I absolutely cannot with this book. I cannot. The sin of it all. I'm pretty sure even hell won't take me in after the thoughts I had whilst reading thI absolutely cannot with this book. I cannot. The sin of it all. I'm pretty sure even hell won't take me in after the thoughts I had whilst reading this book. It's fucking lethal. LETHAL.
DO NOT. I REPEAT DO NOT READ THIS BOOK IN THE COMPANY OF ANYONE. NOT YOUR HUSBAND WIFE NAN CHILD AND MOST DEFINITELY NOT IN A PUBLIC PLACE. The sin of it all.
I've read beyond the normal numbers of books in my short time of reading. I understand most people don't have a unhealthy obsession with romance books in all their verities like me. I have read some forbidden shit ok. I'm talking step ...brother/ sister/ mother/ father.. bdsm, kidnapping, golden fucking shower forbidden kind of shit. Not for the faint of hearts but definitely all for the dirty minds. I'm a book ho ok. Don't judge me. But this... dear god. It's not even the fact is mmf... it's the nature of why they know each other that makes it so completely wrong and yet I could not stop reading it!! . Like a fucking train wreck I was sat reading with one eye open thinking I should not be entertaining this nasty ass shit and yet I was. So wrong it's right but also so fucking wrong.
I loved Ryan. Ryan is all things sweet and sexy and mature beyond his years. His patience understanding and genuine care made it so easy to love him. Not to mention the fact he took responsibility for his actions and whilst he carried on.. he never made what he was doing out to be the right thing. The turmoil he felt through the book had me in knots because whilst again it wasn't right what he did.. I also couldn't help but feel for him and the situation he was in.
Ben. Lord have mercy than man is a lethal weapon all by himself. Sin with a capital fucking S. I understand why everyone basically fell at his feet. His dominance is palpable but his role in his and Ryan's relationship was almost reversed. He went to liquid obedient to Ryan and it surprised me. His need for control surpassed everything even his own feelings and as selfish as Ben was a lot of the time, he was also riddled with guilt because his actions didn't just effect him or his marriage and in that situation he has no control. But fuck I wanted to hate him and I couldn't.
Jess... sweet, understanding and more loyal then any sane person has a right to be. She was the calm to Ben and Ryan's storm. She soothed the inferno between them all and evened out the strange situation they all found themselves to be in. I admired her strength and her confidence and I appreciated her want to explore despite the outrageousness of it all.
Now they all have chemistry. Like explosive burn your guts makes you flush like a innocent nun kind of chemistry. This has to be the hotest mm/mmf book I have ever read. Every emotion is tangible and the connection is out of the world palpable. The sex is explosive, very explicit and so fucking hot. This author can write a sex scene like no other. Their journey is this outrageous completely forbidden so wrong but it feels to good to stop train wreck that you can't don't want to get off of. I loved all the nasty and the sweet despite the circumstances.
However there are some things that didn't make this book as a whole completely solid for me.
Jess... whilst she joins the party later I feel as a character there just isn't enough about her. She felt almost like a stranger despite being one of thruple and it frustrated me because she was to important to not know.
Bens whole storyline was consumed by his overwhelming need for a Ryan and his guilt. But I feel like we missed out on the resolution between him and Hailey. With that being his biggest issue and excuse to not commit I feel like that conversation should have been in the book in a in person situation not just brushed over and mentioned fleetingly.
The end.... for me felt a little rushed. Everything is so damn detailed in such a way as I reader I was completely consumed in their story it felt like it swallowed me whole. So for the ending the be as abrupt and quick as it was just left me a little unsatisfied and I don't mean to be rude in saying that it's just that this book is so well written and depthy despite the giant sex fest going on in it that for the end to be what felt like a little rushed was a little anticlimactic for me and brought me back to earth rather quickly.
With all that being said... if you're a fan of mm / mmf and or forbidden romance then this is your jam babe. Seriously I devoured this book. It's naughty and climactic and suspenseful as hell. It's sweet and at times even a little heartbreaking. Its fast paced and packs hell of a punch that is for sure and even though I had a few things that niggled me as a whole it's a book I will not forget ever.