Evelyn220's Reviews > These Monstrous Deeds

5⭐️ Most intensely emotional book I’ve ever read.
The intensity just never lets up and I lost count of how many times I cried. The author just whips you back and forth between anxiety, revulsion, and sweet tenderness and hot lust. I don’t know how she managed to make such a dark story sweetly romantic but she succeeded.
It’s genius how she slowly warms you up to the depravity so that you don’t even realize you’re in a vat of boiling hot brutality… but cannot stop reading.

Carter is a 22 yr old student, kidnapped and sold into sex slavery by a sadistic group of human traffickers.

Nathan is a major kingpin in the sex slave trade. But he’s also an undercover agent for an elite government agency trying to dismantle the trade! And Carter just happens to be another agent’s little brother. He has no choice but to buy Carter as his personal sex slave in order to save him, but he has to make it look realistic— public rape, degradation, torture, and domination for weeks/months on end and Carter cannot know who he truly is. And OMG, Nathan LOATHES himself for it. Nathan, a sweet man at his core, has made himself into a monster and you truly feel for him.

The story is told in dual POV so you get both sides of these broken, traumatized men.
As difficult as this was to read, it was expertly written and I absolutely loved it. A top read of the year for sure.
It ends in a cliffhanger and I am jumping into book 2 immediately.


“This is the confusing man who buys sex slaves but treats them kindly. This is the sad boy so starved for touch he just might beg the man for more of it.”

“Dipping sauce? Did his rapist just ask him if he’d like dipping sauce with his chicken nuggets from fucking McDonalds?”

“When is a monster not a monster?
Oh, when you love it.”