i'm am in dark places

by SARN

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1.
sad 03:17
lower the flag half staff if you salute i’m gonna have to laugh threw my phone in the walmart trash apps been tracking all my tracks just death, porn, death left, where to eat, right, left is it just my feed? you seeing dead teens? i don’t really need no help i don’t really need no help i’m already fucked up all by myself as if I wasn’t sad... enough just death, porn, death...
2.
pulled up to the church in a clean white shirt waved hi to the pastor saw your mom, walked past her and i tripped on a pile of paperback bibles pierced my left eye on a rusted metal spike right thru my brain and out the other side it was raining my blood… the choir started singing as i lay there impaled and the children were laughing, and pointing and stomping in puddles of my blood… it was raining…
3.
Pillow 02:40
listen to the sound that your pillow makes as you’re laying still just barely breathing somewhere between a forest and the interstate a little static and your poor heart beating i know now that my love was not to scale and i swear to hell that i’ll try to treat you well but these are just words words are just words i don’t wanna be this way i don’t want you to think you’re to blame i can hardly look into your eyes fucked up, not the same i know now that my love was not to scale and i swear to hell that i’ll try to treat you well but these are just words words are just words
4.
reckless 03:06
i said i’d be home before you left for work said you’re worried, said i’ve been much worse i saw you driving off as i was running back reached the lawn, took off my shirt and collapsed dying inside but all i could do was laugh losing all sense of self-control, i’m sinking fast reckless, i’ve given up all hope, this phase would pass and i know this ends with more than just memory lapses i know the aftermath will be far from tragic please, despite what they may say, remember the way… please, despite what they may say, remember the way that i was… and we were… when i was ok. losing all sense of self-control, i’m in the spiral reckless, i’ve given up all hope, no more false denials i know this ends with more than just scars and scratches i know the aftermath will be far from tragic
5.
LITTY 04:25
6.
spending another night in the bathroom, yakking ripped the shower curtain, wrapped myself in plastic couldn’t sleep, couldn’t sleep just kept singing and repeating who’s a good boi? a good boi is me couldn’t sleep, couldn’t sleep just kept singing and singing who’s a good boi? a good boi is me dropped my contacts in the toilet and flushed it brushed my teeth with hemorrhoid ointment lick the sink, lick the sink just kept singing and singing who’s a good boi? a good boi is me couldn’t sleep, couldn’t sleep oh, let the sun rays in illuminate the dust warm my skin and if i make it i swear i’ll change
7.
DUMB 02:00
spent so long chasing dreams that were out of reach and unreal now that youth is gone we can see we were all so dumb and naive now i spend my days just fading away and i keep my thoughts inside no claims no shame no failures to hide i keep my thoughts inside
8.
freakin out 03:34
freakin out spazzing like a fish on the ground in a rented house roommate’s on the couch blastin jazz and it’s hella loud hella loud doctor x’d my meds bed bugs in my bed brain is feeling mushy like top ramen in my head i took 12 boner pills 22 hours ago don’t know why never had sex just wanna see it grow this is not myself i should seek some help freakin out spazzing like a fish on the ground in a rented house roommate’s on the couch blastin jazz and it’s hella loud hella loud this is not myself i should seek some help freakin out spazzing like a fish on the ground in a rented house roommate’s on the couch blastin jazz and it’s hella loud hella loud
9.
macXchz 03:26
tried sitting down but it didn’t help i tried making sense of what it meant but it didn’t help all your pictures have faded now all the cats have fleas and everything you left with me has gone to shit made myself lunch boxed mac and cheese burned the fucking house down didn’t even eat i tried driving around but it didn’t help tried making sense of what it meant but it didn’t help all your pictures have faded now and all the plants are diseased and everything you left with me has gone to shit
10.
driftin 02:44
driftin, weightless without worry extra in a movie, no one’s ever seen faithless, waste no prayers on me gave me more than i need more than i deserve one of these days i’ll have the guts to put the gun to my head friends who know me best know i’ll probably put the belt around my neck just like grandpa did pillowcase around his face, how could i forget? one of these days i’ll have the guts to put the gun to my head friends who know me best know i’ll probably put the knife into my chest just like Elliott will you miss me? we’ll see… driftin, weightless without worry driftin, weightless without worry faithless, waste no prayers on me

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After a slew of cassette and digital only releases for Deathbomb Arc, SARN finally delivers his wtf swan song 'i'm am in dark places', and as his first ever vinyl release! For an artist who revels in awkwardness, discomfort, and clashes between the delicate and the harsh, the idea of refining such work to perfection feels like the wrong language to describe any of his albums. Yet, here we are with the most perfected of SARN's indiscernible broken pop visions.

Vinyl presale: shop.deathbombarc.com/collections/frontpage/products/sarn-im-am-in-dark-places-12-vinyl

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released July 18, 2025

john vanderslice - mixer, producer, engineer, synths, friend

meric long - guitars, synths, engineer, friend

jason slota - drums, percussion, i hate him

recorded at tiny telephone oakland. mastered by bob weston at chicago mastering service.

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