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"Very sorry because I hurt you before. I wish you get a nicer partner. I do not want to talk about that anymore, it's an ended story. But we are still friends now." ~27/9/05 12:44pm

Finally, I ask him the question. I want to clear my doubt. I sms him yesterday, that's the answer he gave me.

Ya...it's an ended story, we are still friend. Of course we are still friend! ya...perhaps we are...

This is the answer I got it after 8 years. Such a long period, some of my friends said that why I'm that stupid. Wasting my time there, just to wait for the answer. I spend 8 years to get the answer.

Stupid? Yes, I'm. I'm that stupid.

I know we should look in front, no more backwards. It just that something haven't finish, I couldn't let go.

So is it really come to the end? I'm not sure. I'm learning "Let Go!"

Let go the past
Let go the unhappy
Let go the people
Let go my first love
Let go everything which make me unhappy

无题

在对的时间遇到错的人，是一种伤心
在错的时间遇到对的人，是一阵叹息
在对的时间遇到对的人，是一种幸福

她周周转转，始终没有在对的时间遇上对的人。

那是一个冰凉的傍晚，微微细雨滴在车镜上，路灯照耀下来，仿佛是一颗又一颗闪亮的星星，在对着车内的她微微笑。

同学邀约她到夜市集去。她知道这位同学的用意，她也因此带来了两位朋友相伴。木子和雨田是她最要好的朋友。

同学的殷勤，让她喘不过气来，她只好要求雨田假扮其男友，好让同学知难而退。

这是一个过分的要求，对他而言或许是吧！

我们总在路上徘徊，无法让自己找到很明确的方向。也许，就因此，一而再，再而三地换了又换。

还记得从前笑言要买一间“姑婆屋”，与几位知己一起度过下半辈子。没有人能预测未来，只能好好经营现在，为未来作打算。

突然发现到，爱情，没什么大不了！只不过是人与人之间的相互扶持，以及传宗接代的代名词。既然是如此悲哀，那我还需要爱情吗？

有时候，当你遇到了所谓的理想对象，却逐渐不再理想的时候，该怎么办？改变他吗？还是改变自己？

当你发现你的理想对象，与当初你所认识的他，越来越不同的时候，该怎么办？继续扮演妈妈的角色来教导他吗？

我们到底是要一个男朋友/老公，还是一个孩子？一个时时都要让我们操心的孩子？

我无言...

朋友同意我的观点，也没想到她同意我如此的想法。或许，经过岁月的磨练，思想上也比起3年前，成熟了吧！

是成熟了？还是更幼稚了？

我更无言...

如今，我只想全力以赴，好好将大学文凭给念完，与此同时，好好经营我的事业。我的生活越是忙碌，就越是不会再想要爱情。

这样好吗？

夜

是夜
宁静但炎热

房间里
传来电脑启动的声音
以及风扇传来的阵阵热风

雷
独自坐在电脑前
呆呆地
望着她和他的照片

没有开心
没有悲伤

只有
淡淡地味道
一种无法辨认的味道

雷
倚在窗前
思绪在漂泊
两眼无神地望向远方

雷
打从心底就明白到
这是一个无言的结局
她何尝不想结束

她想结束
不希望再有任何的开始

只希望
一个人
慢慢地走下去

走下去...走到自己人生的最后一站去...

我们6M班

（左到右）
第一排： 张荣威，傅文辉，洪德荣，？，郑联合，马国庆，张伟贤，郭思维，周进伟，萧春雄，黄瑞兴，李宽耀，叶文荣，张伟杰，罗国华

第二排： 汤翠婷，曾仪美，郑心如，吕慧彬，何彩玲，？，麦亦维，李慧珊，郭慧君，周慧芳，Meow Meow，胡淑君，江秀晶，Baby

第三排： 王美美，吴燕玲，李婉玲，黄文珊，梁依庆，陈凤芝，郑晓莹，萧凯璇，邹甄妮，杨国豪，公建成，徐庆中，杨文强

第四排： 蓝伟杰，黄仕恒，陈明吉，甘若伟，陈淑惠师，郭佩珊，石淑敏，神佩仪，张美玉

我想，名字应该不会有错吧！！有的话，请马上告诉我...

这就是我同伴了4年的小学同学！很棒吧！这是一张难得的旧照...想要看更多，可以到我的相簿去看看，很多相当有趣的图片。

请不要怪我把照片放上网络，只是，也应该没什么好介意的啦...

今天我们拍班级照的草场，已经不复存在了，背后的那几只旗杆，也好像没有了。值得怀念地日子！

谢谢仕恒！！

Sad day~~

一通很突然的电话，一个很突然的决定...

晨曦，太阳初露脸蛋，微风习习。一个非常阳光的早晨，带着非常阳光的心情，正要出门之际，接到了一通很突然的电话。

该来的，终究还是来了。

我该带她离开...寻找一个更适合她的地方。我的无能，让我在别无他法的情况下，选择了抛弃！

我抛弃了她！

我开着车子，兜了好久、好久...我喂她吃着罐头食品，让她至少还是饱着肚子...

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从今以后，你得独自生活了！没有任何人的照顾情况下，千万要懂得过马路、不要随便吃垃圾食物。你要懂得如何寻找栖身之所、下雨天，没人能够替你该被单了！

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她似乎不知道我打算抛弃她。一下车，她就往草推理蹦蹦跳跳。没一会儿，就越过了马路到对面的大操场。

在她的字典里，似乎只有玩乐！

那她以后的三餐该怎么办？

夜深了，雾水打在身上，格外的刺骨寒冷。她，躲在哪个角落了啊？有睡好吗？会冷吗？刚刚有吃饱吗？有没有被人欺负？

是我选择了将她给抛弃！我没有办法原谅自己！当初我就不应该同意把她带回家！

对不起~~~对不起~~~对不起......

我知道我再怎么道歉，你也听不见，或许你会不介意，但是我真的过意不去，我真的很内疚，很痛心...只恨我自己没有用，真的没有用！！

我看着倒后镜，缓缓地将车子开走...眼泪已经不听使唤，像水喉般，稀里哗啦地流着...

你们当然不会有所感觉，因为，是我亲自将她给抛弃...你们不会了解到我有多伤心，我有多心痛...你们不会了解...

All pass

I have just got to know that I had pass all my subjects for the last sem...although it jus a pass, i'm very satisfy with it because that's my elective subjects, somemore it's not that familiar to these 2 subjects..

No matter how, I have did my best to study on it and did my assignment...

This sem will be a bit busy. I just take 1 subject, but the spare time I need to go back to office for my part time...there's where my pocket money come from...haha~~

I will be very busy for this short sem...it's a very busy life...but I enjoy it...hehe~

Treasure what you have...

Just a little story for you:

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were aloving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen totally forgot the matter.

The boy playfully went to the medicine bottleand, fascinated with itscolor, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant foradults in small dosages. When the child showed signs of poisoning them other took him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned.She was terrified how to face her husband. When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife anduttered just four words.

1. What were the four words?
2. What is the implication of this story?

The husband just said, "I Love You Darling ".

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. He is indeed a genius in human relationships. The child is dead. He can neverbe brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with themother. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her. If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective,there would be much fewer problems in the world. To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot and love him alittle. To be happy with a woman you must understand her a lot and love herwith all your heart.

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears AND you will find things are actually not so difficult as you think."

Thereare many beautiful, charming and wonderful men and women here on earth, it's just a matter of who you get to meet along the way and who youchoose to end up with for the rest of your life.

"Love has its owntime, season and reason. You can't ask for it to stay. You can only embrace it when it comes and be glad that for a moment in your life, it was your!

喜欢：爱

喜欢不是爱，爱不是喜欢
多少人嫁给了喜欢，多少人没娶到爱
有太多人只敢喜欢，不敢去爱，你呢？
找到属于你的爱了吗？
记得要幸福哦！*(",)*

聚会

这是我毕业了10年以后的事情，我第一次参加小学同学的聚会！

凯璇，秀晶，Baby，晓莹，荣威，书玲，仕恒，佩仪，若伟，庆中

好开心！实在是感动！我真的没有想过，还可以和大家聚一聚。毕竟失去了联络那么久，也不知道从何找起。

缘分，往往就是那么巧妙，不需要刻意的，随缘就好。自然而然，就会在你面前出现。

我突然好想念我的小学朋友...

傅文辉，陈明吉，萧春雄，何彩玲，慧君，郭佩珊，李慧珊，王美美，罗国华...还有很多很多，有的都记不起名字了！！

小学的文章常常会写到，什么“时光飞逝”、“一眨眼”、“一刹那”、“一瞬间”...那时候的我们，那里会了解到个中意义？现在，就真的深深感受到了，甚至有老的感觉...哈哈！！

我的朋友，真得好开心能够见回你们~~

Learn to Love

Learn to love the people who are with you at present. Forget the people in the past and thank them for hurting you, which led you to love the people you have right now.

When you love someone, you'll do crazy things you can't explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in lies. When you love someone, you sacrifice, give everything you've got and don't think twice.

You risk it all no matter what.

Everything in life is temporary because everything changes. That is why it takes courage to love, knowing it might end anytime... having faith will make it last.

Love is the feeling we fall in and out of, and every time we fall off, we learn to hold on tighter... hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.

They say when love knocks at your door, open it. But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back door and before you begin to notice it, it's on it's way out.

Have you ever loved only to let it go?
Have you ever hated someone and loved him so?
Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry?
Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why?

Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.

Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor the right word to say when you like a person but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds, and our hearts.

Love is not for beauty or color of the skin, but for a heart that is loyal within, for beauty fades and the skin would grow old but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define... and yet everyone is still taking the risk.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in love in mutual weirdness and call it Love.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pain, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Don't run ahead of God. Let Him direct your steps. He has plans and He has His time. God's clock is never one minute early nor one minute late. It always strikes right on time.

If someone loves you, love them back not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you have never seen or felt without them.

The past is meant to be used as a tool for the future. Bad experiences indeed make you bitter but the lessons learned should make you better.

It hurts to see someone you love happy with somebody else; but wouldn't it hurt you more to see that person unhappy with you?

When you find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst, then you have found true love.

Someday, someone might come into your life and love you in a way you always wanted.

If your someday was yesterday.. LEARN
If your someday is tomorrow.. HOPE
If your someday is today.. CHERISH

超越另一个自我

前有阻碍，奋力把它冲开。
运用炽热的爱，转动心中期待。
血在澎湃，激起你的命脉。
牵住每分每秒，编织美好未来。
超越另一个自我，
实现每一承诺。
吃苦算什么，流汗算什么。
全力耕耘自己的梦。
超越另一个自我，
唤醒沉睡的心窝。
用青春烈火走入未来，
掌握所有的所有。

p/s: 感谢安利(中国佛山),让我找到这首歌的歌词...