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Nurul Fitrah understands that she cannot control other peoples actions, but she can control hers

She will keep her promises, even though other people give up or break theirs .

He knows, and He will lead

I have your face smiling at me in my mind
I have your name and words engraved in my heart
And I live on with just that

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and someday, everything will all make perfect sense.

Death

Im stunned, life is sooo short...

Each year that passes means a year less from our lifetime, it bringing us closer to our death, and with each passing year, each passing month, each passing day, each passing second, we are much more closer to that inevitable event. The day when we going to meet our Lord, the day that we will have to stand in front of Him and answers Him, to every action that we did.

How can we  make same mistake again and again?

Each time we said that we love God, we are lying, because we keep on doing the same mistake again and again. You wont want to hurt someone you love many times would you? we are all hypocrites..but because of His unconditional loves to us, despite of the things that we do, Allah says this in His love letters:

Say: "O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah. for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

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I used to uphold this principle ; " If you want to do something go ahead, but make sure that when God ask you why you did that, you have the answer for Him"

too bad, not following it now anymore shall stick to it back..

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This guy, he just passed away yesterday. I was so shocked when I woke up yesterday. He was a few years older than me. Read his blog when Kak Annur introduced it to me last year.

He was a medical doctor, suffered from cancer. Throughout his life, he was so determined, and never stop hoping in Allahs plans.

He left a legacy, a footprint in everyone's heart. His story was amazing and inspiring. We can say that he ended his life with husnul khatimah, insyaAllah..

His death reminded me of my cousin, he died when he was 23 years old, one year older than my age now.He was so young. I was in first year during that time. I was so shocked when I got the news. It takes time for me to get a grip, the impact was so big. When Mama died, I was well prepared of it, well at least after two death in a row, you'll get immune to death (although there are few things that I regretted).

So how long do we have before we died? we never knew. At least Mas Afzal, he knew that his time was short. My cousin, I believed that, the day before, he didn't know that he wont be able to taste another tomorrow.

I bet most of us are confidence that we will stay alive tomorrow, that's why we arrogantly keep on making mistakes today. May Allah have mercy on our souls.

to live well or  to live hell, we choose.. 

life is short, invest it wisely..

we cannot change our past, but we can change our present and future..

Tuesdays with Morrie #1 : living with deaths shadow

Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.

Accept the as past as past, without denying it or discarding it.

Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.

Don't assume that it's to late to get involved.

Rules

Rule #1: Do not love someone who doesn't love you

Rule #2: Do not waste energy on someone who doesn't really care for you

Rule #3: Choose wisely, ONLY let the correct person in.

Rule #4: Bear in mind that, everytime people made promises, there is 99% possibility that they will not be fulfilled.

Rule #5: Don't sacrifice yourself, neither you principal.

Rule #6: When making a decision, put what God favours in front

Rule #7: Bear in mind that every decisions that you make, will affect others. DON'T be selfish, add a bit of empathy.

Rule #8: Don't ever blame others for the decision that you made. Blame yourself, the decision maker.

Rule #9: We cannot control other peoples actions and thoughts, but we can control ours.

Rule #10: When giving, give the very best that you can give to others. expect less.

Rule #11: Keep your promises. Think of what will happen if you are in that person shoes. At least try to uphold it to the very best that you can.

Rule #12: Do not give false promises.

Rule #13:Treat people the way you want to be treated. Treat others the way they treated you. oh wait, actually both is applicable..at least now

owh! I cannot sleeppppppppppppppppppp

.

gave up.

I myself, can do nothing..

I have done all I can, now the ball is in your court

serve it, return it, play!

or

just stare at it, and do nothing. act as if you dont see the ball.

opt for the second choice arent you?

llalalaa~

Boys are stupid,
some men too,
throw rocks at them,
pots and pans too..

HAHAH..especially those joining that thing >.<

Saved a wretch like me

He picked me up when I fell down..

Allah engkau dekat penuh kasih sayang
Takkan pernah engkau biarkan hamba-Mu menangis
Karna kemurahan-Mu
Karna kasih sayang-Mu

Hanya bila diri-Mu
Ingin nyatakan cinta
Pada jiwa yang rela dia kekasih-Mu
Kau selalu terjaga yang memberi segala

Allah Rahman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi
Allah Rohman Allah Rahim
Allahu Ya Ghafar Ya Nurul Qolbi

Di setiap nafas di segala waktu
Semua bersujud memuji memuja asma-Mu
Kau yang selalu terjaga yang memberi segala

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Life is short, invest it wisely..another year, mean a step closer to death..Happy new year, acknowledge the passing time, and take time to reflect on ourselves..

clueless

both of you are living under each others shadows

and I feel insecure

whatever lah

Follow The Light

While watching Follow The Light yesterday:

Me: Can Jesus talk when he was a baby?

Nasha: No

Me: Owh, in our version, he can

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While Still in the Cradle

One of the miracles mentioned in the Quran, although not mentioned in the Bible, is that fact that Jesus, while still in the cradle, spoke out to protect his mother Mary from any accusations people may have placed on her due to having a child without a father. When she was approached about this strange incident after her childbirth, Mary merely pointed to Jesus, and he miraculously spoke, just as God had promised her upon annunciation.

"He shall speak to people while still in the cradle, and in manhood, and he shall be from the righteous." (Quran 3:46)

Jesus said to the people:
"I am indeed a slave of God. He has given me the Book and made me a Prophet, and He has made me blessed wherever I may be. And He has enjoined upon me prayers, and to pay the alms, as long as I live and (He has made me) kind to my mother, and He has not made me insolent, unblessed. And may Peace be upon me the day I was born, and the day I die, and on the Day I shall be raised to life." (Quran 19:30-33)

Source: Read the comment below

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A beautiful story once told about a girl name Mary ( Maryam)

In the play, Juwita Suwito acts as The Virgin Mary..in fact it is quite similar to what the Quran says, but I don't think Mary in the Quran,was married to a guy name Joseph :s

Prophet Muhammad named Mary as the best women who ever lived;

"The best women of the world are four: Mary the daughter of Heli, Aasiyah the wife of Pharaoh, Khadeejah bint Khuwaylid (The wife of the Prophet Muhammad), and Fatimah, the daughter of the Muhammad, the Messenger of God." (Al-Tirmidhi)

Her Birth

When the wife of Imran said:

"O my Lord! I have vowed to You what is in my womb [my child] to be dedicated to Your services, so accept this [my vow] from me. Verily, All-Hearer, the All-Knowing."

Then when she delivered her she said:

"O my Lord! I have delivered a female child' - and Allah knew better what she delivered - 'And the male is not like the female, and I have named her Maryam and I seek refuge with You for her and for her offspring from Satan, the outcast. " (Quran 3:35-36)

The wife of Imran, and mother of Mary, out of her devotion to God vowed to dedicate the child in her womb to the sacred service of God and asked God to accept her vow. Her hopes were in a male child who will be brought up to service the places of worship and be dedicated to serve God. Delivering a female child, she realized that things did not go according to her plan, but decided to fulfill her vow, and Maryam was the name of the child. And she made a prayer for her newly born asking God to protect her and her offspring from Satan. The verses following described the response of God to the vow and to the prayer of the mother:

"So her Lord accepted her [Maryam] with good acceptance." (Quran 3:37).

Her Upbringing

Quran verses 3:37 continue;

"So her Lord accepted her with good acceptance. He made her grow in a good manner and put her under the care of Zachariya. Every time he entered Al-Mihrab (the praying place) to visit her, he found her supplied with sustenance [food]. He said:

'O Maryam! From where have you got this?' She said:
'This is from Allah. Verily, Allah provides sustenance who He wills, without limit.' "

So Mary was accepted by God, and was brought up in a good manner after she was put under the care of Zachary. Through her devotion and righteous upbringing and the prayer from her mother, Mary became the best woman to ever live as depicted in the Quran in the verses 3:42:

"And (remember) when the angels said: 'O Maryam (Mary)! Verily, Allah (God) has chosen you, purified you (from polytheism and disbelief), and chosen you above the women of the world (of her lifetime).' "

Mary Receives a Visit

In the19th chapter of the Quran (which is called Maryam) Mary receives a visitor from God:

"And mention in the Book, Maryam [i.e. mention, O Mohammed, in the Quran the story of Mary], when she withdrew from her family to a place facing east. She placed a screen from them; then We sent to her our angel (Jibrael, or Gabriel), and he appeared before her in the form of a man in full human form. She said:

'I seek refuge with The Most Beneficent [God] from you, if you do fear Him.' (The angel) said:

'I am only a Messenger from your Lord, (to announce) to you the gift of a righteous son.' She said:

'How can I have a son, when no man has touched me, nor am I unchaste?' He (the angel) said:

'So (it will be), your Lord said: 'That is easy for Me: And to appoint him as a sign to mankind and a mercy from Us (from God)', and it is a matter (already) decreed (by God).' " (Quran 19:16-21)

In these verses, it is described how the pious virgin Mary is visited by angel Gabriel, who appears before her in a form of a man. Not knowing who he is, she fears for herself, but he asserts to her that he is an angel, a Messenger from her Lord, and announces to her news of her miraculous conception of a son. In shock, she questions, affirming her chastity. The angel answers that such a conception, though miraculous, is easy for The Lord, all He needs to say is "Be." and it is. And that these are matters decreed by Him, for greater purposes and to the benefit of mankind.

The Miracle

And then, miraculously, Mary becomes pregnant. The emotional story of her pregnancy follows:

"So she conceived him, and she withdrew with him to a far place . And the pains of childbirth drove her to the trunk of a date-palm. She said:

'Would that I had died before this, and had been forgotten and out of sight!' Then a call unto her from bellow, said:

'Grieve not! Your Lord has provided a water stream under you; And shake the trunk of the date-palm towards you, it will let fall fresh ripe dates upon you. So eat and drink and be glad, and if you see any human being, say:

'Verily! I have vowed a fast unto the Most Beneficent so I shall not speak to any human being this day.' " (Quran 19:22-26)

From these versus one mentally pictures Mary, driven out of town, out of sight to Bethlehem valley 4-6 miles from Jerusalem, in the pain of labor, and in fear of what is going to happen to her. It is her first child, she has no husband. What will her people, the Jews, say? What will they do? How will she react? With all that, she wishes that she was dead, but the God who gave her the miracle, the God to Whom she worshipped, to Whom she devoted her life, did not forsake her. A voice came from beneath her, soothing and comforting her, and guiding her. And when she gave birth, the voice instructed her not to speak or explain, but make a vow of silence and everything will workout.

"Then she brought him (the baby) to her people, carrying him. They said:

'O Maryam! Indeed you have brought a thing which is greatly evil! O sister of Haron (i.e. O you who we consider the like of Haron, who was a pious man at the time of Mary)! Your father was not a bad man (adulterous), nor was your mother an unchaste woman.' Then she pointed to him (to the baby). They said:

'How can we talk to one who is a child, in the cradle?' " (Quran 19:27-29)

Mary gives birth to the child, and takes him back to her village. And there Mary meets the Jews. Upon seeing her with her baby, they are struck. In their eyes, she has done a heinous crime. Their argument was: 'How could you do something so evil! We always considered you a model person of piety, and you come from a pious family -- known and respected!'. But Mary obeys the commands of her Lord. She is quiet and points to the baby.

Source

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The musical was good and I enjoyed it.You should go watch it too!

Separuh jiwaku pergi

 

I like this part :) 

"Benar ku mencintaimu
Tapi tak begini
Kau khianati hati ini
Kau curangi aku"

cause you can really feel the pain that he is dealing with. hehe.

This song was wrote to KD after she dump Anang the husband for another guy. Anyway there always two sides of story..and this is his.

I think KD also wrote a song as a reply to this one, not sure which song, will try to search for it :P

 

Betrayed

Concealing truth is a lie

 

Half truth is a lie

 

One lie will lead to another lies

 

You will keep on telling lies once you started lying

 

and thats what you did and do

 

What secrets are you trying to hide anyway?

 

Thats why I dont give a damn to believe what you said anymore

 

Yes, you dont worth my trust anymore

 

I trusted you

but I cannot blame you, can I?

as you already told me that you are hopeless, and a bad person

so who should i blame then?

maybe myself

 

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One thing that you should know is, everytime you tell lies, i will know the other side of the story  :) and when i keep quite, dont mean, i dont know anything, i just want to see how u act. Im quite impressive, you are really good in it :) Congrats

 

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I was wrong, I thought you deserve a chance, but too bad you like  to screw things when people give you a chance.

 

anyway all the best in life!

 

I  hope to see you change, I really do