim some dozens of people. Whatever. These are hard times for romance, and I have to do with what I am able to find. And it wasn’t that bad. Both celibate after meeting. Hero is never completely nasty, for the mob boss that he is....more
Amazing angst and amazing writing style. The author is really good, no doubts about that. What made me rate just three and not four was the absolute awAmazing angst and amazing writing style. The author is really good, no doubts about that. What made me rate just three and not four was the absolute awful hero. Ok, I admit that he eventually changed and became a hopelessly besotted guy, and he apologized and groveled, but maaaan, was he vicious. And without cause. The author tries to write what she’s better at. Marriages in trouble. Unwanted bride, and in this case she extended the unwanted to the unexpected child. The hero and the heroine meet at a party, she’s quiet, shy, mousy, and he is strangely attracted to her, so they decide to have a quickie that ends really bad, basically the worst sex of his life and of hers, since she’s also a virgin. They part without exchanging numbers, of course and a couple of months later they meet at her stepfathers. She proposes an arranged marriage, since she’s the heiress and the stepdad is keeping her basically prisoner to exploit her money. She’s also preggo. The hero accepts in exchange of the company he wanted to buy from her stepfather, that is basically the company of her mother. So, both have a personal interest, but he’s quite pissed which I didn’t really understand. He should be grateful that he had a company worth hundreds of millions for free, just to stay married with he for three years, so she can be protected from her stepdad. I didn’t understand his grumpy face, that she described resting grump face, but i would say resting bitch instead, because he had no reason to be rude with her, yet he was. He’s awful regarding the child, ok it wasn’t planned but man up! He’s 30 something, not 22. And he keeps being unpleasant to her when she did nothing to offend him. He tells her she is not to become friend with his family since she’s just a guest, he tells his father she’s plain, a moth, and the opposite of what he wanted as a wife, and he tells her he doesn’t want to have anything to do with the kid. He’s unpleasant. He’s also very selfish and self centered, and no, I don’t buy when the author would like us to believe that he was always thinking of other peoples wellbeing since with the heroine when he talks it’s always I, me mine. Me me me me mememememememememe. It’s always about him, a hat he wants, how he feels and doesn’t feel, what he thinks and everything has to accommodate his feelings. Jesus. I must admit I’ve never read such an unpleasant character, such a rude, cold, bratty man. And yes, emotionless, beside the endless self love and self centered attention he lavish on himself. I just wished the heroine would have been a bit more forceful, but admittedly she couldn’t do that since she had always been secluded in college and bearding school so I suppose she had to find her own strength. But it would have been very satisfying if she had been a bit catty and bitchy instead of simply staying silent and suck it up. He deserved someone who answered properly, not the poor scared little heroine. But the angst was great. The story also has a development and the hero changes his ways around her and their kid. It’s definitely a slow burn, both between the characters and with the unborn kid. The heroine finds some strength towards the end, but she keeps thinking something is wrong with her instead of simply letting the asshole husband go and do her things. And the body shaming. I don’t know why the author keeps reiterating that the heroine is plain, colorless and unremarkable on the looks department, but it was grating my nerves. And how could she be plain? She’s described as slender, toned, with white blond long hair, large grey eyes, pointed chin and small straight nose. Well, many models could fit this description so how is she plain? Because she’s pale? But then she has a makeover and new clothes and wow, she’s stunning. I just didn’t appreciate the dichotomy gorgeous hero/plain heroine since there’s too much focus on it. Safety is good. Hero had some affairs but never serious in the past, apparently he dated models, socialites, pop stars but after he met the heroine there was nobody else. Heroine is a virgin. ...more
This is one of those few books where I hated the heroine. I didn’t like the continuous flashback, one chapter about the past, another about the presentThis is one of those few books where I hated the heroine. I didn’t like the continuous flashback, one chapter about the past, another about the present. It prevented me from focusing on their story in the present. The flashback chapters were randomly chosen to show how their story progressed, they met, then had some kind of connection for some weeks but only with texts, then they met once in a sort of date, then he left to play football on the major league. And basically he would have never looked for her anymore. Five years later they meet again accidentally and start dating, she has had a traumatic childhood because her mother was abusive and eventually she finds out her father had another family. They get married, some years later he retires from the major league and becomes a workaholic. After six months she files for divorce. As soon as he realizes he was neglecting his wife, he tries to make amend, he tells her he is going to change but she doesn’t change her mind. The man was besotted, and was really ready to change everything for her, but she didn’t want to trust him anymore. I found her very annoying, because he was only neglecting her for a few months, due to his new jobs, but apparently this was enough to throw their marriage away. Marriage is forever, or it should be, and at least he deserved another change. He wasn’t abusive, he was very kind and caring, but for one mistake that was probably going to resolve itself when he was set with the new business, she didn’t want him anymore. I feel she didn’t deserve him. Ok in the end all is well, but she wasn’t even willing to work on their issues. I almost hoped he would have left her and go find another woman. Safety. Not safe since they have a five year separation, where they were not together to begin with and they both were with occasional other people. It is definitely not a love at first sight. Not even second or third sight. It’s more a slow, very slow burn, and this is not something I like very much, I prefer a certain connection from the star anyway, and here they only had some cute banter that was not explored and apparently not enough since he left and would have never looked for her anyway. Not bad for the writing style, but too long descriptions....more
Since I decided to read one book each month without reading the reviews, only reading the plot, this is my first experiment. I admit that, seeing the cSince I decided to read one book each month without reading the reviews, only reading the plot, this is my first experiment. I admit that, seeing the cover, I thought it was much more romantic, more like a Nicolas spark novel. I was wrong. The hero is a tattoo artist and the heroine is no Scarlett O’Hara, even if she’s a librarian. They’re late 30s, both single and work in the same street. They had a nasty fight when she first opened her shop six months before, and avoided carefully each other since. He’s a manwhore extraordinaire, and that bothered me a lot because he’s not a teenager by any means, but he’s always thinking about sex, and salivating over women’s bodies, it wasn’t funny. When the book opens, he and the heroine have reconciled and have had sex a couple of times. He’s a commitment phobic since his first love ten years before broke his heart. Boohooo. So he doesn’t think of him and the heroine as a couple and she knows it. It’s more his rational part that doesn’t want to commit, while his body apparently has already committed to the heroine since after having sex with her he will be faithful even if he is propositioned on a daily base by his clients and other women who pass by. This actually was annoying and not much believable, ok he is kind of a hunk but I don’t appreciate when women behave like they’re starving for a man. Not at all. And I don’t like manwhores. He has an adult movie star propositioning him, a journalist that was so explicit that I almost puked and some other women always hanging around. The heroine tries to behave like she doesn’t care but she does because she’s no prude but she doesn’t feel like partaking of a man when too many women are helping themselves to him. And there’s manwhore and manwhore. He had one different woman each day if the week, that is in six months they’ve known each other it makes more than two hundred women. To me, nobody with that kind of score would be worth a try. Yuck. And even if eh doesn’t feel attracted to any other woman after the heroine, he keeps looking at other women and appreciating their assets which was disgusting because it made him look like a sleazy scumbag. Not my kind of man. When will writers realize that a manwhore is the opposite of sexy because a man who always needs to change his partner to be satisfied is not a strong alpha but a weak beta, and that he needs variety to keep it up. Whatever, he slowly falls in love with the heroine until his ex comes back. And here is where I was almost DNF the book. Because his ex is in the beginning an evil cheater who deceived him and cheated on her husband, while afterwards she turns miraculously into a weeping, abused woman who has nothing to do with the woman we met in the first part of the book. This was an inconsistency I could not accept. And the government secret mission was ludicrous. Basically his ex and her ex husband are now secret agents that are on a mission to discover and trap a dangerous guy who trafficked in young girls. The guy was with ow for some time and he thinks the hero’s is ows baby daddy, so the heroine is now in danger because he wants revenge on the hero. This was definitely ott. So the heroine takes ow home and says everyone he’s ow baby daddy. The heroine is of course very hurt, and he tries to tell her this happened before they met. No matter what, the heroine is not ready to take him back, because this woman is his first love and she thinks he’s still in love with her. The end was quite anticlimactic, all is well and we can go home and drink ourselves stupid hoping to make sense of this mess. What I didn’t like. - the hero is a manwhore. He’s not sexy, he’s sleazy, he’s yucky, he’s always looking at ow like they’re body parts and I don’t care if he doesn’t want to sleep with them, it’s disgusting. He’s late 30s not a teenager. I wouldn’t touch him with a barge pole. - it’s not realistic that women throws themselves at a man because he’s hot. It’s demeaning and false, there may be women with this kind of attitude but here it looks like all women under 75 are sex staved. It was ridiculous. Are really women that shallow that they’re only seeing a man because he’s hot? Really? - the hero being commitment phobic because of a relationship gone bad ten years before. Please give us some strong alpha and not these weak beta for once. - the inconsistency of ow being first a nasty bitch then a pleasant and caring woman. At least try to be consistent. I don’t expect all ow to be evil bitches, it’s not realistic, but when we first meet her she’s a bitch that is ready to have sex with the hero while being with another guy, then a few weeks later she becomes all cute and caring. Nah. - the government secret mission was kind of ott. It was too much, and the book didn’t need it. What I liked - the hero is committed to the heroine because he doesn’t want to be with anyone else, which reminded me of all those idiot heroes in Lynne Graham books when the hero tries to be with ow but is unable to, because his body only wants the heroine. Which was kind of hilarious. Even if he’s a sleazy pig. - the heroine is no virgin and definitely no doormat. She doesn’t accept to play happy family while the hero is with his supposed baby mama. - he doesn’t have feelings for his ex anymore. He only helps her because the heroine is in danger. This could have been a really good book, sadly it left me quite disappointed because the hero was too much of a disgusting pig and because it could have been shorter and better without all the ow drama. Oh, and the cherry on top. The heroine asks the hero if he is willing to be faithful and he answers that he will be as long as he has her by his side, which means, as long as she puts out. Jesus, how romantic! ...more
I just do not know what to say. I cannot rate it because it would be unfair, I don’t like books with unfaithful heroes and cheating but I don’t know ifI just do not know what to say. I cannot rate it because it would be unfair, I don’t like books with unfaithful heroes and cheating but I don’t know if this one can be considered a cheating book. It’s a dystopian world. There’s water penury and some kind of cults rule the country with MC. Yes, you have it right. Mc are top rulers with some other weird people. The prez of this mc is trying new club girls, and he chooses the heroine who is a scrawny virgin. He selects her personally and has her to sleep in his room. But she’s a club girl, which means she’s there for every brother to use for their pleasure. In exchange of a life where water and food never lack. A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. But the hero keeps her for himself, telling her she will always be his and his alone. He’s not exclusive, having bj from some randoms. But we cannot really fault because he never has a relationship with the heroine. She couldn’t claim him since he had to marry one of those women from the selected cult, this is a dystopian world and I wasn’t upset, it’s useless to be annoyed or hurt if the author decides to portrait a world that is brutal, where women are either used as whores or married for power, and that’s it. When a nasty and jealous ow tells the hero that the heroine is expecting more from him, the hero flips and he has sex with this evil ow in front of the heroine while she’s asked to perform a bj to a nasty man, one who’s always lusting after her. The heroine could have refused and leave the club, she accepted. So no rape here. She hated it and felt betrayed by the hero who told her she would not be his, but she could have left without giving the man a bj. She does it and afterwards she rats the club out and sends the hero to prison sadly just for six months. When he’s out he goes looking for her and finds her pregnant. He wants her back but she doesn’t want him and she’s not the old naive girl she was before. Anyway. In the end water flows freely and the hero refused to marry ow and marries the heroine instead. So, I did not like it a lot. But I can’t rate it according to my prejudice. Actually the heroine is a club girl and the hero never promised to marry her or to be faithful, just that she would only be with him, and this after she was hired as a club girl, so imo beside the nasty betrayal that anyway she could have avoided and left without performing, I couldn’t see a lot of cheating. While they were separated she slept with a man who was her boyfriend but eventually turned out to be evil. Pity. It could have been better. The hero after the one time being with ow in front of the heroine, was celibate but who cares, this was not a normal world and nobody was supposed to have normal love stories. There are some weird and rushed things, as the heroine’s boyfriend becoming suddenly evil and ow always around until the end. I expected that the heroine’s boyfriend becoming had killed when he learned about her deception. So, totally unsafe and not suggested for my safety girls. ...more
This was a story formerly published on wattpad that I enjoyed because no doormat heroine who takes back her cheating azzhole husband. Oh satisfying. It’This was a story formerly published on wattpad that I enjoyed because no doormat heroine who takes back her cheating azzhole husband. Oh satisfying. It’s a paranormal so we have werewolves, hero 1 and heroine married for four years without children, or pups whatsoever. The hero’s mother hates the heroine and the weak hero 1 feels diminished in his already tiny masculinity so they decides that it’s the heroine’s fault and the hero 1 will have a mistress who provides them with a pup. So, the heroine is against it but she must accept because the pack wants it. Hero 1 then mates with the chosen bitch ahem she wolf and does it repeatedly, since it doesn’t work the first time, so the poor heroine, according to the most unfair paranormal law #1 that says that the cheated mate will have to suffer unbearable pains when her cheating mate cheats, feels so much pains that she has to be sedated and pumped with opiates. She becomes addicted, because, even after the ow gets pregnant the awful hero 1 keeps having sex with her. Follow wrongly accused heroine, imprisonement, torture, various mistreatments until the child of the devil is born and guess what, it’s not the hero. So, the hero’s mother hates commands ow to tell the truth and realizes he’s been tricked, so he kills ow and her lover aka the pups father. Then he tries to win the heroines back. She won’t have it. And kills the hero1. Yes, just like that. Enter hero 2, aka true hero. Who’s also the king, of course. The heroine has to go through trial but is of course declared innocent while all the other people who hurt her are punished. Hero 2 and heroine find out they’re mate and heroine also goes through painful therapy. HEA with pups. Meaning, the hero 1 was obviously the infertile one, not the heroine. Good debut romance, there’s a lot of what the heroine goes through with her first mate, which I appreciated because it was very angsty and there was no coming back from that, I’m glad she never thought for one moment to take the awful cheater back, not since the idiot decided to cheat and impregnate another woman. I loved how strong she was and how brave she turned out to be until the end. And the hero 2 was a darling, strong but kind and never forceful or arrogant. Just what she needed. There’s a lot about her healing and going to therapy that maybe could be considered a bit too detailed but imo it was ok, because the whole story is focused on the heroine and her journey through pain, hurt, healing and happiness, so even if the part with hero 2 was not the majority of the book, I appreciated everything. Safety of course is ok for second mate, while the first one is a dirty weak cheater. ...more
Annnndddd… he won’t be missed. The book is a psychological thriller where we can see many different pov. The heroine has been married for almost a decadAnnnndddd… he won’t be missed. The book is a psychological thriller where we can see many different pov. The heroine has been married for almost a decade to her husband, an estate agent, and they have three children. She suspects that he is having an affair. She also has two bff that are there for her. There are many misunderstandings with many characters, and I enjoyed it all because it’s uncovered step by step. The heroine is a strong woman, a stay at home wife and mother, that really sacrificed her career and her life for a family, since she was also a very successful estate agent when she met the hero. She gave everything up because of him and her kids, while he’s just a very selfish, spoiled and amoral man. It’s all very realistic, the hero is some kind of average man, he thinks that since he’s the breadwinner he’s entitled to everything else, and this sadly happens very often in real life. The heroine is a kind and sweet woman, but she’s neither a doormat or a pushover. She will do what is best for herself and her three children. Her husband is so deep into his lies that ends having many problems with many different people, and not just his wife. In the end he has what he deserves, and as I said, he won’t be missed. This was interesting and entertaining, not very angsty or with a lot of suspense but there were some interesting unexpected twists that I didn’t expect.
**spoiler alert** I was quite conflicted about this one, it’s not easy because there are many things I liked and many things I didn’t. But I actually l**spoiler alert** I was quite conflicted about this one, it’s not easy because there are many things I liked and many things I didn’t. But I actually liked it in the end. There’s a lot of angst, especially in the first part, due to the hero behavior. But it’s quite complex, so I liked it. Hero is a young man, who’s working hard to become the next president of a MC, since his father is retiring, so he tries to prove himself worthy and all his life revolves around it. He has a non exclusive sex buddy, a woman who’s the daughter of a late MC member, so she’s club family. But he doesn’t love her and they’re not a couple. He meets the heroine who’s 20 and wants to become a doctor. They fall in love, but for four years he puts her always second to his club and ow. Basically every time the club calls he has to go, and since ow is a nasty conniving bitch, she always calls him for everything and he has to go since the club expects him to put club members first every time. He loves the heroine very much and is loyal and faithful, but after four years the heroine has enough and decides to leave him. The same day, she’s assaulted by an old mc member with the help of ow, and the heroine, trying to defend herself, accidentally stabs him to death. Ow cries murder and the hero has to act fast and quick, so he decides to pretend to believe ow and to be angry with the heroine, he points a gun to her head and threatens her, forcing her to leave the club. He’s trying to protect her since the man is linked to other older members and he was afraid they would shoot her then and there. The heroine is scared, leaves and go to ER where she finds out she’s pregnant. She decides to hide in plain sight and changes her name. Four years later. One of the old ladies arrives to ER and the heroine is there as a doctor. The hero has tried to find her since the day after the accident, but he wasn’t able. He tries to reconnect with her and tells her he always loved her. She doesn’t think they could ever be together, too much has happened and she’s moved on. He is ready not only to put her first, but also to give up the mc entirely for her. She doesn’t care. He found out that some of the older members were trying to take his role as president and were also stealing from the club. He wants proofs so he can send them away. When he manages to have proofs that they assaulted the heroine he kills everyone but ow that runs away before she’s taken. There’s some angst when ow kidnaps heroines lil daughter and the hero saves them both taking a bullet for the heroine. So, what I liked. - the hero is faithful and celibate since he first saw the heroine, that is, four years they were together and four years apart. He wasn’t even tempted. He’s just into her. I like that the author is making an effort to write MC heroes that are not sleazy pigs whose reason to live is just drink, sex, coke, and fight with someone. This one is focused on loyalty to his club and his love for the heroine that he immediately recognizes as his endgame. I appreciated that she didn’t take the easy way to make angst with a cheating azzhole of a hero. - the hero is never attracted to ow, and he has no feelings for her, there’s no emotional affair here, he doesn’t talk to her about his life, and doesn’t like her. He only became her little slave because the older members expected him to take care of her as a president. So he was faithful to the club, not to her. -even if the hero is not a good boyfriend since every time the club calls, he runs, I could understand that he was trying to be accepted by everyone as future prez, it was his legacy and his family. I saw it as someone trying to make someone out of himself in every other job. Some people in the run for success forget they have other interest, and people they love, and neglect everything else except their job. He was doing the same. So imo he was putting the heroine is the back burner for when she would be his old lady and he was finally the prez.Not good, but understandable. -there’s not too much violence, that is, the heroine is assaulted but not severely hurt and when she confronts ow they have some catfight but without very serious wounds. - the hero doesn’t get angry with the heroine when he finds out she hid his child, he gets angry with himself, which means he realizes it’s all his fault. - the hero is not uselessly cruel to the heroine, the only moment when he points a gun to her is because he was trying to protect her and to save her from other members, so in a way, he did what he had to even if it was bad, but he saved her. He went back to her the day after, to apologize and to explain, but she had already left. What I didn’t like. - I’m no doctor but I don’t think it’s a good thing that a doctor takes bullets out of peoples bodies with her fingers. Ahem. There are some parts that regarded her job as a doctor that were quite debatable and ott. - some repetitions. The heroine is always saying and thinking that she wants to put herself first. Ok, we got it, after the first 20 times. - some inconsistencies. It’s quite not believable that a president of a MC is required to play nanny, driver, bff with a woman of the club just because they had sex sometimes in the past, when she was never his gf and never his old lady, especially when she had sex with most of the other members too. This was too much stretching his role. He should have said no, he had to, since he’s the prez and he decides what to do with his time. So, it was a bit too much. -Even if it was believable that he was very young and trying to please all the old members, he was really every member’s little bitch, which is quite not believable or acceptable for a future prez. He really had no personality and no free will, and the heroine came always second. I recommend it because it was totally safe, and because the violence is not too much and too graphic except in a couple of scenes with other characters though, and of course if you are not triggered by an ow who’s always around. ...more
Eh this was bad. But I must say that I didn’t like both characters because both made wrong choices. They’re in their late 30, she’s 36, living in a smalEh this was bad. But I must say that I didn’t like both characters because both made wrong choices. They’re in their late 30, she’s 36, living in a small town so everyone know everyone. They’ve been what, f- buddies for not one not two, not ten but twenty years . Yes, that’s it. 20 years of being f-buddies because he’s commitment phobic. Every time she makes a move to become more, he rejects her, so she leaves him but he comes back pleading and she accepts the same arrangement. So now, at 36, she has enough and he gets scared that he will be alone so he decides to pursue her seriously this time. She tries to date a nice guy but you know, they’ve known forever and there’s no spark. This is what happens when you live in one of those cozy, small, tiny American town. You’re all related in one way or another. The hero makes a 180 turn and he works hard to win her back. So, the reason for his phobia is that he saw a cop murdered and he had to tell his wife, so he promised he would never get married to avoid his wife went through this. But anyway he was neglectful, he didn’t even remember her birthday, he was nothing more than exclusive f-buddy , because thank god he was only with her. I don’t like them both. She wanted more, but never stood up for herself for 20 years which is why I liked her less than I liked him. And he was the typical selfish male. He only changed his ways when she tried to date om. Which is, if the book was written 40 years ago they would say, why buy the cow when you can have the milk for free. There’s also one secondary plot, with him and his parents. And of course he runs away leaving the heroine high and dry. I wouldn’t want him even if he were the only man in town....more
**spoiler alert** Very good. Apparently LM has found a new dimension in her writing, and it is successful. The angst was very good especially in the be**spoiler alert** Very good. Apparently LM has found a new dimension in her writing, and it is successful. The angst was very good especially in the beginning. We meet the heroine, that we already met in a previous book. She’s attracted by her sister fiance. He’s sister jilts him at the altar and her father beats her and forces her to marry him. The hero has been fighting the attraction he feels for the heroine because he doesn’t want complications. He accepted to marry her sister because he doesn’t have any feelings or attraction to her. He needs to stay cold. But when he meets the heroine at the altar and she explains what happened he’s thrilled and he marries her. It was not an easy reading, the heroine is beaten by her father and has been abused for years, he also killed her mother in front of her. The heroine has some issue to trust the hero and the hero doesn’t trust her completely in the beginning but when he realizes she’s really hurt and has signs that she was abused previously, he kills her father and vows to protect her. There are and will be other issues between them. A lot of sex, a bit cringy in the beginning because he has sex with her when she’s not recovered yet, which I didn’t like very much. I wish he had waited some weeks before taking her virginity, the same night she was hurt by her father. This is why I didn’t rate it four stars. The heroine is a mafia boss, so he’s cruel, but he’s kind and protective with her. I liked that the heroine could find a man that was really able to protect her and to help her be herself. There’s a real happy ending. The heroine struggles a lot to trust him, she had a bad injury not completely healed when her father killed her mother. She was ashamed and didn’t want to tell anyone, even if she was in great pain. In the end she has surgery and completely recovers. There’s a bit of violence, I skipped this parts because I’m not fond of it, and a lot of smuts, but in the whole the book was ok. Safe. The hero was never with anyone else and he was never attracted by her sister, it was arranged by her father, so I’m not angry that he didn’t want to marry the heroine, he was trying to avoid her because he felt too much for her. ...more
The book is all over the place. I rated two because I was able to finish it and somehow it kept me interested. Characters are 19 and in college. They metThe book is all over the place. I rated two because I was able to finish it and somehow it kept me interested. Characters are 19 and in college. They met three years before, had one date and he disappeared. The heroine has been looking for him but without success. Now she sees him again and he doesn’t remember her and has a girlfriend. So she thinks he’s a guy that looks exactly like the one she knew. There is anyway an attraction and eventually the hero breaks up with the gf and starts dating her. Then the truth comes out, I won’t spoil it but anyway. The first thing I didn’t like because it was too ott was that the heroine and the hero only talked briefly and only had one date with one kiss. She only knew his first name. She didn’t know where he lived, anything fundamental. They were 16. And yet when he disappeared she was shattered and broken as if they’ve been together for years. To me it’s not consistent. I could understand that she was upset and a bit shocked, because she was very young and the boy disappeared, but it’s not as if he died, he simply didn’t come to the community center where they met anymore. All that heartbreak and drama was really not normal. And when she sees him again it’s like a big shock. Didn’t she ever think he didn’t want to see her anymore? At first I thought the boy was kidnapped and nobody knew where he had been but no, she simply didn’t meet him anymore, which any sane and sensible person, would think, well, maybe the guy wasn’t that into me. Let’s move on. Then, the hero. I never liked him. He’s such an insecure and weak wimp. He stays with his gf while pining for the heroine and for most part of the book he is with his gf even if he thinks about the heroine all the time. He was dishonest and weak. Not for me. Another thing I didn’t like and understand. His parents, his mother especially, pushed him to stay with his gf, even if he wasn’t into her anymore. He’s barely 19, this is wrong and unlikely. No parent would push their teenage son to stay with a girl he’s not interested anymore, this is a guarantee for disaster. At that age when it’s over, it’s better move on. So that behavior was really ott. The hero behavior. I already said he’s weak and coward. When the truth comes out he blames the heroine and totally ghosts her. Really? He already knew he looked like a guy she knew because she called him by his name, so how this was her fault? She didn’t even knew his second name. Too much drama. The heroines reaction to him is excessive, they barely met and she never recovered, this is not great love this is lack of resilience. Men come and go and if she is so shattered by the disappearance of a boy she met a couple of times what would she do if she was dumped after five years of relationship? The twist in the end was unexpected but imo it only added drama to the story. The hero’s gf was in the beginning quite mean, while in the end she changes and she’s a nice and good person. Really? Not safe. Both are with other people during the three years separation and he is still with his gf after meeting the heroine again for most part of the book, which I didn’t appreciate. ...more
If you are tired of MC books that are violence and sex with a very sad story between the characters. If you don’t think all bikers are oversexed, promiIf you are tired of MC books that are violence and sex with a very sad story between the characters. If you don’t think all bikers are oversexed, promiscuous, cheaters, disrespectful and care for everyone except the woman they claim to love. If you don’t want to hear about club girls that are just petty and evil. This is the book for you. There’s a bit of mess because the hero and his abusive childhood are hardly explained so we all think he’s some kind of ahole with commitment phobia, but he had a sadist criminal of a father and he had to see multiple and devastating abuses that made him afraid of commitment. He knows his world is a world of violence and he’s afraid that if he falls in love he will eventually lose the woman he loves. The hero is very intense and his feelings are very deep. He feels an instant attraction to the heroine and does everything in his power to make her hate him, he taunts her, he body shames her, he makes her believe he’s having sex with everyone but her. But the attraction is impossible to deny and so he decides to tell her that he is ok with sex but not exclusive and nothing more. So the heroine leaves. He regrets it, and tries to win her back, because even if it was his goal, to make her leave, he can’t stay away from her. I loved that he couldn’t deny his attraction and his feelings for her, that he’s thorn between her and all the fear and the trauma that were his childhood. Annnd no, he didn’t have sex with any other women after he met her, and hear, hear, he was never a manwhore and never had sex with ow since he was 19, he only had the occasional bj from a club girl, but no sex and no kiss. Anyway, an almost celibate hero and a committed one. The heroine is also a senator’s daughter, of course her father is evil and corrupt and there’s a lot of drama between a couple of clubs, but no one of the characters are seriously injured which I liked because I don’t love too much violence and especially I don’t love that the hero realizes he loves the heroine after she nearly died. I prefer that she is safe and sound when he declares his love, as in this one. So, the book is ok. The hero is quite nasty in the beginning but I could understand his behavior that came from a lot of trauma, and because he is a very intense and emotional guy that feels very deeply which I like. There’s also a lot of sex, for those who love smutty. I didn’t mind because it was always between the hero and the heroine and not with op. Oh, those bikers do have feelings. We can see them cry, as in real tears, for their love and I liked it a lot. Apparently they’re human after all. ...more
Not impressed by this one. The hero is a vampire who lost his wife and kid, she was his mate. The heroine is his second chance mate but he refuses to hNot impressed by this one. The hero is a vampire who lost his wife and kid, she was his mate. The heroine is his second chance mate but he refuses to have anything to do with her because he’s hung up on his dead wife. He only uses her for sex and she accepts. She’s a human. In the end he realizes he can love her and his dead wife both. Oh the romanticism. A book with zero impact on me, I will soon forget it....more
Both were scarred by their childhood and didn’t want to fall in love because love hurts. lol. They decide to get married for one year renewable for threBoth were scarred by their childhood and didn’t want to fall in love because love hurts. lol. They decide to get married for one year renewable for three. Lol. At the end of the first year the heroine leaves because she has caught feelings. He doesn’t follow. Three months later she has amnesia and he takes her back. When she remembers she tells him she loves him. He runs. She waits. He comes back. Hea with surprise pregnancy, since he had a vasectomy. Not bad, not great too since there is too much introspection and too little action, it may be less than 200 pages but it looks like both are trapped into their mind and into the trauma they had. It was going in circles again and again. A lot of sex. Because they stayed for sex, even if afterwards they caught feelings like it was a bug. Both celibate during separation. ...more
Really? The hero and the heroine were college students and friends. She had feelings for him while he only used her as an emotional support. No sex. OnlReally? The hero and the heroine were college students and friends. She had feelings for him while he only used her as an emotional support. No sex. Only hugs. He gives her mixed signals, because he is kind to her but doesn’t want anyone know they are friends, as in special friends. The day of his birthday she gives him a present with a card where she writes that she loves him. But he’s interested in another girl, and he gets mad because this girl sees the card and understands he’s an ahole. But this is only the point of the iceberg. He was always dismissive of her, he always criticized her, he always treated her selfishly, I understand they’re young, immature and what, but she let him treat her like toilet paper. So, when he gets angry and she understands he never thought of her as anymore than a backup plan if other girls he liked wouldn’t give in, she leaves his sorry ass and leaves with her parents. The hero understands what huge ahole he was and tries to get in touch with her but only when he needs her, just to find out she left and blocked him everywhere. Years later the heroine is still hung on him, and he never forgot her even if he could not find her. Of course it doesn’t take long before she takes him back. I wonder. Why? He was always an ahole. He was awful. He was selfish. Why couldn’t she appreciate the boyfriends she had in the past, who were kind and nice. She couldn’t. This is where I say, he was right to treat her like that, she deserved it. Because you can’t keep loving a man who mistreat abuse gaslight and use you. No, if a woman does that, she deserves all the above and more. Both had other partners, but both were never in love with other people. The heroine has a stalker and this was the most interesting part of the book with the stalker, the mystery and everything in the middle. The story between her and the hero is not worth reading. I don’t believe he understood how much he loved her after she left him. No, it was because he found that the other girls he liked more and considered more fit to be his ideal girlfriend had a thing called expectations. Yes, they expected to be treated well, with respect. So he gave up and came back to look for the ideal girlfriend, aka doormat pushover heroine. A big fat no....more
**spoiler alert** Ok reading. About a woman whose husband asks for divorce telling her he’s not in love with her anymore and is in love with another wo**spoiler alert** Ok reading. About a woman whose husband asks for divorce telling her he’s not in love with her anymore and is in love with another woman. This ow is his coworker with whom he’s had an affair for months. The heroine is very strong and kind, not begging him or insulting him but accepting the fact and even trying to help him with their children, especially their son, that is furious with his father for doing what he did. The heroine even doesn’t ask for alimony, only the house, and is very accommodating with the new ow. Enter sexy neighbor. He’s a retired soldier, now employed in security, who immediately is attracted to the heroine. This happens one year after the divorce. The heroine is attracted to him, he’s quite the opposite of her ex. And we can picture him, tall, packed and inked, well, who would not like him. He’s also carefree and strong, not whiny and conceited like her ex. Re enter her ex again, who understood that new toys soon lose their luster and wants the heroine back again. So he starts showing up everywhere while the heroine tries to successfully dating her hot new man. Issues happen. Crappy exes come back. Drama. Ex hubby becomes an alcoholic and the heroine tries to keep her kids safe. In the end all is well. This is one book where the heroine doesn’t take the cheater back, hallelujah. She’s so over him it’s not even funny. I loved it, even more so because she’s not a bitchy and embittered woman, she’s a sweet and funny thing that doesn’t hold grudge. She simply has no love left for him, not even when he touches rock bottom. She doesn’t want revenge, she doesn’t want karma. She wants her sexy and better new model man so she can finally be happy. He treats her like a queen. Her ex never did. She has pride dignity and self respect. I wish she had been a bit more petty sometimes though. I understand she wanted to protect he’d kids and make things less difficult for them but sometimes you have to let it go, or else those feelings of hurt, pain, regret, can devour you from inside. She should have slapped her husband when he asked for divorce, she should have shut his mistress out of her house. She should have refused to be always so friendly when we know she spent a heavy first year after her divorce before meeting the hero. I’m not fond of people pretending too much, or accepting being hurt just to keep things quiet. If a person hurt someone, they must be made aware of the damage they’ve done and of the consequences of their actions, otherwise they’ll keep doing it again and again. Thank god her older son was the one who kept reminding his dad what a worthless ahole he’s been and what a hoe his new woman was. The ex husband regretted cheating and leaving his wife and I almost felt sorry for him. Almost. Not quite. The end was too good for my taste. Her ex has a happy ending too, with a different woman, which I wasn’t to happy with, because I understand that in real life those sad cheaters seldom have some comeuppance, but in fiction I wish for some kind of karma. Sadly not this time. The heroine and the hero are happy and have more children, which made me anyway quite content....more
I’m not a fan of MC books and the more I read them the more I sigh. The promiscuous heroes, the sex with other women, the double standard and the extrI’m not a fan of MC books and the more I read them the more I sigh. The promiscuous heroes, the sex with other women, the double standard and the extreme violence just don’t suit me. This one was somehow better. There are a hero and a heroine who had both very difficult childhood, she had a stepmother who was abusive and a father who allowed the abuses, and he had a father who is a psychopath and a sadist. They meet when they’re 18 and 19. He is a fuckboy, never with the same girl for more than one night stand, but after being with the heroine he decides to offer a FWB kind of agreement until he finish college. Three years later they end their affair, the heroine being herself quite against commitment, family and marriage. Both have feelings but try to deny it. The hero misses her already after two weeks but guess what, she’s preggo. He bulldoze her into marriage, even if she begs not to, and he feels betrayed because he thinks she wanted to trap him. Why he is thinking that, I just don’t know. In fact she was very adamant not to marry him. Things get worse. And this is where the heroines dumb choices will ruin them both. She is attacked by his abusive father, and loses her child. Instead of telling him what happened, she decides to lie and tell she wasn’t pregnant. So he thinks that she definitely wanted to trap him. His prez forces them to stay married for five years, which thing I just didn’t understand, so the hero, since he’s an immature and self centered man, decides to abandon her, giving her a credit card and a flat, and going to her once a month for some bad sex. So, for three years he goes on like that, holding a grudge and hurting because he loves her but thinks she doesn’t love him and is only using him. He is faithful, even if he tries to watch op having sex to see if his lil useless penis can work, but sadly, and this is something that I really found very sad, since he’s very young, he can’t even get hard watching naked women have sex in front of him. I think it’s effect of overexposure to sex. It’s not good for libido. I don’t think he wanted to be unfaithful, he also has a stalker who continually offers him sex and he keeps rejecting her, so I think he didn’t really want to be unfaithful, not with his body and not with his mind. I don’t even think he was emotionally unfaithful since he didn’t even enjoy watching sex and didn’t have any attachment to any women, so imo he was only being stubborn doing something he knew would hurt his wife. About the heroine, well, she’s not weak, she’s not a doormat and she’s not pining for him, she even admits she doesn’t know if she still has feelings for him, after all she didn’t want to have a child while she was working two jobs and trying to get her degree, and she never wanted a family, so she is the one who is doing better, because she manages to find a job as a teacher, as she wanted, and she moves into a flat of her own, even if it’s small, and she even manages to have friends and a good relationship with her lil brother who is being abused by her evil stepmother. Basically she’s only waiting for a divorce to get rid of the hero, and it never seemed to me she was waiting for him to change his mind. All in all, she’s resilient and strong. I loved this. The hero eventually finds out that his father is threatening and has threatened her in the past, so he decides to let his hurt pride go and plans to win the heroine back. A lot of things happen, the evil stepmother doing her things, the hero’s stalker doing hers, his father’s club trying to kill, rape and sell people. Both the hero and the heroine are hurt, because this is MC romance and you have to expect it. In the end all is well, and we have the pleasure (not) to meet other future despicable heroes and the women they will abuse and betray before they are together, and by what I could read, I won’t be reading their story. There is a man who has sex with the girl who’s pining for him and then one week later he has sex with her bff, having a pregnancy scare, there is a man who threatens his gf because his ex lied to him and they’re separated for years, of course none of them is celibate. So I don’t think I will read their stories. This one, beside the hero watching other women having sex and failing to get hard, has a celibate hero, and only a lot of silly misunderstandings. Both characters are broken, both have commitment issues, but imo they are both very strong and surprisingly their love appears to be strong enough to overcome whatever issue they will have. She’s no doormat and he’s no cheating ahole. They are also very young, in their early twenties so I can be more lenient than if they were in their thirties. When you’re very young you tend to see everything in black or white, so I can accept him thinking she betrayed him and her not being able to communicate what happened. She was told he was with ow when she was miscarrying so she didn’t tell him at all. So, a lot of action here, and some dumb characters who cannot communicate properly, the book was not difficult to read....more