Psychology,childhood traumas and self-confidence.

I have been interested

in these topics for the past two years.While looking for and watching
"psychology videos" on You Tube, I realized that a person's first self-
awareness and healing of his traumas is the greatest favour he has done to
himself.Different speeches completely shook my consciousness. I
realized that these traumas had been influencing my actions and
behavior. I understood that my reactions to various situations were
shaped by emotional traumas I had experienced in childhood.If I will say
about my traumas,I grew up with strict parents and in a noisy family,
striving for perfectionism. At school, I actively participated in every
event, took places in olympiads, competed in regional essay contests, and
received awards, becoming the center of attention at school. However, at
home, it never went beyond a simple compliment. Perhaps due to this, I
developed a sense of dissatisfaction with my own achievements,
constantly feeling like no matter what I did, I was falling behind. Despite
my desire to participate in global competitions and express my ideas
freely, I always had a fear holding me back, preventing me from making
new advancements and growing further. Although I appeared outwardly
confident at school, inside, I was full of fear and anxiety—afraid of
taking new steps, a little girl hesitant to embrace change.But this new
chapter in my life is going to change my life and mindset.
So, I began the journey of healing my own traumas. The more I desired
something, the resources that would help me reach it started finding their
way to me on their own. I discovered free courses on Telegram, free
psychological books, and even won a self-development course, which
was actually paid, in a contest. As I attended this course, the first lesson
was about freeing oneself from negativity. I poured all the bitter words
and curses that had been stuck within me for so long onto paper with tears
and pain, and simply burned them. I felt true relief and forgiveness within
myself. This was a major turning point in my life—letting go and
forgiving myself and others.This practice completely changed my
worldview and my attitude towards people by 180 degrees. I cut ties with
certain toxic individuals, began to love and appreciate my parents even
more. While learning the course, one of my ex-classmate shared a
personal family problem, and I advised her to follow the lessons I had
learned and was still learning. She agreed, and to this day, I continue to
teach her what I’ve learned.At first it was very hard to change her
mindset but I didn’t give up.At every lesson I added my own
experiences.And these efforts were not in vain.After a while I noticed
positive changes in her words and actions and it brought me joy.
Although I didn’t notice my own changes, the people around me began to
see them.But I know that I still haven’t perfected my mindset as much as
I would like to,but I’m working really hard on it.
Previously, if someone didn’t respond to my text, I would get offended
and upset. Now, I simply try to understand that person and realize that the
world doesn’t revolve around me.

I know there are still many topics I need to learn, and I will never tire of
seeking knowledge, striving to absorb everything as long as I live. Now, I
face any obstacles with joy, love, and gratitude. I listen carefully to those
around me, offering them comfort and support. When I hear about their
problems, I internalize them and then let them go.

When I analyze my emotions and actions, I realize that listening to people

and being a source of comfort brings me joy. Engaging in conversations
that lift others’ spirits gives me energy. For this reason, I’ve decided that
my chosen profession will involve communicating with people. Not only
do I want to help my loved ones, but I also want to listen to people’s
problems on a global scale and, even if just a little, heal them with my
words and actions. I’ve set this as my personal goal

In school, when I wanted to speak but couldn’t, or when I became timid,

lost in thought, or held back by strong emotions, it was those very
unresolved emotions preventing me from developing further. All my
suppressed emotions had taken over and prevented me from growing,
excelling, and reaching higher levels in life. I was stuck in one place,
unable to break through the barriers created by my traumas. This state
caused me to unconsciously seek out negative situations and isolate
myself from others.

It became clear that all these self-imposed limitations originated from my

childhood traumas. As I watched that video, a door opened inside me. I
began to heal myself, understanding how I could rid myself of those
traumas.”

“As I started addressing these issues, I began to feel better. In particular,

my understanding of relationships, communication with people, and
handling negative emotions improved. This had a positive impact on my
studies and my social life. I started to actively engage in class, express
my thoughts openly, and participate in discussions without hesitation.
The things that used to make me anxious or frightened now seemed
insignificant. I developed better relationships with my classmates and
friends, no longer pushing people away. I stopped isolating myself and
began to open up emotionally.

My confidence grew as I continued to work through my childhood

trauma. I could see the difference in my day-to-day interactions, as I
became more self-aware and mindful of my emotions. I started setting
healthier boundaries in my relationships, understanding that my past
didn’t have to dictate my future.”

“Eventually, everything began to improve. I learned to set limits on my

stress and anxiety. I learned to communicate better with others and found
ways to handle my emotions more constructively. While I still faced
challenges, I knew how to manage them more effectively. I stopped
allowing negative thoughts to control my life. Instead, I developed coping
mechanisms that helped me stay grounded.

This journey of self-healing led me to understand that I had to let go of

the past in order to move forward. The more I explored my childhood
traumas, the more I realized that they weren’t as powerful as I once
thought. As I released them, my outlook on life became more positive. I
now understand that healing from emotional trauma is an ongoing
process, but one that brings freedom and growth. I’ve learned not to be
afraid of my emotions but to embrace them as part of my journey.”