Origin

Whisper
catch me as I fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and I fall into myself
this truth drives me
into madness
I know I can stop the pain
if I will it all away
don't turn away
(don't give in to the pain)
don't try to hide
(though they're screaming your
name)
don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
don't turn out the light
(never sleep never die)
I'm frightened by what I see
but somehow I know
that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be
blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
if I will it all away
fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me I fear
she beckons me
shall I give in?
upon my end shall I begin
forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end.

Imaginary
 swallowed up in the sound of my
screaming
cannot cease for the fear
of silent nights
oh how I long for the deep sleep
dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light
in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me
I linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming monsters
calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as they're
falling tell a story
if you need to leave the world you
live in
lay your head down and stay a while
though you may not remember
dreaming
something waits for you to breathe
again.

My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here
 supressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers
here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time
cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of
your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all
of your fears
and I held your hand through all of
these years
but you still have me
all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
now I'm bound by the life you've left
behind
your face it hurts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that
you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along...

Where Will You Go?

you're too important for anyone
 there's something wrong with
everything you see
but I, I know who you really are
you're the one who cries when
you're alone
where will you go
with no one left to save you from
yourself
you can't escape
you can't escape
you think that I can't see right
through your eyes
scared to death to face reality
no one seems to hear your hidden
cries
you're left to face yourself alone
but where will you go?
with no one left to save you from
yourself
you can't escape the truth
I realize you're afraid
but you can't escape
you don't want to escape
I'm so sick of speaking words that
no one understands
is it clear enough that you can't live
you're whole life all alone
I can hear you in a whisper
but you can't even hear me
screaming.

Field of Innocence
I still remember the world
 from the eyes of a child
slowly those feelings
were clouded by what I know now
where has my heart gone
an uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
believing in everything and knowing
nothing at all
I still remember the sun
always warm on my back
somehow it seems colder now
where had my heart gone
trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
believing in everything
(latin hymn)

Even In Death
give me a reason to believe that
 you're gone
I see you're shadow so I know
they're all wrong
moonlight on the soft brown earth
it leaves me to where you lay
they took you away from me but
now I'm taking you home
I will stay away forever here with
you, my love
the softly spoken words you gave
me
even in death our love goes on
some say I'm crazy for my love, oh
my love
but no bonds can hold me from your
side, oh my love
they don't know you can't leave me
they don't hear you singing to me
and I can't love you anymore than I
do.

Anywhere
dear my love, haven't you wanted to
 be with me
and dear my love, haven't you
longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't
even know you
and at sweet night, you are my own
take my hand
we're leaving here tonight
there's no need to tell anyone
they'd only hold us down
so by the morning light
we'll be halfway to anywhere
where love is more than just your
name
I have dreamt of a place for you and
I
no one knows who we are there
all I want is to give my life only to
you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream
anymore
let's run away I'll take you there
forget this life
come with me
don't look back you're safe now
unlock your heart
drop your guard
no one's left to stop you.

Lies
bound at every limb by my shackles
 of fear
sealed with lies through so many
tears
lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to
again
you will never be strong enough
you will never be good enough
you were never conceived in love
you will not rise above
they'll never see
I'll never be
I struggle on to feed this hunger
burning deep inside of me
but through my tears breaks a
blinding light
birthing a dawn to this endless night
arms outstreched awaiting me
an open embrace upon a bleeding
tree
rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you.

Away From Me
I hold my breath as this life starts to
 take it's toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect
plan unfolds
but oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
lost all faith in the things that I have
achieved
I've woken now to find myself
in the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I've made)
won't you take me away from me
crawling through this world as
disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart
has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
lost in a dying world I reach for
something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I
live...

Witness the Bliss.