This Guy!!
I think I have officially found a birthday I get more excited about than my own! (and that is saying A LOT!!) I keep typing words and deleting them, I can't quite get out what I am feeling so I will just do my best! I found myself wanting to make his day really special! However, Steve-o and I have a bit of a different philosophy on birthdays. He is sort of a low key, have a little cake, maybe go to dinner and a nice gift, type of guy. I am a go all out, every meal is YOUR special bday meal, surprises around every corner, balloons, banners, lots of presents, cake (maybe even multiple cakes) and every one MUST have a new birthday outfit to wear on their birthday, type of person! So as the little bug's b-day approached we tried to come to a compromise on what we should do. But as the day came I found myself getting a little worked up over the details, I forgot to do this, or I need to get some of this, and one of these!! As I was out shopping for some of these "details" after a few "compromising" discussions with Steve I found my self near tears. As I got to thinking about it I realized I just
wanted things to be perfect so as to reflect my feelings for this little guy but, I may have been going about it the wrong way! I realized I needed to let go of the Idea I had in my head of what I wanted for HIS birthday. And just enjoy the day and the time I had to spend with my family. My life has changed SO much in the last year, sometimes I don't even recognize myself (only sometimes though!) I never would have thought I would fall SO head over heels in love with a bald, big headed, blued eyed, little guy!!:) I feel like I am so lucky to have the opportunity to be Hayden's mom. Obviously I could go on forever on why he is so great (as all mom's could I am sure!) but that is not the point I am trying to get at here! I guess what I am trying to get at here in my rambling is that sometimes I so easily can find the things in my life I don't have or wish I could have...but this week I have felt so lucky and blessed to have Hayden in my life! He has changed both Steve and I so completely! He has helped us both find motivation to complete goals, and work harder! Now I may not have found my perfect "Charlie Brown themed" party I had imagined, but I think I may have found my "perfect little Charlie Brown!" (I think Hayd looks a bit like charlie brown! come on the big, bald heads! they could be brothers! :) Now I am not saying my life or my family are perfect!! Cause we ALL know that's not true! But I think they are perfect for ME! (there is a difference!) I am glad for birthdays! They let us celebrate the ones we love! And remind me of how lucky I am to get to spend another year with someone I love, you just never know how much time you may have!! (sorry if this is confusing! It is late!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATER!!! LOVE!!
(party pic's to come later!)
now as a side note..let the count down begin 7 days until the MAIN EVENT..
my BIRTHDAY! :)