Year in Photos: 2014
Though it's sometimes hard to recall immediatelyor difficult to feel, in one moment, the full weight of a trip around the big star,
I know the goodness of these past 365 days in all my knowing places.
I don't say 'goodness' as in lack of bad,
dark,
scary,
desperate,
confusing,
or sad.
I speak good using a definition as it resonates in me
whenever I speak of anything.
All the parts of it wrapped up
and then seeing it outside of itself.
Reflecting and re-framing.
And the goodness, in my way of thinking,
is defined as wholeness.
The package.
Shit and all.
I see as good.
But only at the end.
Oh how I crave the wisdom only the end can bring.
And how deeply I resent starting out,
cold and weak like a slippery child.
Incapable of anything but breathing.
And heart-pumping.
And wailing.
Maybe, if I am lucky one,
I'll learn to feed and thrive.
But this starting always, always has an end.
Be it morose or maudlin,
I find ultimate hope in the penultimate
end.