Proving ourselves..

wow! today had so much fun! the sun..the volleyball and i'm so upset that why wheelchair n coaches were not available when i was learning how to blade when i was little!! hahah...it was so windy when Clare n Nia pushed me up n down East coast park and all i did was to OOOooogle at GIRLS in their white singlets n little cute hot shorts.the place where Clare learnt blading was way cool..cos it's like a check point,all the girls that goes in one direction usually u-turn not too long later and go the opposite direction so i was looking at girls from their back..then check them out again when they return,blading,jogging or cycling. B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L. hey i'm just a normal guy homosapian.then i love volleyball too cos i got to play n wheel a lot. you dun see such an active wheelchair hunk at ECP everyday right? hehe. dinner at Changi village n ice cream at swenson orchard was wonderful,GREAT!! today's the furthest i went every since the crash, and i went Orchard finally! haha...wat more can i ask for? great food,great fun, great day, great activities and great company!!! hahah today's activities,esp looking at girls part, is really good. see it from my perspective(on the wheel chair) is really on a different 'level'.WAHAHAHAHA

anyways other than these fun,there's 2 interesting things that 's on my mind too.. they're linked. One is that today when playing volleyball, and on other occasions before, i find that people are very careful with me,sometimes TOO careful. today cos Zhen was too careful with me...your action suddenly becomes very foreign and unpredictable to me! ha maybe we've played together for so many years.

and maybe i dun like to be too dependent on others.

when driving back i didnt get Zenia's direction when heading home,and something that i dun liked happen-hestitation and confusion on the driver, it's dangerous on the road( I KNOW that,broken bones and all is what i paid: ) i was feeling really ok when Clare started telling me 'eh relax lah, relax lah'. it was then i realised maybe others feel that i'm angry or wat. haiz i thought it was nothing until Clare said 'relax'. i would like to say tat was being 'overcareful' because of our long years of friendship! haha. people are as if suddenly reminded to be sensitive by the 'relax'. then it struck me, that's one of my greatest flaws..and it comes from the fact tat i might be trying to prove something. Everybody is trying to prove something of themselves everyday. That is simply because we're trying to defend what we based our pride ,ego, confidence, values upon. i was trying to prove to others that i'm still the same old independent and strong Yongquan. and maybe i'm writing this post to prove something too?

we're all trying to prove something. that we're not weak. that we're not incompetent. that we're fun and funky to be with. that we're strong and witty. that we're complete and happy people. but why must we always win in everything? what's wrong with being seen at weak, or by being last in a race, if we've tried our best? at least we can answer to ourselves.

i'm writing this down here to remind myself. i wanted to write in down in my dairy but i chose to write it here...as i wish that some of us here in GPU could read it, and feel something, remember this feeling and do things according to what your heart tells you to.


that,will be the greatest result from today's outing


thanks everyone,esp Zhen for organising

The Enneagram Test

Do a simple google for Enneagram and attempt a few more free test sites to verify/confirm your Type. Perhaps we can share which types we are. heh. The link above includes the variant wing too.

Another waste-time thing to do.