“Uhuh?’’ she said while nodding her head.

But her attention caught

by something or should I say someone.
Chapter One
“Wait, isn’t that Ethan playing basketball over there?’’ while pointing
to Ethan in the open court not far from where we are now.
“I gotta go and cheer him. Watch my food for me okay?” then she

M y name is Ella and I’m sixteen years old. I enrolled to this school to
stay close to my crush, our student council president. Everything I ever
wanted, everything I hoped for, Happiness, hearth break and that
unexpected meeting.
before
run towards the open court. She’s not even let me speak
leaving me here alone.
“Ethan” I whispered.
“Cindy, I actually have a boy that I like…And it’s him. Our student
All of it began in this new chapter of my life.
council president. If I could have enough courage to tell him
“Ella, did you know? The cutest guy in school has finally been decided on.” Cindy the words I LIKE YOU someday… that’s be enough.” Maybe if
said. someone sees me right now, they might think I’m
weird, talking to myself while smiling.
We’re here at the school garden, eating lunch together under the big three.
There’s a table here and benches that is why we are always here every time we “Hey, you’re so loud…” I was stunned when I realize someone
had a free time. speaking. And to my surprise it’s a boy and he is above the
tree.
‘’It’s Terrence. He even beat out our student council president Ethan. First year,
Class one. 185cm tall and super smart.” She continued “W – who are you?” I stuttered.

“So, that is what the purpose of your class notebook?” I said while not looking at “If you like him, just go and tell him. Don’t just sit there and
her. I was focusing to my food rather than listening to those gossips. muttering to yourself, and disturbing other’s sleeping.” Then
he climb off to the tree.
“Well, I know that studying is important but it’s not everything about studies you
know, besides, everyone has a boy that they admire, don’t you?’’ Cindy Crap he heard everything… “I… I’m warning you, you better not tell
explaining. to anyone! Or else…”

“Um… not really. No… I don’t really want to waste my time on a stuff like that…” I He step closer to me so I step backward..
said with doubt.
“Come again? Or else what then?’’ he’s standing in front of me
Cindy didn’t answer yet she looks at me with a suspicious eyes instead. now, and I can say that he’s a really tall guy. He slightly
bend to level with my height.
“Or… or else, I’ll never forgive you!” I exclaimed. He just smirked at me. “Sorry, but I have an after school classes. Let’s go some other
time.”
“Ha-ha.. You really think I care about this kind of girly nonsense?’’ He said.
My biggest secret was now discovered by this kind of person. He doesn’t even
wear his uniform… He must be some kind of in delinquent. He wouldn’t say After Class
anything… would he?
I was here in the art room. I was currently making a painting. Even
“Ella I’m back” I saw Cindy running towards my direction. And I see the confusion though my mom wants me to study Law. I really just want to
in her eyes. paint. But I don’t know how to tell to my mom about this. I
don’t want to disappoint her.
“What happen? Hey, aren’t you Terrence? Do you two know each other?” Cindy
asked.
“Tss.. Bye.” Then that Terrence guy leave, he just leave like that. What an ***
arrogant boy he is.
It’s almost dinner time, but I’m still not home yet. I was walking in
“hayyy… If I had to choose between Ethan and Terrence, I think I prefer a bad the street when I heard voices from the corner of the street.
boy like Terrence over a nice guy like Ethan.” Cindy said while smiling.
“How many times do I need to tell you not to looking for me?’’
Seriously?
Out of curiosity I hide behind the wall and take a peek.
“No way, what’s so attractive about a guy like that?’’ I protest.
“Is that Terrence? He’s meeting with a girl this late at night? And it
Before we go back to the class I give a look to Ethan who still in a basketball
seems like he’s yelling to that girl.” I said through my mind.
court. Will I ever be able to talk that easily with you Ethan?
“Hey, I’m sorry okay, I just wanted to see you tonight before I fly to
L.A tomorrow.” Said the girl. She looks quiet weird, she’s
*** wearing mask and cup. Is she sick?
We are now in the middle of the class when suddenly a crumpled paper hit my ‘’what if your paparazzi’s following you? I’m just worried about you.
head. I got my attention from the direction of that crumpled paper. It’s from Cindy. That’s it.” Terrence said. While I was staring at him, he
I open it and read the message inside. seems worried I don’t know but he’s quite different compared
to the arrogant one earlier. But wait, did I hear it correct?
“Let’s go buy some milk tea at the new place. They’re having a big offer today.”
Paparazzi? The girl remove her cup and mask and suddenly,
I wrote my reply to Cindy’s message and pass it to her. she hugged Terrence.
‘’Alright then, take good care of yourself. I have to go.” Said the girl. Wait a “Hey little lamb, I don’t know how to replace your drawing, but I
second, Isn’t she the international model Tiffany? They’re a couple? But is she have a ways to make your dreams come true. I’ll help you to
really Tiffany? I made another one step from where I been hiding but I get close with Ethan but in exchange you have to keep Tiffany
accidentally step the twigs. Crap.. and me a secret. DEAL?”
“Who’s that?” Terrence said in a serious tone. I was stunned from my position “Deal?”
when he comes towards me. I really feel so nervous especially when he already
And that night, the deal between the two of us began.
in front of me.
“S – Sorry I didn’t mean to eavesdrop but you guys seem so worried. So…” I
explained.
“What did you hear?” he so scary when he got serious. I’m dead. What should I
do? He seems really upset. He step closer to me until I feel the wall in my back.
This is bad.
“What do you think you’re doing?” I asked with my shaking voice.
“You saw something you shouldn’t have. So what now?’’
“I won’t tell anyone. I swear.” Due to overly nervous I slip my bag to my hand and
my painting fell to the ground.
“OH! Isn’t it Ethan? You draw him huh. “He pick it up and snatch away from me.
“Hey give it back to me.!” I shouted.
“You’re such a kid hahaha.” I grab my drawing from him but to my surprise it torn
apart.
“You’re an asshole!” I said, but my tears start to fall.
“You’re the one who went and tried to snatch it away.” He explained, but I didn’t
answer.
‘’I don’t feel like dealing with you..” I saw him walking away, and I don’t care. But
to my surprise he came back.
 “Have a good day teacher, I’ll return tour book soon.” Then I run
away from the library.

Chapter Two
***

Our next class is P.E but because we have no teacher for today
Cindy and I went to the track to watch other P.E class.

“M orning Ella” Cindy greeted me while I entered the room. “Morning.” I

frigidly said. “Hey, what’s with that eye bags?” Cindy asked curiously.
‘’It’s nothing, I just stayed so late last night.” I said.
“There’s no many people here yet.” Cindy said.
“What do you mean?’’ I curiously asked. “Hey be honest, are you
hiding something from me?’’ When she suddenly mentioned
Honestly, I didn’t get enough sleep last night, thinking about what that Terrence
that someone called us.
says about. He is really a jerk. I really shouldn’t keep speaking with him. I don’t
want to be in trouble anyway. But we both know each other’s deepest secrets. “Hey, Cindy and Ella.” Terrence called us but he’s with Ethan.
“It’s Ethan and Terrence.” Cindy said. “What’s up?”
Library “H – Hello Ethan’’ This can’t be. My heart starts pounding. Anyway,
why are Ethan and Terrence hanging out together? Terrence
‘’Teacher I haven’t finished that book you lent me. Could I give it back to you a bit
said he going to help me but he wouldn’t blurt it out like this right?
late?’’ I was here at the library, it’s our free time now so I decided to come over
for a bit. ‘’Ella, I heard a while ago that you also transferred to this school.
Have you used to it yet? Ethan asked me. He really is
“Of course take your time.” The teacher said.
charming. He always sweet and kind to anyone.
“Hey teacher, could I also borrow that book?” I was stunned when I hear his
“Y – Yeah Cindy helps me out a lot.” I really felt my heartbeat
voice out of nowhere. What the hell is he doing here? He’s like a ghost!
intensifies.
“Good afternoon teacher.” Terrence said.
‘’that’s good. If you need anything just ask me okay?’’ Ethan.
“Are you two friends?’’ the teacher asked. I have a bad feeling about this, I better
“Uh… Yeah Okay.” I said
get out of here.
“Well see you later Ella.” Then they left.
“Bye Ethan” was it Terrence who called him over? Is he really helping me? Just "This is not good. I'm too scared." Terrence and I decided to meet
what on earth is going on? in this place.
"Stop mumbling, will you?" Terrence looked at me with annoying
face.
After Class
"I mean, who would believe that we just bump into each other like
“I know you don’t have art class today, let’s go to that place I mentioned before.”
this? It's so fake you know." I continued
Cindy said cheerfully.
"All you have to do is act like it's just a coincidence, then leave the
“Sure.’’ We were walking out to the school gate when suddenly…
rest to me." Terrence explained. But still that thought makes
“Cindy right? Sorry but I have to borrow this little lamb for a bit.’’ Wait what? me nervous even more.
What the hell is he doing?
"I don't think I can do it." Terrence took a deep breath. He seems a
“Okay.” Then he drag me away from school. Where did he taking me? bit annoyed.

We stop walking to the bay side. "Come on, let’s go. And don't be scared! You’ve got my back." then
he grab my hand, I have no time to argue with him so I let
“Why are you avoiding me? If you blow my secret, you’re screwed.” He said like myself to go with him.
a threat.
We're close to the super market when we saw Ethan outside.
“I know.” Only thing I said.
"Hey! Sorry, I ran into this little lamb, so I'm a little late." Terrence
“Anyway next week is Ethan’s birthday, and he’s hosting a party to celebrate. I’m said. Ethan just smile at us, like what he always did.
going with him to supplies this Saturday.
"It's okay. Hi Ella what a coincidence." then he wave his hand.
“So?” I asked. “Nothing I just asked.” Is he going to ask me to come along?
"Uhm... Hi Ethan." I'm really nervous right now like, my chest is
‘’Ah forget it I’m done teasing you. Yes you’re coming along on Saturday.” going to burst in any minute.
“You jerk!” He always pissing me off. But to be able to see him outside of the "I was just telling her that we were buy some stuff, and she would
school, I can’t wait. like to help." Terrence said. Then he pushed me closer to
Ethan. This guy is really up to something.

Saturday
"I - I'm sorry if I cause you any trouble Ethan." I said. But to my surprise Ethan "Thanks." Terrence said. "Alright after this let's go home. Anyway
pat my head like a child while smiling. "How could you possibly make any Ella, thank you for accompanying us today. You really a big
trouble? I'll be counting on you then, Ella." help." with a just simple words, he made my heart felt like it was
slowly crushed. Soar like a bubble in the sky. It was an
I don't know if he saw my face turning red. He really a sweet guy, his hands are
explosion of happiness.
so big and warm ... they make me feel safe! Before, all I've done is looking at him
secretly but today we're suddenly shopping together. Almost like a date. Even I
feel nervous and cautious now, I'm still happy to be with him today.
Terrence’s Point of View

***
I don't know why I suggest that agreement from the very first place
I'm so tired already, we are now finished shopping and the three of us decided to with Ella, maybe because when I saw her like crying I felt
stop in a bus stop. I sat on the bench to relax my feet. I'm exhausted to death guilty for what happened to her drawing. But still, I can't deny
anyway. the fact that she really is something. I don't know. But teasing her
is much better especially when Ethan is around. She can change her
"Wait for me here, you two. I'll go buy some drinks for us.’’ Ethan offered. I just
expression right away. Honestly, this is my first time to get close
nod to him with a smile then he leave. Suddenly I heard Terrence laugh. He's
with a girl, and this is also my first time agreeing to go shopping
standing beside me so, I looked at him with WHAT ARE YOU LAUGHING LOOK.
with a guy... for a girl.
He just shrugged his shoulder.
We are walking to the station to go home. I let them walk first
"Well, I guess I should thank you. Even though you always annoys me, you really
before me, when Ella looked at me. What is she looking at?
do have my deepest thanks. If it wasn't for you nothing would have changed." I
She annoys me again. But to my surprise she gave me a smile
sincerely said.
and mouthed me a word that unexpectedly make my heart beats.
"It's just, I can't stop wondering why did you suggest this kind of agreement that
"THANK YOU"
night?" I continued.
"Well, It's because..." "Hey guys, sorry for keep you waiting." Ethan said. He
bring our drinks.
"There you go, Ella." he give the drinks to us. "Thanks Ethan." I said. "No Ella's Point of View
problem. And this is for you Terrence."
There's still a five days left before Ethan's birthday. What do I even
buy for him?
"Cindy, can I ask you something? For someone’s birthday what would be a nice “Huh? I totally can’t.” I saw a big curve of a smile in Terrence face,
gift?" Cindy and I here at the school cafeteria to buy food for lunch. and I feel something bad about it.
"For Ethan?, hmm... let's see. If he is a gentle kind of boy, what about a wallet? A “Hmm.. In that case come to my place the day before his birthday.
handkerchief would be fine too." Cindy explained. But whatever I decide to get And I’ll teach you.’’ He proudly said.
him, I'll need money to buy it so... "Cindy I've decided to only eat breads this
“What? Your place? “He just smile at me and I sense that smile
week!" then I leave the cafeteria to buy bread outside the school.
tells me he’s up to something.
"See you later."
“Yeah, I got everything you need, even an oven!’’
***
“But why does a boy know how to bake?” I said out of disbelief.
They have a new bread, and it’s now on sale, but I need to save money to buy a “What’s it to you? In the end, I know how and I can teach
gift for Ethan. you. You coming or not?”
"Can I just get a small cinnamon roll please?" This can’t be help. Hmm… for a girl to go to a boy’s house alone like this can’t be
good. Should I take Cindy with me? She’ll just laugh. Everything’s all
"Here you go." "Thank you." But before I get my bread someone grab it from the
wrong but, I must do it for Ethan.
sales lady.
“I’ll go.” I said bravely.
"Hey!" but to my surprise it was Terrence. He eats my bread. "You jerk!" I can’t
take it back from him now when he start biting it. My poor cinnamon roll. “Alright! Just count on me.’’ Wait, counting on him?
"Hey what? Here!" then he give me something. Wait, it’s the new bread. ***
"Hahahaha, messing with you is really too much fun! Here a reward for being a
I was already outside of the building where Terrence probably
good little lamb.'' Did he buy this just for me? Impossible. I grab the bread he
leave. He texted me his address last night. All I have to do is to take the
gave me without saying anything. What kind of person is he? He's so
elevator to 10th floor.
unpredictable!
Honestly, the paths are so confusing in this complex. It took forever
“Hey, have you thought of what to get for Ethan’s birthday?” Terrence asked.
to find the right one. Wait… is it really okay for me to come here
“Not a single thing. I’ve never given a gift to a boy before.” I said hopelessly. alone? Even though he’s helping me this whole time, he’s
not exactly a good hearted person. What if his parents are home? What
“No wonder you’ve never made any progress! Try catering to his interest. Or do
then?
you need my help with this too? Ethan likes sweets. Homemade cake. Can you
bake? I was about to press the doorbell when the door suddenly open.
“Little lamb nice of you to finally show up.” He said cheerfully. “How did you know
I was at the door?”
“I saw you walking around in circles earlier.” He already see me yet he didn’t try
Terrence Point of View
to help?
It’s been an hour since I left Ella to the kitchen, but it seems like
“Hahahaha… Please come in” then he step aside in order for me come in. He
something terrible happen out there. What the hell is she up
seems like he’s all alone here. I sat on the couch in a living room.
to? Better take a look.
“Stay here, I got something to buy outside. “ I just nod before he slam the door. I
“Hey you…?’’ For real? Is she really a girl or what? The floor is so
actually can’t believe that a boy lives in such a nice place. I mean this place is so
mess, her clothes full of flour.
neat and clean. This place is better than my room actually. It’s so quiet in here. I
took the book from the center table to read while waiting for Terrence. But “Are you stupid?’’ I said. “I – I couldn’t even clean up properly.” She
something slip inside the book when I open it. shamefully said.
“There’s a picture inside.” I said. I pick up the photo. This is Terence and the “Are you only good at painting and nothing else?’’ I asked. ‘’Well, I
International famous model Tiffany. Wow, Tiffany looks beautiful any way you can boil water too.’’ I don’t know if should I laugh or what. I
look at her. I didn’t notice that Terrence is back. He snatch away from me the just can’t believe that there’s a girl like her.
picture.
“Alright, go to bathroom and get all that flour off, then come back
“T – Terence.” Crap he looks mad. “Hey, isn’t that the famous model, Tiffany?’’ here and I’ll teach you myself.”
“Shut up. Don’t forget our agreement!’’ He said, probably mad.
“Right. I won’t say a word.” After that Terrence became silent. Ella’s Point of View
“Aren’t you here to make a cake? Get your butt in the kitchen. I trust your I.Q is I can’t believe that it’s so difficult to bake a cake. It’s so
enough to follow the cook book. I left the kitchen from you then.” Then he shove embarrassing for Ethan to see how bad of cooking I am. I was going
me to the kitchen. back to the kitchen and I’m surprised to see that it was totally
clean.
“Hey aren’t you going to teach me?” I said furiously.
‘’Did you do this? So clean.’’ I surprisingly said. “If it wasn’t me,
“You can do it.” Then he walk to the living room again. Hmmph… this guy is
then who? You? Put your apron on first little lamb.” He put the apron to
unbelievable. Whatever! It’s just so I can use his oven. However, everything I
me then he stand beside me. I was amazed looking at him
need been arranged do neatly.
baking cake is quite different from Terrence I knew. He’s “Haisst… Come here I’ll tell you. See that door right there? That’s his house.”
good actually. Terrence said while pointing his finger. “Ohh!’’ I want to see what his home is
like.
After One hour finally the cake are done. “This is my first
successful cake. I hope Ethan will like it.” “Well? Satisfied now?” He said. “Uhuh.” I nod. This is absolutely the happiest
thing that could happen. “Alright, take your cake and get going.” Then he push
“Hey your first successful cake are right here” while pointing the trash bin.
me away outside. So mean.
“Oh. “The only thing I said.

***
Chapter Three
“Thanks again, and sorry for all the trouble. I’m leaving! Good bye!’’ I was about
to leave his place when he suddenly grab my shoulder and he take us a selfie.
“What was that for?” I asked him furiously.
“Assurance that you never blow up my secret. Or else I’ll share it with the entire Day of the birthday
school.”
Terrence’s point of View
“How could you! I won’t tell anyone. Delete it right now.” I protest. “You wanna
“Hey Ethan. Sorry I’m late.”
delete it? Come do it yourself if you can take it from me.” He smile devilishly.
“You’re here Terrence. Please come in.” Ethan said smiling. “Happy Birthday”
“You jerk.” He pisses me off. Even though I don’t want to talk to him anymore, I
then I give him my present to him. “Ha ha thanks. Anyway Ella
have to ask him something I need.
isn’t with you?’’ why he ask me about that little lamb anyway?
“Um… Before I forgot could you tell me where Ethan lives?”
“Why would she be with me? But, that means she’s still not here
“Oh, I can’t believe you ask me that right now. Well, anyways you don’t have to huh?’’
worry because he just live right down the hall from me.” He said. Wait, what?
“No. She’s not. Does anyone have Ella’s number?’’ Ethan asked
They live in a same building? I’m so jealous of Terrence why can’t I live across
everyone. I have her number but I’m not planning to give it
from Ethan instead?
anyway. I just sat on the vacant couch, waiting her to come. It’s been
“Could you tell me.. Which one is Ethan’s house?’’ a half hour but she doesn’t show up yet. I pick up my phone and I
texted her.
 [Hey, why aren’t you here yet little lamb?] know I like sweets. Thank you so much Ella.’’ He said happily. Thank goodness
he like it.
[Where are you? Text me back ASAP] I’ll give her two minutes to
reply but still no reply from her. I’m a little bit paranoid here. “Ethan! Get over here.” Someone of his classmate calls him. “Well, I should go.
Damn that little lamb she pissed me off again. Uhuh I have an idea. There are foods on the table so help yourself okay?”
“Hey miss.’’ I asked one of those girl. “OMG its Terrence!’’ i heard the other girl “Sure.” Then he leave. I was so happy that he likes my present.
said. “W – What is it?’’ “Explain yourself young lady.” I forgot Terrence for a while.
“H – Hi Terrence.” I said. “Don’t Hi me you brat. Why are you
“Could you lend me your phone for a second?’’ I asked. “Oh sure, be my guest.”
hanging around outside for an hour?’’ “Well, I’m just nervous that’s all.
“Thanks a lot.” Then I start dialed Ella’s number. “Hello? Who may I ask is I was thinking what if he doesn’t like my gift? What if it taste bad?’’ I
calling?’’ she ask when she answer my call. So, all I have to do was use another explained. “Hey! I made those cakes myself dammit! How could
phone huh? you?’’ He seems mad again.

“You finally picked up little lamb.” “I’m sorry.”

“Huh? S- Sorry I’m busy now, bye.” She about to hang up her phone. “If you ‘’Alright forget it. Ethan doesn’t have your phone number right?” I
hung up right now, I swear I’ll make your life hell!’’ I exclaimed. “I’ve been just nod. So what then?
standing outside for an hour.” She said. “Huh? Get in here, you idiot.”
“Your mission is to exchange numbers with him before the nights
“But…” I cut what she is saying. “No buts! Don’t forget I still have that selfie” over.” Is he serious? “No way! I can’t do that.”

Ella’s Point of View “And if you fail to do so, I’m posting that selfie all over our school
website.” He said threatening me.
After hearing what Terrence said, I rush myself to knock on Ethan’s door. He’s
using that selfie to blackmail me. I got nervous and almost knocked down the “Can you stop bringing up the selfie? I’ll go.” I have to take out of
door. “Ella you’re here!” Ethan showed up in front of me. my comfort zone if I want to stand a chance.

“I… I got lost just now.” I said just an excuse. “You silly girl, come in! We left “But first, let me tell you something. Pretty girls rely on their faces,
some food just for you.’’ body and manners while smart girls rely on their knowledge.
Since you don’t have any of those thing… all you have to do is
“Oh, thank you.” I said. I really nervous to give my present to him. smile more.” He really makes me upset. “I knew you wouldn’t tell me
“H – Happy birthday Ethan.” Then I give my present to him. “Thank you, Can I anything useful.” I exclaimed. I walk to leave him away. He’s a
open it now?” I just nod. I hope he’ll like it. “A cake! It looks so delicious, you jerk really.
 Now how could I possibly get Ethan’s number? I looked to his an art festival! All relevant meetings and info will be held by the school’s art club
direction but everyone wants to be around Ethan. But when on the first floor. And by the art club in the meeting room on the 5 th floor. The
will it be my turn? Sigh! promotion club will count up all the submissions for the art festival. All works
must be submitted in the art room by next week.” All my classmates start
“Are you looking for me Ella?” I was surprised to see him coming celebrating when they heard the announcement and Cindy is one of them.
near me. “You looked so shy, so I came over.” He said
smiling. “Can’t wait to see the art exhibition this year! Cindy said. I just nod at her as a
response.
Right! This is my chance. This is the smile I’ve been wanting to see. “Wow, I
“Alright! That’s enough class I still have one more announcement!
almost never see you smile.’’
We will be having a final exam on 18 th and 19th, that’s all.” My
“Oh! Really?” I asked. “You’re smile is, it reminds me of something. It’s really classmate start to protest by hearing about the upcoming
cute.’’ I never thought Terrence was actually helping me with his advice. But I examination. “Come on teacher! Don’t build us up just
still have to complete my mission and exchange numbers with Ethan or else… break us down like that.’’ My guy classmate said out of disbelief.
“Hahaha… You think I don’t know you kids? You’d be happy doing
“Um Ethan your phone number.” I said in a tiny voice. “Huh? What was that?’’
anything except studying.” Alright, we can finally relax a bit in
Hold on, If I say it any louder, people will hear and laugh at me. But this is my class, and maybe even cut some classes. This is basically the most
chance! Time to stop standing around. I have to gather up my courage and just anticipated event of our student’s life after all.
do it.
“Uh Ethan, c – could I…’’ I can’t say it. “Ella, can I see your cellphone?’’ I
After Class
suddenly wondered by what he saying but I still give it to him. After a minute he
returned it to me. ‘’Look, I saved our numbers to each other’s phone. Now I can “Hahahaha… Time for me to show my stuff again. 2 nd place is
ahold of you next time. This is what you were going to ask about right?’’ definitely going to our class this year.” Cindy got fired up
when the sports festival comes around. She is the only girl in
I was surprised for what he doing. Ethan wants to contact me too. I’m so happy…
the sports committee after all, and member of volley ball varsity
If I could stop time right now, this is the moment.
in school.
“Yes!’’ I smiled. And so, the party went on with everyone having a good time.
“I have a meeting with the committee, so I can’t walk home with you
Today was truly one of the happiest days of my life.
today. Be careful on your way back okay?’’ Cindy said before
*** leaving.
“Okay everybody, I have two announcements to make! I’ll start with the good ‘’Don’t worry about me.’’
news.” The class become silent and we give our full attention to listen with our
teacher. “On September 20 th to 21st, we will be holding a sport competition and
 I was already at the gate! I don’t get to see him at all today. I know I “That’s funny! I swear I just saw Tiffany walk this way. This is our chance to make
have his number and all. But people usually have a reason to call the headlines. Don’t let her get away.” I heard the two men walking toward this
other. I was about to cross the street when I saw a car direction with cameras. They might be Tiffany’s paparazzi. If these two find
coming to my direction. Good thing, I immediately dodge it. “Woah, Tiffany, it’s over. Without thinking I run toward the two men. “OMG! I just saw my
that was close.” I got nervous by that one. I was about to walk away idol Tiffany walk that way! (While pointing the opposite direction) Did you two see
when my phone suddenly rung. WHAT? It’s Ethan! here?”
“H – Hello? I stuttered. “Ella! Don’t walk with your head down like “Huh! Really? Let’s go!’’ then they run away. Phew…! That was close. I’m better
that.” Ethan said in other line. “Uh Okay… Wait! You can see actress than I thought.
me?’’ I surprisingly asked. I search him around when he captured of
my eyes not far to my direction. “That’s right, remember to keep your ‘’Not a bad performance kid! It would’ve perfect if your hands
head up and look both ways next time, okay?’’ weren’t shaking so much.” Then he raised my hand to show me it’s
shaking. What the…? Where does he coming from?
“Sure! Are you done classes Ethan?’’ I asked in the phone. “Not yet! I still have to
prepare some things for both the sports committee.” He said. “Alright then go do “You think it’s easy to go up to two strangers and lie like that?’’ I
you’re thing. I’ll be more careful” complain.

“Okay, I’ll see you around.” Then he hung up. I didn’t notice my voice get lighter. “Yeah! Yeah! Thank you. Her manager came by to pick her up, it’s
In fact my whole body felt light as a feather. safe now. She leaving the country again to attend the
trainings. It would’ve been bad if those guys caught her on
camera.” I see now! He acts like a jerk to protect her
professional development. “It’s not easy for you two, is it?” I
***
don’t know why but it came out in my mouth out of the blue. He’s face
I pass through the place when I first saw Terrence with the famous model Tiffany. become clueless. “She’s my sister!’’ Oww... Right...
I wonder, would my life had stayed the same if I hadn’t met him? Even though he
“WHAT!!!???”
doesn’t look dependable. If it wasn’t for him, I don’t think I would have ever made
a move.
“But are you sure you can take care of yourself?” I suddenly stop from walking Terrence’s Point of View
when I heard a voice. It sounds so familiar. I hide again to the wall to take a look
who’s talking and to my surprise it was Terrence and Tiffany again. I was ready to sleep when Tiffany calls me. “I’m finally here, take
care of yourself okay? And remember to thank that young
“That’s enough, I’m an adult now too. You should accept than you now.” lady.” She said in other line. “Right, right!” then I hang up the call.
Terrence said without looking to Tiffany. My gosh, how can Terrence be this cruel Humph, she only responds in a worst situations. Any other time,
to her? Does he want to break up? Looks like she can’t take any more of this. and she’s a hopeless little lamb. I just threw my phone to the
Even when he’s breaking up, he still talk like that, jerk!
bedside table and lying on my bed. Why would I waiting to something. Whenever he talks to me or smile at me it makes me so unbelievably
message me anyway? happy. But what does he see when he looks at me? In his eyes, I’m probably just
like everybody else. It’s so hard to know what another person is feeling.
“It has Ella’s style of drawing. It is cute’’ I heard Ethan speak. That was Ethan just
now. Did he say that I’m cute? Was he calling my name? My whole body is
Ella’s Point of View trembling right now… Does he think about me too?

I’ve always been in charge of logistics for the sports competition, “Ella?’’ I was stunned from my position when I saw him standing behind me. I feel
it’s less work, so I can study while I do it. I was currently writing nervous at this moment. ‘I – I’m sorry I didn’t mean to overheard your
numbers while memorizing poems for the final exam. But someone conversation!’’ I said. “Silly! You don’t have to apologize. I still need to hand
showed up in front of me. “Hi Ella!” He cheerfully said. “Oh, these book over to our teacher. I’ll see you later.” He said. “Alright. Bye” and I
good afternoon Steve!’’ I met him once to Ethan’s birthday party, but ever since walk away. “Ella!” I stopped walking when I heard him calling my name,
that day, I’ve been seeing this guy everywhere. I wonder why. so I turned around to him. “Can you wait? We can go home
together. And if it’s okay, could you come with me?’’ I was surprised.
“You such a hard worker! No wonder the teacher always calls on you to answer.” He wanted me to come with him. “Sure! But what place?’’ I
He said. I was flattered for what he is saying yet I feel embarrassed at the same asked. I wonder where he planning to bring me. I’m so excited.
time. I was covered my face with my bare hand. “Hahaha… Don’t be shy! Put ‘’It’s a place that means a lot to me.”
your hands down.” He’s about to touch me when someone came out from
nowhere. “When did you get so close with her, huh? A couple of words, and now “Okay.’’ Then he walk away. Are you trying to tell me that I am
you think you can hold her hand?” It’s Terrence. He stop Steve’s hand to touch special to you? The day I’ve been waiting for… is coming. Someday,
me, and it seems like he’s gripping it so tightly. “Aw...Aw... Hehe don’t be so I’ll be able to tell you that I like you.
serious dude’’ Steve said. He looks like in pain.
“What do you want?” I turn my gaze to Terrence. He stooped a little and turned
his face towards me. He grabbed my chin and slowly raised to face him. I was
getting furious to him that’s why I bit his finger. I stood up from my chair and walk
away from him. He pissed me off again.

***
I was currently in the library, Cindy had another meeting. I’ll have to go home by
myself again after I check out of this book. I was searching for a book when I
accidentally saw Ethan. He’s here too? He’s sitting alone in the corner writing
 “How awful. But this place is so beautiful. “Things as beautiful as this are usually
fragile.
“Yeah it’s pretty awful. I figured you would like it here, since the scenery is so
pretty. Also, I wanted to view this place with you, that way you could help me say
goodbye.” He smile sadly. And this is the first time I saw him this way. Before,
every time I watching him from the distance, e’s always smiling but now is quite
different. To be honest I don’t truly understand how much this place means to
Ethan… and why he looks sad. All I know is that he love this place, and I’m
happy to come here with him.
“Careful, there are puddles. Come on, jump.’’ The he extend his hand for me.
“Thank you.” When we about to leave I saw a girl standing in front
Chapter Four of us. Oh no, it’s so embarrassing. He saw us while holding hands.
She looks familiar, but I don’t know her name. She’s a senior student
too. I saw her in my art class before. She didn’t think I’m dating Ethan
right? Then again, it’s not bad if she did.

“H ere we are!’’ I don’t know if it is the right place. It is a rundown alley and
a wall full of cracks. What is this place? “Here?’’ I asked him to assured
that we’re in right place. He walk through the door and he open it. “Look.” I was
“Hey are you here to view this place too?” Ethan asked.
“Yeah! I heard it’s going to be demolished. I got off to class early so
I could come sketch it one last time.” The girl said. “Well then, we
amazed when I saw a big three inside of this walled place. It was like a dream
we’ll going.” Ethan said, and he grab my hand to walk away.
that somebody left behind. “Let’s go.’’ I just followed him inside.
“This place has been here ever since I was little. Everyone says that a company
bought it to build a workshop years ago, but the project has been suspended The Day of the Exam
because of financial problems. People don’t come here often since it’s out of the
way. I stumbled on it while playing hide and seek with my friends as a child, ever “What should I choose, iced tea or lemon tea?” I was about to buy
since, I would come here by myself all the time.” I see on his how happy he was drinks when I saw Terrence walking in the hallway.
before, but in some ways I also see the sadness in his eyes. “Terrence? Just in time hero. Here you go.” Then I give him one bottle
of lemon tea.
“Anyway, this place has already sold to another company, their work starts next
week. This pace is getting torn down.’’ “What’s then? You still excited about going out with Ethan
yesterday? What are doing, giving that to me instead of him?’’ Terrence
said without looking at me. “How did you know about that?’’ I
asked with confusion. “I know everything about you.’’ He said “Whoever is in charge of logistics for class two, please come get an order form.” I
seriously. “You clumsy mumbling airhead.” Bad guy! He never heard calling by one of the officer of student council. “Okay, coming.” I put my
has anything good to say. Hmmph… I was about to leave him when things to the table when I saw Ethan from the distance. He’s handing out the
suddenly grab the bottled drinks from me. forms too.
“Hey, leaving so soon? How insincere.” “Ethan!” I called him, when I get close to him. Ever since that day, seeing him
makes me less nervous.
“Hey!” The way Terrence treats me, nice one minute and mean
next. Wait a second, can’t be? He may look mature, but he’s moody and “I’m here to pick up a form.” I said. I can finally talk to him naturally.
loves picking on others. I bet he’s actually going through
“Hey Ella. Here you go! It’s a little wet from the rain though.’’
puberty. I was simply smile by that thought. “Hey! What kind of
gross thoughts are you having? What’s with that depraved smile?” “A –Achooo!’’ Crap it’s so embarrassing. “I’m sorry.” I said shyly. But to my
He’s getting annoyed again. “Who are you calling depraved?’’ I was about to surprise, he put on his jacket to me. “Here, I don’t need it. So you can wear it.
open my drinks. Huh? He helped me open it? Ah… He’s not just moody… he’s The weather’s been colder lately. So remember to bundle up.”
super awkward too.
“I’m f – fine Ethan, you should…” but he cut what I saying. “I still
“You still aren’t coming? It’s almost time you know?’’ I just smiled at him. “You’re need to take part in the completion, so, I don’t need it really.
still smiling?’’ It’s fine.” He smiled to assured me. “I see, thank you.”
“Hehehe... Can you delete that picture? I swear I’ll never tell anyone about you
sister.”
“Nope! My phone won’t have a nice wallpaper if I do.”
Terrence’s Point of View
“Wallpaper!!?? You Pervert!” He just laughed like a kid. What a jerk.
I was walking to the school field when I saw a familiar face in a
distance. It was Ella, she seems so happy talking with Ethan.
Looks like my work’s almost done. But why does it always feel like
***
something’s not right.
The final exam was over before I knew it, and then the sports competition we had
“Anyone interested in taking part? Is anyone interested in acting in
all been waiting for was here. Only… Why does it have to rain? Is this a curse?
tomorrow’s play? The role doesn’t have any lines. You’ll get
Although, it’s not raining very much. “ACHOO!” Crap… I think I might be getting a
to act alongside Ethan too!’’ I heard from one of the student. They
cold. It’s already September, so it’s really cold when it rains.
seems looking for someone for a play. In that case why don’t
I lend a hand?
 “Hey! I know just the person for the job.” I said confidently. “A I saw the curtain roll up suddenly, what is this? Someone pulled my back towards
recommendation?” She asked. “Don’t worry I’m sure she’ll the curtain. “Who’s there?’’ I said frightened. I was about to hit the curtain when
agree.” someone stop my hand.
“Your hero. Why are you so violent with me lately?’’ It was Terrence. Why is he
hiding behind this curtain anyway? “You scared me! I thought I was about to get
Ella’s Point of View
kidnapped! Why can’t you just call out to me like normal person?” I grumble. “So,
He’s clothes smell so fresh and clean. “Ella, don’t forget to come to why are you here? I’m sure backstage is off limits right now.” I said seriously. “I
the auditorium a little early tomorrow, so I can fill you in on your role came to see you, and also to receive my thanks. As for how I got in…” I didn’t let
okay? I was surprised when I heard what Anna is sating. She is one him finished talking.
of the member of student council and Ethan’s classmate. Wait,
“You want thanks? I still haven’t asked you why the heck did you sign me up for
what?
this?’’ I complain. “Why can’t you think of other people’s feelings when you do
“What role? I never signed up for a play.” “Eh? You didn’t know? things like this?” You even get to dress like a real girl. And see the boy of your
Terrence said you had agree. I already told theater club dreams! Still not happy?’’ He teased me again. Humph... “I don’t have time for
adviser. He said he’s really looking forward to your performance.” She you. I have to go now. Wait a little bit before you leave. And be careful not to let
explained. “Don’t be so nervous.” It was Terrence! I can’t even give a our teachers catch you.” Then I go to stage.
presentation in class without shaking all over! This is hopeless…

Terrence Point of View

***
Is it over here? It’s tasteful. Actually I’ve been wanting to tell you
I was looking myself in the mirror, wearing a long purple dress. My long black that you look really pretty. What the hell am I doing…? “I
hair is curled with tiara in my head. I looks like a princess. It perfectly beautiful don’t have time for you. I have to go now. Wait a little bit before you
yet I’m still nervous to do this play. “Ella you… you look unbelievable in this leave. And be careful not to let our teachers catch you.” Ella said before
outfit.” Anna complements me. “Thank you.” leaving the back stage. Please I don’t need your
concern… not for something like that.
“Anna, are we missing a costume over here? Come take a look.” Someone calls
Anna from the dressing room. “Wait, I’m coming. Ella I gotta go. Good luck!’’ then I saw a hairclip in the floor. It must belong to her.
she left.
 Ella’s Point of View Ella’s Point of View
“Hi Ethan.” I greet him when I saw him in the stage. “Ella that outfit “Morning Ella’’ I heard Cindy’s voice from the distance so I stop walking.
really suits you.” “Morning Cindy.” I still thinking about yesterday’s conversation and nothing else.
“Hey! Did you see our school’s post yesterday?’’ School’s post? I wonder what it
“Thank you Ethan.” Oh God! I knew being seen in this would be
is. “Um… No!” I said. Cindy pick up her phone from her bag. “Here, let me show
uncomfortable especially if Ethan saw me. Ethan suddenly
you.” To my surprise it was my photo from yesterday’s role play. What the heck is
offer his hand to dance with to rehears. “Shall we, my
this all about? “Everyone is talking about you.” Cindy said happily. I remember
princess?” He said with a smile. “Okay.” I was about to hold his
now, even though I was trembling with scare before we started, I felt much less
arm when someone drag me away from him.
nervous afterwards.
“You dropped your hairclip little lamb.” Terrence? At that moment I
“I couldn’t stop laughing! Your acting was a spot – on just like a real princess!
pushed him away.
And you were blushing! Hahahaha!”
“Relax, I was just giving you your thing back.” Why did he have to
“I can’t help it if my face gets red when I’m nervous.” I was continue scrolling the
show up right now? He knows how I feel? I suddenly felt the
comments about my picture when I notice something…
tension between Ethan and Terrence at that time. “This
place is musty as hell, so I’m leaving now. Break a leg you Xxx: Isn’t that the girl always with Terrence?
two.” Terrence said sarcastically the he leave. Ethan just silence for a while. Why
Izzy: I’ve always seen them together. I think something’s going on
does the atmosphere, feel so awkward?
between them.
“I need to tell you something tomorrow. Can you wait for me in the park after
Are we really always together? Why would people think that? “I’ve
class? I was surprised when Ethan suddenly said that. That look and this
always want to ask you, even Terrence is popular… He’s
atmosphere…. Will it be CONFESSION?
completely unapproachable person. So, why are you
“O – Okay.” Oh no! I can’t expect too much. My heart is beating fast. two close?’’ I didn’t know how to answer Cindy at this very
moment.
“They say that Terrence got along well with many people, bet he
Terrence’s Point of View
never had any close friends. “ Cindy continued. Now that I
Why am I hiding like this? What’s been happening to me lately? I just need to think of it, that day at his house… whether it was his dumb
keep my promise, after that, I won’t have to look at her dumb face anymore. laughter or his cruel jokes, the second that picture of him and
Good riddance! I should be happy. Tiffany appeared… It’s as if all he emotion in the room completely
Next Day
disappeared. So, which one is the real him? Do I really know him “That’s great! Maybe we can get into the same college.” Ethan said happily.
at all? “Yeah” I answered. “Well then I have to go back in my class now, don’t forget…
tonight at the park.” He said before leaving.
“Ella? You haven’t answered me, why are you two close?’’ I can’t
tell you about our secret Cindy I’m sorry. I have to think “Okay! Bye.” My heart beats so fast. I’ve made up my mind. Even if what he tells
something to change the topic. me tonight isn’t what I think, I’m still going to tell him how I’ve always felt about
him.
“You don’t believe this kind of gossip, do you Cindy? How could I
ever close with a guy like him? Don’t you see how upset I When I was about to leave the hall, I felt something strange happening to my
am? Thinking about him makes me sick!” I lied... surrounding. Am I imagining things? Why does it feel like I’m being watched? I’ve
noticed a lot of people have been staring at me lately. What the heck are they
“Come on, let’s go or we’ll be late!’’ and I drag her to go inside the
looking at? I suddenly hear people talking about me in whisper. “So that’s her?
school building.
The one that’s always with Terrence?”
***
“His girlfriend?’’
I was here at the hall where the exhibit happened yesterday, I didn’t
“Ha! No way.’’
have a chance to see the paintings because of yesterday’s role
play. “Quiet, she may hear you!’’
“You drew this one right?’’ I was surprise to hear a familiar voice from behind. I I still hear you lol! I said in my mind.”
didn’t expect to see him here. “Ethan?’’
“Hey stop gossiping in front of her will you?’’ Eh? It was Terrence
“Are you planning on going to Arts College?’’ He asked. walking towards me. “She owes me money that’s all.” What
the? I glaring at him with THAT WAS EVEN WORSE EXCUSE
“I really want to, but I’ve never studied art before, so I can’t take any art school
IDIOT! Look. “Money’’ one student with confusion asked.
exams… what about you?” I wonder what he want to in college. “I want to go to
Law school later.” By hearing what he’s saying my heart felt lighter. Even though “So what’s wrong with doing some debt collection huh?’’ Terrence
I don’t want to go to Law school, my mother is making me do the same! If Ethan asked them. “So, it was debt collection all along?’’ They
wants to get into Law school then, there’s no need for me to struggle against the listening carefully. Seriously? They really believe him? “What
idea imposed on me by my mom. else would it be?” Terrence looked at me in the eyes, and it feels a
little awkward. “Besides, you guys really think my taste are
“Me too, since U can’t take any art school exams, I plan on going to Law school.”
this low?” he continued. This arrogant jerk. He’s trying to piss me
Wherever you go… I’ll be there with you…
off again.
 “Alright, now get lost all of you!” Terrence drive them away, and the been bothering me all this time, I know it now. But it’s not right, and I knew it
crowd scattered. wasn’t right a long time.
“You can thank me for getting you out of trouble now.”
“THANK YOU MY ASS! YOU’RE CRAZY! I DIDN’T WANT YO PAY
YOU BACK? WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO THINK ABOUT ME
NOW?’’ I exclaimed. He just smirk at me then he bent down
closer to my face. “Then you think a better excuse in five second?
Or is it … that you want them to think you’re my girlfriend?’’ I
know he’s teasing me again, but why this feeling so strange?
“Don’t tell crappy jokes like that.” Then I turn my back to him. “You
know that I…’’ He didn’t let me finished talking. “I know, you like
Ethan.’’ His voice suddenly become serious. “So why did you
suddenly jump out right at that time yesterday?’’ I asked him.
“What if Ethan misunderstood?’’
“Can’t you think of anything else?’’ At that moment I feel something
wrong with Terrence, something I didn’t see before. I turned
again to face him. The way he looked at me in my eyes, it’s so
strange. But for some reason my heart start pounding. What is
happening to me? He just staring at me. Without breaking the eye
contact… “Ethan! Ethan! You say his name all day, every day, but can’t you think
of anyone else? Why did I jump out right at that time? I’ll tell you why!” he paused
for a moment and took a deep breath. “It’s because I LIKE YOU!” I saw the
Chapter Five
serious look in Terrence face. My heart beats so fast… I don’t know what exactly
happening, but I suddenly step away from him and I start running away from him.

Ella’s Point of View

Terrence’s Point of View I can’t breathe… I don’t even need to feel my heart to know that
After I said those words, I know she’s surprised! She run away from me. ‘’Shit! it’s about to jump out of my chest. Calm down… Calm down… What
Shit! Shit!’’ I grasp my face with my hand. Why did I just tell her? The thing that’s Terrence just said… why did he say that? In my mind all I see is that sad face
of him. Even his words sounds doubtful to me. Is there any other way to
understand it besides just his words? It must be another joke! He loves was hiding behind the tree not too far from where she is. She’s sitting to a bench.
pulling pranks on me! Don’t be pulled Ella! My knees are shaking, my heart is Are you stupid? You’re gonna just wait there? It’s almost dark! Don’t you know
pounding… What should I do? I feel so confused. Why did he have to tell me how dangerous out here this late at night? I scold her in my mind. What the hell’s
this? Why did I run away? “How could you say those three words so the matter with me, that I would say that to a girl like her? Screw it… I messed
easily?’’ I murmured to myself. up, that’s all.

*** Ella’s Point of View

Every time I saw Terrence in the corridor I always hiding from him. “Ella?’’ I heard Ethan calls me, so I turned back. “Sorry! I’m late, did you wait
Am I going to keep hiding from him like this forever? But still, long?” Ethan said. He seems so worried.
I don’t want to see him right now… because every time he’s around
“No, I’m fine. What did you need to tell me Ethan?’’ I asked him straight. That
my heart beating like a drum.
look in his face, it’s the same look Terrence had on earlier. “What kind of person
do you think I am Ella? You’re always as quiet as you do your own things, so
quiet, and so modest… I’ve always liked you for that.”
After Class
What? Liked me? Those words… I’ve waited so long to hear them. But right
I haven’t been able to get his face or his voice out of my head all
here, right now… what should be the happiest moment of my life is being tangled
afternoon. I know exactly how I feel. It isn’t indecision, it’s
up with all my sadness and confusion… I can’t even say anything back. All I can
just… that I don’t know how to respond at all.
do is tremble. I didn’t notice that my tears starts falling from my eyes. Ethan
I suddenly back to reality when I feel my phone vibrating. A message from Ethan. wiped it away with his hand. ‘’I’m sorry! Did I scare you by
“See you at the park.’’ Right, this is the boy I like, the same I’ve like secretly for a saying all that? I wanted to find a better opportunity to tell you, but I felt
long time. like someone else would take you away if I didn’t say it now.”
Ethan explained. “You don’t have to say anything right now, you
I was here at the park right now waiting for Ethan to come, But I doesn’t look van reply when you feel better okay?’’
happy at all, I wonder why.
“Okay.” I simply answered. “Here, I’ll walk you home.” I just nod and
walk with him.
Terrence Point of View
After class I followed Ella, and she walk straight to the park alone. I know she’s Terrence’s Point of View
waiting with Ethan. Crap! Why do I feel like a thief, always sneaking around? I
 Hmmph… Is there any point guessing her answer? It ends here! “I’m sorry Terrence. Mom will bring me to U.S.” she sadly said. “No, I won’t let
Besides, what am I getting upset about? After all, She’s the you go. You promised me you’ll never leave me right? You promised!” To my
one who taught me, when it comes to love, its best not to hold surprise she pushed me away from her. “What’s with you brat? You’re not my
into any kind of expectations. brother after all! You’re just my dad’s mistake! If it wasn’t to you, my parents
wouldn’t end up divorced.” At that moment her charming look, changed into
disgusted look towards me. It’s like a nightmare.
Flashback
When I was in a middle school I saw Tiffany on the screen. My dad died at that
I was a child of my dad with a different woman. He bring me with time. There’s nothing meaningless in this world than love.
him in their house, but it seems like her wife looks disgusted
The first time I saw Ella under the tree, I saw myself through her from back then.
with me. I tried my best to make her accept me in the family.
Will you end up just like me in the end? It’s like something about you gradually
“Mom look at my drawing! This is our family picture, this is Dad,
left a mark on my heart somewhere. I can’t get rid of it, but I can’t hold it either.
You, Sister and the smallest one is me.”
I can see clearly in my memories, I can see every expression she made, when
I said cheerfully. She just looked at me with hatred. “Get away from
she were happy, or when she excited… But there isn’t one for when I came into
me. You’re not my son.” I was completely a stranger in her
her life.
eyes, No matter how hard I tried... She will never love me as her
child. It’s best not to hold into any kind of expectations. That’s exactly Enough, I kept my promise and my job is done. Let’s just leave it at that.
how I feel.
“Hey kiddo, stop crying. You’re a boy remember?” there is just only one person
who accept me, Tiffany! She always there whenever I need her. That’s why I love
my sister. She’s a great sister I ever had. She’s like a hero to me. “Terrence, Ella’s Point of View
don’t feel down to yourself just because mom didn’t treat you better. I know
someday you will understand. Besides you don’t have to worry about anything, School
as long as I’m her I won’t let them to harm you.” Tiffany said. I was the luckiest It’s like everything change after what happened between me and
younger brother, having a great and sweet sister. Even though my mom doesn’t Terrence, since that day every time we saw each other at
notice my presence Tiffany always by my side. Until one day… school, he just passed me by like we were a complete
Mom get divorced with dad. She took away Tiffany from me. “No! Sister don’t strangers.
leave me here alone’’ I said between my sobs. I was walking in the hallway when I unexpectedly saw Terrence
walking towards my direction. My heart starts pounding
again every time he’s around. Why do I always run into the last person I
want to see? God! Can’t you just give me a break? I avoid looking at “I just mean that your reaction seems a little strange to me. You’ve kept him
him but… tucked inside your heart for long time, but now that he’s waiting right in front of
you, you’re having a hard time choosing him.” She continued. I admit that at the
“Then my mission’s complete now.” He suddenly said. I stopped
moment Ethan confessed his feelings for me, I was really happy but I couldn’t
walking and looked at him. Mission complete? So, he was
help but feel a bit worried. “I’m a mess right now, Cindy.”
there yesterday, after all.
“Is it because of Terrence?’’ She asked.
“See yah!” Then he leave. Why I suddenly felt like there’s
something heavy in my chest. Maybe it’s better this way. As “Huh?’’ I asked with confusion “Well, you don’t regret rejecting him would you?’’
if nothing ever happened.
“No way saying I’d regret it would overstating things between us. Even though
he’s rude and obnoxious and bad tempered, He’s actually a really kind and
gentle person on the inside. I just don’t understand why he would say that to me.”
***
Sigh!!
I was with the rooftop with Cindy and I told her everything that
bothers me.
“So everyone confessed?’’ Cindy asked me with surprise in her
face. “Shhh...”
Terrence’s Point of View
“I can’t believe Terrence have a feelings for you. It’s like you have a
“I’m telling you dude, I’m insanely cool whenever I play basketball.” I was with
crazy love curse. But still, I thought you would answer Ethan right
Steve right now. He’s been following me all day. “Enough already you freak” we
away.” Yeah I think the same way though.
entered to our room. I walk to the window when I saw Ella on the open ground
“Actually Ella, I’ve always wanted to ask you something about him.’’ having a P.E class. I was just looking at her jumping to the
track but she failed. I saw how embarrassed she was. “Dummy!” I said
“Eh? What’s that?’’
quietly. I didn’t realize that I was smiling like a fool.
“Do you really like Ethan or are you just used to making yourself like him?’’
“You really like Ella, don’t you?’’ Steve said. “How did you know?’’ I
“What do you mean?’’ I asked curiously. asked.

“Well, when you keep someone in your heart like that for so long, liking them He stare at me with a smile. “Because, your eyes can’t lie.” I
becomes like a habit. Habit aren’t easy to break, and they’re not necessarily smirked at him. “Guess you’re not that stupid huh!’’
correct either.” Cindy explained.
 “That’s right! To tell you the truth, I’m actually a genius!” Steve said “From now on, I’m not the Terrence that you made some crazy deal with
confidently. I don’t think so… “So, are you gonna look for her?’’ He anymore. Now I’m the Terrence who’s in the same year as you in school.”
asked me. I don’t know. I just… don’t want to hear that
answer, that’s all.
Ella’s Point of View
“Then are you gonna be like this all the time? Ignoring people to
hide that you’re just sad little boy?” He seems over the line I don’t know what is happening to me. I should be happy right? He made
isn’t he? “What do you just say?’’ But I know in my heart that there is everything clear, but why it’s like I was left behind? My chest become heavy. But
something I wanna tell her. Acceptance and not too why?
much expectation…without thinking I suddenly run outside.
“Where are you going bro?’’ Steve asked. “I’m done being a sad
little boy.” Then I leave. ***
That’s right! I thought ignoring my feelings will be the best way to Since the day Terrence talk to me, I never seen him again. Sometimes, I wonder
forget everything. But, simple goodbye would be enough to what is happening to him. I didn’t see him in his class. He didn’t text me though
end it all… like before. We actually good now, it’s like nothing had changed, yet I feel
Even if I already know your answer… something strange..

Even if I already know the result… Wait, why the hell am I thinking about him? It’s not right.

Leaving you so suddenly like that… isn’t something I can do.. I closed the book that I am reading, I didn’t understand what the story though. I
was about to back the book in a shelves when I saw something familiar.
Is that the Sketch book Ethan was looking here in the library? I remember that
*** day, he said: It has Ella’s style of drawing. It’s really cute…But why would he
think that?
“Terr – ence?’’ I have to make things clear, and now I’m ready!
I open the sketch book and my heart start to shatter into pieces.
“Terrence I’m…” I didn’t let her to continue what she’s going to say. “I know what
What is this?
you’re going to say. You don’t need to keep hiding from m, even though we can’t
say that nothing happened, we can still turn the page.” I remember everything what Ethan said to me.
Honestly, I always found myself thinking that, it would have been better if I met [I want to see it with you, that way… you could help me say good
you before he did. Turn the page, let’s start all over again. bye.]
 [It’s somewhere really special to me.]
It was just a dream that somebody left behind. Is it really my name
I was here in the park where Ethan confessed to me. I don’t know how to face
him now. “Ella?’’ I was stunned to my position when I hear that familiar voice of
him. “What are you doing here alone?” Ethan seems so worried. “Ethan, you
Ella or another Ella?
really are kind, so kind that everyone ends up liking you.” I said.
The sketchbook that Ethan’s looking that time is property of Ella. I
“Is that so, then what about you?” It became silence for a moment. Well, what
remember now, the girl we saw in Ethan’s secret place is the
about me though?
Ella who have the same name as I am.
“Ethan, did you know Ella before you became classmate right?’’ He suddenly
avoid looking at me when He heard her name. “That day… you were talking
about Ella, weren’t you?” Every word that I say feels like it’s digging into my
heart.
“Yes!’’ In that instant, all of the feelings I had in my heart for long shattered to
pieces. “You like me? Is it because my name is Ella too?’’
“It’s not what you think at all! It’s true, I like her before, but that was in the past!
Ella I….”
“Please… please, just stop saying my name… I’m ready to give you my answer
now.”
“I’m sorry Ethan, but … I hope we find the right person for us someday.” From
that very moment I start turning my back at him, all the memories I have about
him become the dream. Dream that will never came true. “Everything I’ve told
you is the truth. I liking you is no different.”
Whether it’s true or not… I don’t have the strength to think about it
anymore.
Chapter Six

***
After School “Found you.’’ I was surprised when I saw Terrence. He breathing
heavily. Is he searching for me, didn’t he?
 “Terrence? … But why?’’ Few weeks later
“I just finished eating nearby. It must be fate! I can’t even eat I was in the library, writing my notes, when someone suddenly showed up.
without running into you huh?’’
“Why are you here?’’ I asked him He sat beside me. “To study of course! Who
“Yeah!” the only thing I said. “Sorry, everything happened between are you looking down on? I’ve never dropped below the top three in my class you
you and Ethan… I heard it all.” know.” He’s being arrogant again. This jerk!
“Hehe… are you gonna call me stupid again? Can’t you let me off “Hey, Let’s go somewhere for winter break.”
the hook just this once?’’ I smiled to hide the sadness in my
“Somewhere?’’
eyes. But, to my surprise… He just hugged me so tight.
“Chill out, I meant us as in Cindy and that idiot Steve too. Let’s all go
“My little lamb, you cannot fool me. Don’t be so sad, whenever you
somewhere.”
feel like this… just come find me. I’ll always be here for you.”
“O – Okay then.”
But I was smiling, how did you know how I really felt? Is this how
you felt after you said that you like me? I’m sorry Terrence.
It’s true, I feel like I’m in pain. Promise, I won’t cry anymore… so
let this be the last time. ***

“There, there! You must be hungry. What do you want to eat?’’ I Why this problem so complicated? “Hey Terrence, Can you lend me a hand for
just shaking my head. I don’t know what just happened. It this one?’’ I asked him shyly. “Let me take a look.’’ Suddenly he laughed like an
was like all of my emotions just came pouring out, all at once. idiot.
Ugh… My eyes are so puffy that I can’t see clearly. "Come on, “What’s so funny?’’
let’s go get you something to eat. My treat.” He smiled.
“Stupid, you used the wrong formula.”
As I walked with my head down, I saw his shadow. The streetlight shone a pale
light on it, it looked young… but confident and strong. “Huh?’’ No way!

I was so depressed, and I had no idea what I should do… But I felt as though I “What huh? You’ve been wrong from the very beginning!’’
would be fine, as long as I just followed him. “Ehem!’’ We stop for a while when we heard Cindy.
“Hey Cindy, Is practice over?’’
*** “Yep! Now, let’s go home.’’ She said
 “Okay! Let me just pack my thing.” “Me too.” I was about to follow Cindy when Terrence stop me. “Hey you can’t
leave! I need a helper after all.’’ Is he planning something? Why I feel nervous
Alright, Hey Cindy, we were just talking about going somewhere for
suddenly?
winter break. You going?’’ Terrence asked Cindy. “Sure. I’ll
come with you” Cindy said, She seems so excited already. “I’ll call “Hey Cindy, You go watch TV in the living room for a bit.”
Steve when I get home later tonight.”
“Ohh? Sounds good” Cindy said, she smile meaningfully. “Why’s it gotta be me?’’
I protest.
*** ***
Winter break Let’s eat…”Slow down No one’s going to steal your food Steve” Cindy said.
Ella’s Point of View “Hey, you’re favorite.” Terrence give me a piece of meat. “Uh thanks.”
“Woah it’s freaking huge. Terrence your family’s villa is awesome.” “Ehem! Eat first you love birds” my face turn red of embarrassment. “Shut up you
Steve was so amazed looking around the house. idiot!” Terrence exclaimed.
“We’re all hungry, let’s get ready to eat. We’ve got something plan
for the evening, too.” Terrence said. “You two boys, come
After we finished our lunch, we take a rest on the living room. Yawnn!
help me bring in the chairs and table so we can eat.” Said
Cindy. “Ella and I will get the food ready, then.” She added. “When did you go to bed last night? How are you this tired?’’ Terrence asked me.
“Alright, we’ll leave it to you two.” Steve said. This place is really “I got caught up reading a really good book and I lost track of the time. And
beautiful. besides eating made me even sleepier.”
We almost finished preparing foods when Terrence suddenly showed up. “Need “Why don’t you go rest in the guest room for a while then?
any help ladies?’’ Otherwise, you might not have enough energy to go out
tonight.” Terrence suggested. I think that was a brilliant idea.
“You’re late! We prepped the kitchen already.” Cindy.
“Sounds good. You guys go out and play, I’ll stay here and watch
“In that case, I’ll start cooking right away.”
over the house.”
“I’ll never thought you were one for cooking. I’ll go put the hotpot on the table.”
“Alright, we’ll be back later.’’ Cindy said. “Okay be careful out
there.”
 “Little lamb.’’ It was Terrence. “Stick close to us dammit!” He suddenly
appeared… no matter where or when, always appears at just the right time.
Terrence’s Point of View
“Let’s go, there’s a nice spot for watching the lanterns nearby, let’s go check it
“That park is so huge” Steve way to excited.
out. And this time stay right behind me. You’re not allowed to get lost again.”
“That’s right.” Cindy agreed. I really felt uneasy without that little Terrence said in a serious yet warm voice. “Okay”
lamb.
I don’t know how to describe how I felt that time, but it felt like something was
“Hey guys” They turned back at me… “I should probably go back. slowly starting to change.
I’m worried that little lamb will lose the house and herself if
“Let’s go.” Terrence hold my hand like he was afraid to lose me. And that
we leave her alone.” I know my reason are stupid but, I should
thoughts make my heart beat so fast.
go back to her.
“Let’s get one thing straight, I’m not taking advantage of the situation. If you get
“So why did you bother coming with us in the first place?’’ Steve
lost, I have to go look for you all over again,” Seem he’s getting so defensive.
and Cindy smiled at me like it’s fine. “Thanks’’
How does he always end up leading me around like this? Even so, he hold my
When I come back home, Ella was already asleep at the living hand so gentle. His touch… I don’t feel like pulling away from it at all.
room. She passed out right away. If I hadn’t left with the
“This is the place. There aren’t too many people on this bridge, and this angle’s
others, you wouldn’t have gotten a wink of sleep that way.
just right.” Terrence brought me to a bridge.
***
“You’re pretty good at finding palaces.”
Lantern Festival
“Of course I am.” He proudly said.
Ella’s Point of View
“Wow Terrence look! They’re releasing the lanterns.”
Is this the lantern festival? So many people! “Dammit there’s many freaking
“You get this excited just from seeing them? Don’t you wanna
people!” I heard Cindy blabbing.
release one of yourself?’’
I just look away for a few second, and I got completely lost because of to many
“Sure I do! Are you Doraemon or something? Where did you get it
people. Where’s Terrence? He should be pretty easy to spot since he’s so tall.
from?”
We were right next to each other a while ago. I just call them instead.
“From inside this bag I’ve been carrying around all night, duh! This
Suddenly… Someone grab my hand.
is a wishing lantern, so what do you wanna write on it?’’
 “You even brought a pen too?” I was amused with him. He really Cindy and I ready to sleep. This day is a tiring yet amazing winter vacation. My
prepared for this night. phone suddenly ring. I wonder who would be texting me this late at night. When I
open it. It was a message from Terrence.
Hmmm… What should I wish then? Piece, Happiness, and ease of
mind for those I hold dearest. [You sleep?]
“You really are a bookworm, even your wish sound so nerdy.”
Terrence
[No, getting ready for bed, what’s up?]
“Then… does that wish include me too? I asked.
[Nothing much, you must be tired after today, so get some rest. Good night.]
“Of course it does.” He answered. “Give that pen.” I gave the pen
[Good night]
back to him.
Even a text message carries his voice in it.
What is he writing in his lantern?
“Hey, are you just gonna copy me?’’
“Nope” Terrence smiled. “I have someone in mind for my wish.’’ He
Continued.
Someone in mind? Did he mean me? What are my feelings for
you? At the bottom of my heart, those little moments of joys
that are so hard to come by… they’re all about you.
“Alright together now,” He said. ‘’Okay”
Let the wind gently carry my troubles away… Because from now on, cherishing
what’s right in front of me is all that I need.

Chapter Seven

*** Ever since we came back from Terrence Villa, it seems like we’ve
been sending each other texts every day.
 Terrence: What you doing? Text message from Terrence. Come down? He’s down stairs? I looked outside
the window to assured that he’s outside. And to my surprise he’s there standing
Me: Washing up.
in front of my house.
Terrence: This early? I’m still in bed.
I run downstairs immediately. I want to see him.
Me: Lazy Butt.
“Terrence!”
Terrence: I’ve been crashing with my cousin these last few days. I
“Hey, how’ve you been?’’ I hugged him so tightly when I got close to him.
won’t be back until next two weeks.
“What’s up to you?’’
“Why haven’t you replied to my messages? I’ve been worried sick all day!’’ I saw
***
his face turn red. Is he blushing?
Today is a new year’s day, so he shouldn’t be coming back from his
“My cousin took me to go see his university today. The signal’s bad out there. I
cousin’s house soon. I leave a message to him this morning but it’s
didn’t get a single message.” Terrence explain. “But, do you have any idea, how
already noon he still didn’t reply.
you look right now?’’ He suddenly asked.
Weird, he usually replies right away, he must be busy.
“Why? Is there something in my face?’’ I asked him. To my surprise, Terrence
I’ve gotten used to talking to you every day… Used to seeing your hold my face in a sudden. “You look so much like a girl whose boyfriend
good night before bed every night. Used to watching my completely disappeared on her without a word.” I didn’t know how red my face
phone, waiting for you to message me. right now. How can I explain it to him? I was just worried about him and wanted
to see him, that kind of feeling… so why couldn’t I hold it back?
This is the first time I’ve gone a whole day without hearing from
him… What could he be doing? “What do you come here to do, anyway?”

*** “I wanted to see you because I wanted the first person I saw on the first day of
New Year to be you. Happy new year little lamb.” He smiled at me like I was the
It’s already late at night, but no message from Terrence. I tried to call him but he most happiest that happened to him. Those two eyes. They were so harsh
didn’t pick my call. Suddenly… before… But now they’re gentle, so gentle that they fill my
[Hey, there’s something going on in plaza next to your house. Come down here.] every thought. It feels as though my heartbeat doesn’t belong to
me anymore, but…
“Happy new year, I should get going. My mom will worry if I stay out
too long at night.” I was about to walk away from him when he
 suddenly stopped me by hugging me from behind. “Hey you! If I really do like you… even if the chances are sum, I don’t think I could stand
I think we should be straight with each other now. I know you know you leaving me, the closer I get to you, the more I’m afraid of losing you. But I
how I feel about you.” Terrence said. “And seeing how concerned can’t help myself… I just want to keep getting closer and closer to you..
you were about me… Why don’t you give it some thoughts,
maybe just once in a while?” he continued. At that very moment I
didn’t avoid his question nor keep silence. “Okay.” School Spring time
“You said it okay? No going back on your words. I’ll be waiting for Finally it’s spring time already… “Ella.” I know that familiar voice, calling my
your answer. Goodnight.” name. “Ethan!’’ He hasn’t changed at all. So calm and gentle. He used to be the
person I yearned for more than anyone, but now my heart feels unusually at
“Goodnight.” Then he walk away.
pace.
Terrence’s Point of View
“Long time no see. You’re a second year now, so I bet you’re much busier than
before right?’’
Ugh! I was too pushy, wasn’t I? I must’ve scared her… She didn’t “The school year just started, so it’s not too.’’ I smiled.
try to push me away at all, did she? Man… If only I knew, I
This unfamiliarity, this distance, it scares me to think… what if Terrence and I end
would’ve held her longer. She’s so small and soft…
up like this?
Almost like a cat. Remembering again her expression earlier
makes me happy though. Her face is so red and warm… “Well, I should get going Ella.”
Oh, my little lamb, why won’t you just admit that you like me too? “Right!” So I leave to go to my class.
***
*** Since the school has been started I never saw Terrence even once. He didn’t call
or text me. I’m really worried about him.
Ella’s Point of View
“Ella, did you contact him yet?’’ Cindy.
I was here in my room thinking what was just happened earlier. It’s just that I’ve
been scared all along. Scared to make another mistake, and terrified that I’ll feel “Nope. He hasn’t texted me yet Cindy. Not once.”
that pain of separation again.
“So, he’s already gone..” I hope everything will be alright soon.
 One week later finally understand what that feels like. I missed him and I’m worried sick about
him. But I can’t find him at all”
“Sigh… Honestly how could a cram class assign this much
homework?’’ Cindy and I decided to go out this day. And Back then, no matter what problems I had, He always by my side. But now that
until now no signs of Terrence. his family is dealing with something like this, He must be so worried… and
there’s nothing I can do about it. And what if he never comes back after this?
“Ella, you’re still looking stuff about Tiffany… “We heard from the
What will I do?
news that Tiffany was having a car accident before Terrence
get disappeared so it is possible that it has something about I still haven’t told him…. That I Like Him.
Tiffany.
“I have to go even if nobody’s there, it’s fine. He might come back.”
“It’s been one week already, still no word from Terrence?’’
I heard Cindy trying to stop me but I didn’t listen to her. Sorry Cindy this time
“Still nothing! Nobody answers the landline at his house, either.” I Terrence need me.
said hopelessly.
“Hey… Maybe he’s been keeping Tiffany company at the hospital?’’
“He just up and disappeared! Whatever’s going on, would it kill him
to send one stinking message? Cindy I think…”
“Huh?’’
“I should go wait for Terrence at his house.”
“What? Don’t be stupid! What are you gonna do over there? He’s
not even home!’’ I feel so hopeless. Every day I woke up
without news about him… It’s like, I was torturing by sadness.
“I know! I know he won’t be there. But that’s the only place I can
think of where I can get ahold of him. What you said before
is totally right Cindy.”
“What I said?’’
“You said, if the day comes when you truly like someone, the saddest thing that
could happen to you will be that person leaving you.” My tears suddenly falling. “I
 “Terrence!’’ I can’t help myself but to hug him tightly. I was began to cry.
Chapter Eight ‘’I missed you so much. Without you by my side, I finally realized just how
important you are to me. I was so scared that you left and were never coming
back. Don’t just disappear on me like that ever again, okay?” My tears continue
Terrence House flowing to my face.

Ella’s Point of View “You’re right… I’m sorry I haven’t contacted you this whole time. But you know,
it’s easy to misunderstand when you say things like that.”
It isn’t anything shocking or particular. And I don’t really know when
it began – quietly… After all that time spent together little by Misunderstand? No, there’s no misunderstanding here. This isn’t what I wanted
little, ever so slowly… I finally realized, the softest spaces in my to tell you. I want to give you an answer, I want to cherish you… I want to hold on
heart… you’re in all of them. to the feeling, I didn’t want to let this pass me by.

I’m hoping beyond hope that when I knock this door, you’ll be on What I want to say from the bottom of my heart…
the other side.
What I want you to know, more than anything is that…
Knock..knock…knock… knock… knock… knock… Of course he’s
“I LIKE YOU!”
not home. I didn’t know disappearing without a trace was
that simple? Am I ever going to see him again? I don’t want this. I Suddenly Terrence distance himself from me. Is there something wrong about
sat on the floor and lean on his door. I waited him here no matter what I say?
how long it takes.
“What did you say?’’ He seems quite surprise.
“Um… I said, I – I like you”
***
He smiled at me while hugging me again, but this time it’s more tightly than
I didn’t notice that I already fell asleep, when I open my eyes I was before.
already lying in a bed. Wait, how would I get here? Am I
“My little lamb do you know how long I’ve wanted to hear you say those words?’’
inside of Terrence house? That means he’s here.. I stood up
from the bed and looking for Terrence. I was about to open the “Thank you for waiting for me, for never leaving me. I’m sorry that it took so long
door from his room when he suddenly show up in front of to tell you.” I said. Terrence wipe my tears away by his hands. I saw in his eyes
me. “You dummy, what are you doing waiting for me outside of how happy he was… Same as I do.
my house?’’
***
 The reason why he suddenly disappeared before is because of Tiffany's “Can’t believe it’s been three years already. You scared the living
accident. She was comatose in the hospital right now, but her daylights out of me when you jumped out of the three that
manager decided to make everything private. As of now Terrence day.”
and I are in a relationship already. Everything went smoothly to the both “It’s been three years, and you still owe me something.” I was confused by what
of us he said. “I’m here to collect. And this time, you’re not allowed to run away.” He
continued. Then he slowly lower his head closer and closer to me, I just closed
my eyes till our lips met. This time, I won’t run.
Fast Forward
Every meeting between two people is a miracle of it’s own. We had our share of
miracles, and there will be even more to come.
The second semester of our second year went by in hasty blur. I’m so thankful that I met you that day. I’m so thankful that every memory I have
After coping with endless questions, after coping with of that precious time in my life has your name etched on it.
endless test, after coping with time quickly slipping through our
hands, after all that, I finally got my wish and went for art The luckiest person in the world to have met you, in the day when our feelings
school training. But leaving school was the price I had to pay. I were just began to spring.
couldn’t spend my third year, that most important time in our
lives, with others. I thought, I would be lonely, but thankfully
the most important person in my life kept surprising me, but
thankfully the time had finally come.
On that balmy summer day, we graduated from high
school…everything had gone by in the blink of an eye. Youth
was gradually receding like waves on the beach. Its farewell was
just the beginning of something new. From that day on, we would
go on to see new places.
After the graduation ceremony Terrence brought me to the place
where our path crossed for the first time.
“Hey… Why are we here, anyway?’’
‘’Because this is where I saw you for the first time. It is isn’t it?’’