The other day i decided to go through all my baby bins and get rid of every thing except the few things that were sentimental, and i couldnt help but get emotional after seeing and remembering precious moments that went along with my baby girl items. Although i am at peace with not having more children and that 3 is the perfect number for me. It is not easy saying "i'm done" It is not easy thinking that i will never hold another baby girl or any baby of my own agian. So naturally it brought tears to my eyes. But that sadness was only magnified when my sweet 7 year old who once wore those cute pjs and tiny outfits told me she found some "leprachan" things in the cupboard (which were very high up, she had too climb every shelf to see them) and doesnt think that leprachans are real anymore. And if the leprachans aren't real than neither can be tooth fairys, or easter bunnies.... and that is where i stopped her. I made up another crazy insane story about how they are real before she could say anything about Old St. Nick because i just will not have her growing up that fast!! I am in denial about how old she is getting and that she is not a little girl anymore! I want her to forever stay 7 and get excited about the simple things in life. I want her to always tell me she loves me as much as she does right now. I want her to want me to lie by her until she is asleep and rub her back and forever ask me to tell her stories about me when i was a little girl. I just want to freeze these times and moments. Not because i dont want to experience the other stages of life with my children because i am very much excited about watching them grow and all the things that come with growing up, but mostly because i am afraid of what i will not remember. I already have forgotten alot. And i am just so sad to think that no matter how many pictures or video i take or how much i journal every moment....i still will forget the smiles, funny faces, sound of their little voices, sweet baby smells, the way it feels to have their little arms hug me, the distant sound of them playing so well together and laughing and getting along while i am making dinner, or big sister reading books to the little ones or what it feels like to have amberly cuddle next to me every night and after i kiss her nose and say i love you she kisses my nose back and says i love you more. I am afraid of forgetting these priceless moments and i just want to stop all the clocks!

September

Its always good to go home! Spent the weekend with the family celebrating my sisters big 17th birthday. The first night we were there my dad and i took Dave and the girls to a place they have never been before.... The middle of a potatoe field in the middle of the night!! :) Some of my favorite memories growing up was Harvest Time and working late with my dad. AFter the day of work was done, before we would go home we would sit and look at the stars. I wanted my girls to experience this since they really havent ever been somewhere there isnt light blocking the view so Dad and i took them to the same field where its so dark you can see millions of stars. They loved every minute of it and saw a bunch of shooting stars!

Sam and Koco



Koco getting all up in my space :)



My angel amberly

Amberly started soccer and has really taken to it. I was a little nervous the first day because i couldnt even get her to put the uniform on because she said it was ugly and too big, Lol! But once she did she realized she really liked it and has done so good!


We are so proud of you Amberly!

Cute Friends!
Amberly, Presley and Tayvee are playing together! Although tay is not in this pic..

Roast'n Mellows

Too Cute!

So I was playing around wih this little guy and thought he is just to cute right now i've got to get my camera!He didn't Love posing as much as the girls do so i started playing peek-a-boo around the couch and got some cute one!

Handsome!

BUT then he decided that was enough and he did this....

and this....

and gave me this look....alot!

:)

August

When Life Gives You Lemons.... Make Lemonade!! With the new school year having just started i decided it was a good idea For Family Night to have a Lemon Party! We talked all about our attitudes and how we can choose to let things effect us or we can choose to find the good news in everything!
The kiddos LOVED this! They thought it was so cool that their glasses were dipped in sugar!

And of course I had a blast putting it all together!

I finally made some curtains for my laundry room! I have stared at the window for years thinking i really would like curtains here but never did anything about it, until now. I think they turned out pretty cute since I can only sew a basic strait line and this was my only option :) Now i want to change out the cupboard nobs for small crystal nobs... maybe i'll ask santa clause for those!

Took this gal to go ride ponys!

My sweet, sweet, tiny little man!!! Josh was in HEAVEN when we took his only 3 big boy cousins boating. The little man wanted to do everything they did, so everytime the Big Boys were on the back of the boat...so was Josh. And everytime one of them would pull the rope in... so would Josh! He is just so pint size standing there by all these Big Boys but he felt like one of the Big Boys!! Love my little (Big) man!

Sadies Big girl Bedroom

We remodeled sadies bedroom. Or maybe i should say we just finally did her bedroom. She has always just slept with a blanket on a bed and its never been matchy or cute so we decided to put up chair rail and paint and then we were given a Beautiful bedroom set that was in great condition but it was a dark wood color and so i took it to this guy who refinishes things and he did a fabulous job with this light blue color! Then we went and got bedding and some decor and had fun putting it all together!! Defenetly one of my favorite projects yet!!

Sadie did so great in her singing group! She loves being on stage. We are proud of you Mersadies!!

Girls Getaway!!

Went to Vegas with the gals! Did a some Shopping, a lot of laying out, talking, eating a little sleeping and repeated it all over again for 4 fabulous days!!

Preschool Program

Amberly had her end of the year Preschool program at NewCastle. She and her cute girlfriends Presley and Tayvee had a fun time together!! Cant wait for next year!

June 2nd 2011

Every day i am amazed at my children and how much they are growing and becoming their own little spirit! My 1st grader feels more like a self reliant, independent teenager who when she comes home from school, throws her backpack on the ground and gets herself her own after school snack! The simple task of making her own toast seems like such a big thing to me. She poors her own drinks, butters her own toast, cracks her own HB egg. She isnt learning little things anymore either. She comes home and tells me about Matter and water cycles and what kind of clouds are in the sky....I just cant believe she is so big!! And my precious singing 4 year old.... she is just a crack up!! She is very into being just as big as her sister. She loves doing Homework because Sadie does it and she has all sorts of new songs to sing us everyday. She has become Joshs second mommy and enjoys being the biggest kid in the house while sisters at school!! And my not so little man is just LOVE. So gentle and kind and snuggly. I love how everynight when im rocking him to sleep and i say "lets say our prayers" he has to get his arms out of the blanket and fold them!! I love how he says i love you mom and how he is sooo protective of me if dave is wrestling me or teasing me....josh will not hesitate to sucker punch his dad because he is so worried about me!! Although i dont like to see him nervous like that it is kinda cute to see him tell his dad off!! I love how every animal says MEOW, and his favorite toys are his sports stuff...bats, balls etc... He is the best listener ive had yet. I love how he does what ever i ask of him and how he feels so strong after he helps me carry the laundry basket. So lucky to have the these 3 little spirits in my home!!

Spaghetti Booger

Yep title pretty much says it all, haha! Somehow the other night Josh got a spagetti noodle up his nose, however we didnt realize this until the next day!! At dinner he kept wanting to blow his nose so i would get a tissue and nothing would come out but he kept pointing to his nose...i looked...nothing there. Finally he got over it. Next morning he has a boogy so i get it and it keeps coming and coming and im thinking this is a long weird booger lol! Ahhhh then i got it.... poor guy slept with that thing in his nose all night!! Silly boy