Cold Here and is to Get Much Colder....

                                          Hello Viewers.... from Marshville....(NC)
 

                                                          Very Cold....
              
                                 Still feeling very "low"... sorry about that....
  on the "bright side"... the Jacket for my Joker figure arrived.... now to change out outfits....

                               

Will use the shirt and vest from another figure ... (the "real" ones from "Hot Toys" sell for the "shirt" $ 40.00+ and the vest around $40.00 ... if you can find them)... cannot afford this figure... so am building my own using (mostly) the original parts...

Cold and "dreary" outside.... rather cold in this one room ... anywhere (more than a foot from the small heater... even right up beside of the unit, the air is "icy"... will wrap a blanket around myself shortly.... Sorry that I allowed the "things" of ths little Town to "get to me"...

Last road on the right out Elm St.just before you reach the cemetery on the hill heading towards New Salem....
                               ... several possible "Horror movie" titles from that address...
                 
the "Chill of Winter".... will be getting much colder for about a week (at least) ... will have to bring in "Casper" (my Dog)... He has never had a Bath...(this is going to be "fun")... and was "traumatized" as a pup by being locked in a bathroom all day ... so he may not take to well to bathing.... but he does "Smell"... and will have to block off Kitchen (way Too "toxic" from all of the bug poisons)... )

He does enjoy being inside the house...

 Sister will be by later to run to town for my... will have her pick up some ("raw-hide") chew-toys for him as well ( and maybe some "doggie-snacks" (if not much $$)....

                                                        So....Sing along , Kiddies....
                             So .... trying to look on the "Bright Side" of "Things"....
 and my Sister got me some Drapes... turned out to be too small for the window,... but, will work well for the kitchen doorway... (help to keep in the heat better)...

            

                              Was just playing this "character" at Spore, for the time...
                   
Well back off to "escape" from my troubles as I make my last pot of Coffee..(till late this afternoon)

Still Here... Be Back in a bit....

                                           It will take a bit more (worse) to keep us down....
              
                feeling better this evening... going to run a bit of sims... then will do some posts....
                                                  Depression still very bad...

                                     Nothing like the Joker to give me a "Smile"....

                 Remember that Everyone that you "despise" will one day Die.. So, "Smile".....

Stacey May be Doing very "Poorly"...

                                But as the old saying goes... The Show Must Go On"....

                      From the same one who gave us "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life"....

                   and going back to posting regularly (whether or Not we feel like it)....

hello and a Nice Thursday to You..

We have so few people that we would think of as as a "friend"....  that is why this one's statements "Hurt" so much.... the rest of this town ... we have gotten to where we just no longer "care" just what terrible things that they say about me... ( But we really despise a "Two-Faced "Traitor"...!!!!!!!!)

 
                  But to "smile" to my face and then turn around and just "talk Crap" about me to others
                      
we will have to think of a way to "repay" him when he is Not at Home ( that is the home of some old Friends... at least we guess they are still Stacey's Friend)....

about to sever most All "ties" with other Humans.... (we will miss their dogs)... and a begin "plotting" just How to properly "Thank them All for their past "misdeeds" done unto Stacey....

So for Now, .... Trying to NOT "Think" very much... it tends to cause us much grief.... and my existence is miserable enough as is....
              
                 Sorry but this time around it has Really "Hurt" me.... unsure of what to do...

                    or as Mr. Sweeney Tod would say "Never Forget... Never Forgive"....
        Think that we have "overlooked "Wrongs" and been Way Too"Forgiving" in the past...

                                            To quote Poe's "Raven"......Nevermore"....

Well It is Tuesday Again....

                  
                                                Hope that you good folks are well....
                                
Sorry for not posting as often of late.... this heat (and humidity) greatly limit my ability to do anything...  anything that requires more than a minute or two of "Activity" greatly reduces my ability to breath.... and thus the oxygen getting to my brain rapidly decreases... we quickly become light-headed and somewhat "dizzy".... (this leads to more falls .... as bad coughing fits can out-right drop me ... so I try not to stand ( even while holding onto something for support)... all very "embarrassing" in a public place with people watching me... few ever even offer to help me off of the floor..... (A sad fact about the human race)...... (maybe they All do deserve to just be Dead....)

and should someone drop by for a visit.. we try to "act" Cheerful and show no signs that there is anything "wrong"... most have begun to see through this "act"....
.. Though they would like to help me ( saddens them to see Stacey like this)... there is little or nothing that they can do.... often becoming "frustrated" and telling me things like "I'm through trying to help you".... "You're Not even trying"  (even if I am giving it all I have got and continue to "Try" till we just collapse....)
                
    Health issues aside,... it is the very deep depression that gets to us the worst.....
would do just about anything to give myself a "Smile" .... of even a small laugh....
Rather that sit here and "dwell" upon things.... we would crawl off into very long games of "Spore"...(for now we just have my broken, pieced together Sims2)... Well, it has taken a Lot of work and Many hours.... to even have that much of my Sims world....
                   
We did Not post this for your "Pity" or for any "sympathy"... just letting you viewers know the reason for the dropping off of the number of Posts.... in the meantime, we will continue to "put on an Act" when dealing with others....... Wishing you all a great evening....

May Fix a Pot of Coffee...

                
                                    found out that the "problem" was not the nerve Meds...
Mostly just a very deep "Depression".... and did Not even recognize it for that until today...
this feeling really "down" usually passes in just a day or two... this time around it has had me for over a week now... you can only do so much to conceal the way that you are "feeling" for a short while as its severity grows.... to the point now that we will not even acknowledge that there is anything "wrong" to others.... we simply try to put on a "happy face" and try to act "cheerful".....
                       
           one piece of "good" news.... we may have back my "Spore" game after the weekend...!!!
My Friend took me to Alex's house.... and in a round about way , "Intimidated" him into going to "help" Stacey... we were "Desperate".... and he even offered to pay him a bit.... when being "Nice" get no "results"...harsher measures are called for... if you wish success...

Sorry Folks .... We are Not at Our Best...

              
            Most of what has us so "down" are things that we can do NOTHING about.....
                             Here in this little spot of HELL... (Corrupt Bastards)...

                        sitting in my corner alone, deeply depressed and rather cold....

We are Mentally Exhausted...

 
                             We let our "mental issues" get to us early this morning...
even though we studied (hundreds of books on Psychology...Totally "disagree" with the teachings of Jung...!!!) we have tried to learn ways to "help" ourself overcome these "attacks"... (Anything,... even if it it only helps a small bit)... as well as trying to get a much better understanding of why Stacey is Not "normal"... we try so hard ... and just really want to "give up"...
               
               The views of poor Sir Dex's home... brought back our PTSD full force...
                                     For now,  just trying to be "functional"....
just trying to gather up the "will" to keep going.... and Never tell someone in this "shape" to "just get over it".... those words really "Hurt", try as we may we cannot "just get over it"... really makes us feel useless...
                                    we all have our "scars" just some are deep inside of us....
                           All in all, sorry for our "comments" this morning... we were "weak....

More Holiday Horrors....

              
This Christmas while many of us are opening our presents... some of those , without "hope" are opening their wrists... Depression can be really bad upon some of us ... remember your "Friends" and some of those with little or No "social Contact" could really use an "acknowledgement" That "someone" actually "cares" this time of the year.... Otherwise.....

 

Depression during the Holidays

 

 

Sorry Folks,..... Depression Has the Best of Us for Now...

           
.... Being "Manic Depressive" really sucks... we know that "happiness" is Not something that is a part of my life.... the best that we can hope for a lesser degree of "misery" from time to time...
                             ... Today is much worse on us than usual...

                                  Just sitting here having a cup of coffee....
           Played a bit of Sims... but, soon lost interest in the game ( odd for us)....
                 Thought that we might could find a song to help lift our spirits....

              One that we would often listen to as a child when we were feeling down....

               "Shadows of the Night" ("Quentin's Theme") from the old Dark Shadows....
                     
Quentin is right .... often a bit of music can take you "somewhere" else other than where you are at present....  Music can even help to take your mind off of "other things" as well...

                                                      ... And this bit by Vern Langdon
                                             Both something that we listened to as a kid...
      Music can also be "Humor" ... and may even give you something about which to "Smile"...

                                           We used to get a laugh from this tune.....

                       And a special tune for my late Mom... she loved Johnny Cash....

Hello and a Pleasant Friday to You.....

We were able to get about 6 hours of rest...( better than usual).... just got up anf fixed a pot of coffee... (brain will take a bit to full awaken),.... Thus the "Misery" will not really set in until a bit later.....
... so posting while brain is still some-what "groggy"... Later the depression will have set in ....
later we will tell you good viewers some of "what" set off this terrible "Misery"....
eyes are beginning to "water" so before vision gets too "blurry" let us see "what" we can post....

We will most likely crawl off into Spore or Sims2 soon to give my mind something other to think on....for a bit over a month now, the "voices" have been very "quiet"....so we are truly "alone" most of the time these last few weeks...
 Yes things are "bad" for Stacey and will only worsen... but trying Not to think on that for now..

                                 ..... Well, Enough "Depressing Crap" for now ......
We do Not wish to make any of you feel badly... so let us be more "upbeat" (for now) before our brain figures out what I am doing..... it has a way of "shooting down" Any "pleasant" thoughts that we may have..... Try Not to let the lesser things "get to you"... there are Always much worse things waiting to befall us....and trying Not to care about your problems at all... can have some really Bad effects... you can even become completely "cold and uncaring over Everything.. basically "Dead inside".... cherish what you have... for Nothing lasts forever....

The Sesame Street gang is preparing for Thanksgiving next Thursday... And even Big Bird is "helping out"....

                                    We hope that you folks had a good lunch....
                        Just a few images to try and at least get a "Smile" out of Stacey....
                                                      How About a song.....

                             And try to think of something about which to "Smile".....