
This is what I'm having for dinner tonight. Cause it's my Birthday Eve.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I hope it's a good day. Last year I turned 30- it was the worst birthday of my LIFE. I already didn't want to turn 30...but I was also pregnant, emotional (a little down all week) and I didn't want to plan anything for my birthday. But I wanted it to be made into a big deal (as always- I was raised that way) but Samuel was not...this means my birthday is never quite how I pictured it in my head.
I asked Samuel (repeatedly) to plan the day, but he didn't. He thought I would do what I do many other years, and plan my own day, and just tell him what to do. It ended up being a day where everything went wrong, I went to lunch ALONE, okay, that's not accurate, with
Kalia, who cried most of the time because I accidentally slammed her finger in the car door. And okay, I did get a pedicure, but they couldn't fit me in earlier in the day, in fact I basically had to beg for an appointment (I had a gift certificate) and by the time I was done, it was a little too late to go to dinner or a movie, so I just stayed home and I'm pretty sure I cried, until Samuel finally asked what else he was supposed to do, and I told him to go get me a DANG CAKE! (I don't like cake that much, but I wanted to blow out some candles, or have the girls sing to me, or something, gosh darn it! My kids didn't even know it was my birthday for crying out loud.) I did get my cake at about 10:30 p.m., also about the time I got a voicemail from my mom telling me that she had been thinking about me all day, but hadn't had time to call, what with the party they were at and everything. I purposely didn't answer because I was mad that she let the whole day go by. Plus, I have always felt like my birthday was a bit of an "inconvenience"-- being so close to Christmas and all. I know I can't complain, because some of my friends have birthdays on Christmas Eve or even Christmas Day. That has to be worse, no doubt. But still. I want my own day, ya know?
Yeah. Turning 30 was awful. It was 95% my fault. My husband is awesome and sweet and thoughtful. He was so confused by my behavior last year.
I am determined that this birthday is going to be better. Luckily, I WAS in the mood to plan my whole day. And luckily, I also have made some friends in my new ward this year, so I don't have to feel like such a loser! :D I also plan on getting gourmet cupcakes, ice cream at a specialty ice cream shop, and eating at LEAST two meals out. One of them with friends, and one with my eternal companion. We are also going to go to the temple, because I had the thought to go on my b-day last year, and I didn't. And now I wonder if that would have made my day any better.
Oh, and I repeatedly reminded Kalia and Annie that it was my birthday. They even started telling the neighbors. Niiiiiiiice.
Perhaps best of all, Samuel surprised me with my very own piano. It's a gem.

It came all the way from Ireland, stayed in Scottsdale for awhile, and he found a great deal on Ebay classifieds, although he refuses to tell me what he paid. Look at how the top opens up like a faux-grand-piano? So RAD! I am so excited. We have to get it tuned, but that's okay.
So here's to turning 31. I can already tell you that it's going to be a whole lot easier than turning 30!!! Woot woot!

This picture...oh...what can I say. I was trying on this shirt to see how the color looked on me. Samuel was snapping pictures and egging me on like I was modeling. So I was pretending to model. I was trying to "Smize"- can'tcha tell???
hahahaha.