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1. Lately, my strength seems to be

of me, even in the morning.
draining out 15. Things that are going well today won't last
2. Ithink highly of rules because they are a very long.
good 16. Iam a verý agreeable and submissive person.
guide to follow.
17. As a teenager, Igot into lots of trouble
3. Ienjoy doing so many different things that I
because of bad school behavior.
can't make up my mind what to do first.
18. I'm afraid to get really close to another
4. Ifeel weak and tired much of the time. person
because it may end up with my being
5. Iknow I'm a superior person, soI
don't care ridiculed or shamed.
what people think. 19. I seem to choose friends who end up
6. People have never given me enough
mistreating me.
recognition for the things I've done. 20. I've had sad thoughts much of my life since I
7. If my family puts pressure on me, I'm
likely was a child.
to feel angry and resist doing what they 21. Ilike to flirt with members of the
want.
8. People make fun of me behind my back, sex.
opposite
talking about the way I act or look. 22. I'm a very erratic person, changing my
9. Ioften criticize people strongly if they annoy mind
and feelings all the time.
me
23. Drinking alcohol has never
10. What few feelings I seem to have I rarely caused me any
real problems in my work.
show to the outside world. 24. Ibegan to feel like a failure
11. Ihave a hard time keeping my balance when some years ago.
25. Ifeel guilty much of the time for no
walking. that I know.
reason
12. Ishow my feelings easily and quickly. 26. Other people envy my abilities.
13. My drug habits have often gotten me into a 27. When Ihave a choice, I prefer to do
gooddeal of trouble in the past. things
alone.
14. Sometimes Ican be pretty rough and mean in 28. I think it's necessary to place
strict
the behavior of members.of my controls
my relations with my family. on
family.

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29. People usually think of me as a rescrved and 51. When things get boring, Ilike to stir up
some
serious-minded person. excitement.
30. Lately, Ihave begun to feel like smashing 52. Ihave an alcohol problem that has made
things. difficulties for me and my family.
31. I think I'm a special person who deserves 53. Punishment never stoppcd me from doing
special attention from others. what Iwanted.
32. Iam always looking to make new friends and 54. There are many times, when for no
rcason, I
meet new people. feel very cheerful and full of
excitement.
33. If someone criticized me for making a 55. In recent weeks I feel worn out for no
special
mistake, I would quickly point out some of reason.

that person's mistakes. 56. For some time now Ive been feeling
very
34. Lately, Ihave gone all to pieces. guilty because Ican't do things right anymore.
35. I often give up doing things because I'm 57. I think I am a very sociable and outgoing
afraid I won't do them well. person.
36. Ioftén let my angry feelings out and then feel 58. I've become very jumpy in the last few weeks.
terribly guilty about it. 59. Ikeep very close track of my money so I am
37. Ivery often lose my ability to feel any prepared if a need comes up.
sensations in parts of my body. 60. Ijust haven't had the luck in life that others
38. Ido what I want without worrying about its have had.
effect on others. 61. Ideas keep turning over and over in my mind
39. Taking so-called illegal drugs may be unwise, and they won't go away.
but in the past I found I needed them. 62. I've become quite discouraged and sad about
40. Iguess I'm a fearful and inhibited person. life in the past year or two.
41. I've done a number of stupid things on 63. Many people have been spying into my private
impulse that ended up causing me great life for years.
trouble. 64. Idon't know why, but: I sometimes say cruel
42. I never forgive an insult or forget an things just to make others unhappy.
embarrassment that someone caused me. 65. Iflew across the Atlantic 30times last year.
43. Ioften feel sad or tense right after something 66. My habit of abusing drugs has caused me to
good has happened to me. miss work in the past.
44. Ifeel terribly depressed and sad much of the 67. I have many ideas that are ahead of the times.
time now.
68. Lately, I have to think things over and over
45. Ialways try hard to please others,even when I again for no good reason.
dislike them.
69. Iavoid most social situations because Iexpect
46. I've always had less interest in sex than most people to criticize or reject me.
people do. 70. Ioften think that I don't deserve the good
47. Itend to always blame myself when .things go things that happen to me.
wrong. 71. When I'm alone, I often feel the strong
48. A long time ago, I decided it's best to have presence of someone nearby who can't be
little to do with people. seen.

49. Since I was a child, Ihave always had to 72. Ifeel pretty aimless and don't know where
watch out for people who were trying to cheat I'm going in life.
me.
73. Ioften allow others to make important
50. Istrongly resent "big shots who always think decisions for me.
they can do things better than Ican.
74. Ican't seem to sleep, and wake up just as tired
as when Iwent to bed.
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75. Lately, I've been sweating a great deal and 98. My feclings toward important people in my
feel very tense. life often swing from loving them to hating
|19. Peop
76. Ikecp having strange thoughts that I wish I them. Craz
could get rid of. 99. In social groups I am almost always very self
120. I'11
77. Ihave a great deal of trouble trying to control conscious and tense.
pers
an impulse to drink to excess. 100. I guess I'm no different from my parents in 121. I g
78. Even when I'm awake, I don't seem to notice becoming somewhat of an alcoholic. we
people who are near me. 101. Iguess Idon't take many of my family 122. Is.
79. Ianm often cross and grouchy. responsibilities as seriously as I should. th
80. It is very easy for me to make many friends. 102. Ever since Iwas a child, I have been losing 123. I
81. I'm ashamed of some of the abuses I suffered touch with the real world.
when Iwas young. 103. Sneaky people often try to get the credit for 124.
82. Ialways make sure that my work is well things I have done or thought of.
planned and organized. 104. I can't experience much pleasure because I 125
83. My moods seem to change a great deal from don't feel Ideserve it.
one day to the next. 105. I have little desire for close friendships.
84. I'm too unsure of myself to risk trying 106. I've had many periods in my life whenI was 126.
something new. so cheerful and used up so much energy that I
85. Idon't blame anyone who takes advantage of fell into a lowmood. 127
someone who allows it. 107. Ihave completely lost my appetite and have
86. For some time now I've been feeling sad and trouble sleeping most nights. 12
blue and can't seem to snap out of it. 108. I worry a great deal about being left alone and
87. Ioften get angry with people who do things having to take care of myself.
slowly. 109. The memory of a very upsetting experience in
88. Inever sit on the sidelines when I'm at a my past keeps coming back to haunt my
party. thoughts.
89. Iwatch my family closely so I'll know who 110. Iwas on the front cover of several
magazines
can and who can't be trusted. last year.
90. Isometimes get confused and feel upset when 111. Iseem to have lost interest in most things that
people are kind to me. I used to find pleasurable, such as sex.
91. My use of so-called illegal drugs has led to 112. Ihave been downhearted and sad much of my
family arguments. life since Iwas quite young.
92. I'm alone most of the time and I prefer it that 113. I've gotten into trouble with the law a couple
way. of times.
93. There are members of my family who say I'm 114. A good way to avoid mistakes is to have a
selfish and think only of myself. routine for doing things.
94. People can easily change my ideas, even ifI 115. Other people often blame me for things I
thought my mind was made up. didn't do.
95. Ioften make people angry by bossing them. 116. Ihave had to be really rough with some
96. People have said in the past that I became t00 people to keep them in line.
interested and too excited about too many 117. People think I sometimes talk
about strange or
things. different things than they do.
97. Ibelieve in the saying, "early to bed and early 118. There have been times when I
to rise...! couldn't get
through the day without some street drugs.

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119. People are trying to make me believe that
1'm 142. Ifrequently feel"there 's nothing inside me,
crazy.
like I'm empty and hollow.
120. Illdo something desperate to prevent a 143. Isometimes force myself to vomit after
person I love from abandoning me. eating.
121. Igo on eating binges a couple of times a 144. Iguess Igo out of my way to encourage
week. people to admire the things Isay or do.
122. Iseem to make a mess of good opportunities 145. Ispend my life worrying over one thing or
another.
that come my way.
123. I've always had a hard time stopping myself 146. Ialways wonder what the real reason is when
from feeling blue and unhappy. someone is acting especially nice to me.
124. When I'm alone and away from home, I often 147. There are certain thoughts that keep coming
begin to feel tense and panicky. back again and again in my mind.
125. People sometimes get annoyed with me 148. Few things in lifegive me pleasure.
because they say I talk too much or too fast 149. Ifeel shaky and have difficulty falling asleep
for them. because painful memories of a past event keep
126. Most successful people today have been either running through my mind.
lucky or dishonest. 150. Looking ahead as each day begins makes me
127. Iwon't get involved with people unless I'm feel terribly depressed.
sure they'1 like me. 151. I've never been able toshake the feeling that
128. Ifeel deeply depressed for no reason I can I'm worthless to others.
figure out. 152. Ihave a drinking problem that I've tried
129. Years later Istill have nightmares about an unsuccessfully to end.
event that was a real threat to my life. 153. Someone has been trying to control my mind.
130. Idon't have the energy to concentrate on ny 154. Ihave tried to commit suicide.
everyday responsibilities anymore. 155. I'm willing to starve myself to be even thinner
i31. Drinking alcohol helps when I'm feeling than I am.
down.
156. Idon't understand why some people smile at
132. Ihate to think about some of the ways I was Ime.
abused as a child.
157. Ihave not seen a car in the last ten years.
133. Even in good times, I've always been afraid 158. I get very tense with people I don't know well
that things wouldsoon go bad. because they may want to harm me.
134. Isometimes feel crazy-like orunreal when 159. Someone would have to be pretty'exceptional
things start to go badly in my life. to understand my special abilities.
135. Being alone, without the help of someone 160. My current life is still upset by flashbacks of
close to depend on, really frightens me. something terrible that happened to me.
136. Iknow I've spent more money than Ishould 161. Isçem to create situations with others in
buying illegal drugs. which Igethurt or feel rejected.
137. Ialways see to it that my work is finished 162. Ioften get ost in my thoughts and forget
before taking time out for leisure activities. what's going on around me.
138. I can tell that people are talking about me 163. People say I'mathin person, but I feel that
when Ipass by them. my thighs and backside are much too big.
139. I'm very good at making up excuses when I
164. There are terrible events from my past that
get into trouble. come back repeatedly to haunt my thoughts
140. I believe I'm being plotted against. and dreams.
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165. Other than my family, I have no close fricnds. 171. Thave given serious thought recently to doing
166. I actquickly much of the time and don't think away with myself.
things through as Ishould. 172. Peopletell me that I'm a very proper and
167. Itake great care to keep my Jife aprivate moral person.
matter so no one can take advantage of me. 173. I still fcel terrified when Ithink of atraumatic
168. Ivery often hear things so well that it bothers experience I had years ago.
me.
174. Although I'm afraid to make friendships, I
169. I'm always willing to give in to others in a wish Ihad more than I do.
disagreement because I fear their anger or 175. There are people who are supposed to be my
rejection. friends who would like to do me harm.
170. Irepeat certain behaviors again and again,
sometimes to reduce my anxiety and
sometimes to stop something bad from
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