Monday, December 29, 2008
still figuring it out.
hey,
i just got back from port dickson, where we had our family gathering. it was so much FUN. the place is so cool and exciting. it is called Eagle Ranch. it is a real ranch , minus the part where we're not in Texas, usa. haha. but time was a bit limited bcoz we stayed there for only one night. trying to find 3 days of holidays in a 100 people's calendar would be a bit tight, i guess. our family was divided into 5 teams. RED( my team), yellow, blue, green and black. the yellow team won and we got fourth place. mind you, i have almost 50 cousins and we're close. haha. that's a lot, i know.
so basically, we had our little telematch and stuff. and later on, i played go kart, ATV , cycling but i did not swim as i did not bring my swimming suit. and everything was cheap. xcekik darah la. for most of the rides, it was Rm 20 for 5 laps.
at night, we had bbq for dinner and the theme was hawaian. i think i went out of the way a bit. haha. i had this flower wreath on my head and somehow, it looked like a greek goddess or what. hahah. i really had fun this time around. we slept late that night because we had a some sort of cerita hantu session. as usual. hehe. pastu takot nak g toilet to bukak contact lens and gosok gigi, kncing suma. haha
new year's coming up and we havent set the place or whatever plans that we have for new year. so guys, where are we going?
i just got back from port dickson, where we had our family gathering. it was so much FUN. the place is so cool and exciting. it is called Eagle Ranch. it is a real ranch , minus the part where we're not in Texas, usa. haha. but time was a bit limited bcoz we stayed there for only one night. trying to find 3 days of holidays in a 100 people's calendar would be a bit tight, i guess. our family was divided into 5 teams. RED( my team), yellow, blue, green and black. the yellow team won and we got fourth place. mind you, i have almost 50 cousins and we're close. haha. that's a lot, i know.
so basically, we had our little telematch and stuff. and later on, i played go kart, ATV , cycling but i did not swim as i did not bring my swimming suit. and everything was cheap. xcekik darah la. for most of the rides, it was Rm 20 for 5 laps.
at night, we had bbq for dinner and the theme was hawaian. i think i went out of the way a bit. haha. i had this flower wreath on my head and somehow, it looked like a greek goddess or what. hahah. i really had fun this time around. we slept late that night because we had a some sort of cerita hantu session. as usual. hehe. pastu takot nak g toilet to bukak contact lens and gosok gigi, kncing suma. haha
new year's coming up and we havent set the place or whatever plans that we have for new year. so guys, where are we going?
Friday, December 26, 2008
i am an almost grown up and i shall not play with a teddy bear anymore.
again, i pushed my ego away just to save a friendship and you ignored it. why do i even care about YOU!!! don't worry. i know you've got your back up right. ok. i'll just back off. i can be so stupid at times.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
i would like to be in the normal track pls.
i feel sick, i feel like puking, i feel like sleeping, i feel like going on a holiday and i just don't feel like going back to sh alam. next semester's timetable is so packed that i dont think we'll even have time to breathe. i'm not ready to talk about this nor am i ready to think about it. the time table is making me more eager to study somewhere else. hey mr dean, we are students ,not robots. fcuk la.
i am so bored right now and i am trying to kill time. i swept the hse already, havent done the moping yet, perhaps i will watch oth for a bit. i have to run errands for my mom today but there's only one car. i would like to go out for lunch but no one has asked me out today and i dont have the car, again.
thank you UITM for making my day so bright and shiny!
// i want to spend only one more day with you and nothing more. so that i can tell you what's been bugging me and you'll find another way to bug me even more.
i am so bored right now and i am trying to kill time. i swept the hse already, havent done the moping yet, perhaps i will watch oth for a bit. i have to run errands for my mom today but there's only one car. i would like to go out for lunch but no one has asked me out today and i dont have the car, again.
thank you UITM for making my day so bright and shiny!
// i want to spend only one more day with you and nothing more. so that i can tell you what's been bugging me and you'll find another way to bug me even more.
Monday, December 22, 2008
if i could buy you time, i would.
don't ask.
it's a bit too complicated.
i don't like edward alone neither do i like bella alone.
it's different when they are together.
other than my current obsession with the fantasy world, i miss my friends already. seriously, i miss them a lot. my relatives are at home , so it's a bit hard for me to go out as usual.
in 8 days time, we will be in our little tiny space in the college. busy unpacking, chit chatting , eating non stop and much more. studying! *phewwww* that's a different story okeyh! i'm really scared about next semester. let me list down the subjects just incase anyone forgot. there are eight (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 ) subjects. four (1, 2, 3 , 4) are accounting subjects regardless whether it is financial or management accounting. there will be 2 english* i am praying real hard we will not get our last semester's lecturer* . one subject on LAW and another one concerning entrepreneurship. just thinking about it, give me shivers and nightmares.
i just wish that my life will find its way back to the simplicity-hood. i wonder when will that be.
oh yes, a few weeks back, i applied as an international student for university of new south wales. it was just out of curiosity and fun. two days ago, i received the whole international student guide. the letter came in with the university's logo and stuff. it's nothing big because, anyone can apply for that thing. the thing is, when that thing came, i think it sort of stunned my dad and my mom. they know i've been wanting it since forever but they did not know i was this serious. i am. BUT, now, thinking about it, i am really scared actually. i can stay if i want to kan. my dad will be really happy. ahaha. if i really wanna go, i have to find my own scholarships. i have to really think this time around.
apart from all of that, he came back actually. *u miss me is it?* hahahaha. i got my magic word for three times. but , i'm not gonna fall for it this time around. i will think it through this time around, for real . i need you to prove it that you are actually worth my time.
//am i anything to u?
//yes of coz.
in 8 days time, we will be in our little tiny space in the college. busy unpacking, chit chatting , eating non stop and much more. studying! *phewwww* that's a different story okeyh! i'm really scared about next semester. let me list down the subjects just incase anyone forgot. there are eight (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 ) subjects. four (1, 2, 3 , 4) are accounting subjects regardless whether it is financial or management accounting. there will be 2 english* i am praying real hard we will not get our last semester's lecturer* . one subject on LAW and another one concerning entrepreneurship. just thinking about it, give me shivers and nightmares.
i just wish that my life will find its way back to the simplicity-hood. i wonder when will that be.
oh yes, a few weeks back, i applied as an international student for university of new south wales. it was just out of curiosity and fun. two days ago, i received the whole international student guide. the letter came in with the university's logo and stuff. it's nothing big because, anyone can apply for that thing. the thing is, when that thing came, i think it sort of stunned my dad and my mom. they know i've been wanting it since forever but they did not know i was this serious. i am. BUT, now, thinking about it, i am really scared actually. i can stay if i want to kan. my dad will be really happy. ahaha. if i really wanna go, i have to find my own scholarships. i have to really think this time around.
apart from all of that, he came back actually. *u miss me is it?* hahahaha. i got my magic word for three times. but , i'm not gonna fall for it this time around. i will think it through this time around, for real . i need you to prove it that you are actually worth my time.
//am i anything to u?
//yes of coz.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
counting down the days.
i know it's a bit too early for me to be posting this chap's picture but i can't help it because i've gotten Edward Cullen'c curse and i am trying my best to resist it and this is the solution.
haha.
no one can ever replace my ashton kutcher.
i had fun last night. we had a barbecue as to remind us that holidays are about to end and we must go back to our respective colleges and universities and start the sucky life soon.
nana will the first one leaving on the 21st of december and that follows with everyone else.
this means that there will be no more stupid meaningless jokes, no more reckless driving and shouting in the car, no more quarelling with my mom for going out every single day, no more waiting outside anybody's house, no more honking aimlessly. haha.
now that i have realised, i will have to wait for another year, to experience all this.
because, we don't have normal holidays like other people.
that's why i treasure holidays so much...
thank you girls for making this holiday fun , exciting and SO ADVENTUROUS!
haha. that's a bit over the top but you get the picture right.
i will post last night's pictures once i get it.
haha.
no one can ever replace my ashton kutcher.
i had fun last night. we had a barbecue as to remind us that holidays are about to end and we must go back to our respective colleges and universities and start the sucky life soon.
nana will the first one leaving on the 21st of december and that follows with everyone else.
this means that there will be no more stupid meaningless jokes, no more reckless driving and shouting in the car, no more quarelling with my mom for going out every single day, no more waiting outside anybody's house, no more honking aimlessly. haha.
now that i have realised, i will have to wait for another year, to experience all this.
because, we don't have normal holidays like other people.
that's why i treasure holidays so much...
thank you girls for making this holiday fun , exciting and SO ADVENTUROUS!
haha. that's a bit over the top but you get the picture right.
i will post last night's pictures once i get it.
Friday, December 19, 2008
back to basics.
Alhamdulillah. i got my results and i passed every paper. i wouldn't say i passed with flying colours but at least i made it through. all i wanted was to pass my papers and i got what i wanted and i aint complaining. my mom said i was so kelam kabut . cant help it. if i flunk my papers, she will be the one worrying and all. haha.
many things have i learned after being a student of a university. it is not something that you can pick up from a book store or a library. you have to actually experience it, in order to get the hang of it. here's a list of things that i have actually learned over the past one and a half years.
but, all you need to remember is that, life is like a wheel*is it a wheel? or anything bulat la like a ball* sometimes you can be up there, and sometimes, you are at the bottom. the figures are not the only way to measure you. perhaps one did not do well for his or her finals but understands the whole thing perfectly. who knows?
now, i need to figure out how will my 2009 be like. i am so scared thinking about the future.
one more thing before i go off, accounting is hard. don't think it is some kind of a loser's field. just because it is not something in the science stream, doesnt mean it is easy. i would like those saying , to venture into the subject first, then i will allow you to have a say about the actual subject.
many things have i learned after being a student of a university. it is not something that you can pick up from a book store or a library. you have to actually experience it, in order to get the hang of it. here's a list of things that i have actually learned over the past one and a half years.
1. don't mess with the pak guard. haha. they have the power!
2. wear appropriate attire so that you don't attract the wrong attention.
3. if you want something badly, go for it.
4. pile up stocks of nescafes. you will need it, sooner or later.
5. if you see a gorgeous looking guy, just go say hi. chances are ,you will not see him again. hahaha.
6. find friends that are from the same kind but mix around with everyone.
7. go out, go shopping, watch a movie, de-stress yourself even when you are not stress.
8. even when you are 20 years old, or even 55 years old, you will still need your parents.
9. i seriously need to plan my financials properly. haha
10. lastly, if you want good grades, nothing much you can do except for study. those who excel and say that they don't study are liars. we all have been there and done it before. if you study, usually your hard work will pay off and the other way round.
2. wear appropriate attire so that you don't attract the wrong attention.
3. if you want something badly, go for it.
4. pile up stocks of nescafes. you will need it, sooner or later.
5. if you see a gorgeous looking guy, just go say hi. chances are ,you will not see him again. hahaha.
6. find friends that are from the same kind but mix around with everyone.
7. go out, go shopping, watch a movie, de-stress yourself even when you are not stress.
8. even when you are 20 years old, or even 55 years old, you will still need your parents.
9. i seriously need to plan my financials properly. haha
10. lastly, if you want good grades, nothing much you can do except for study. those who excel and say that they don't study are liars. we all have been there and done it before. if you study, usually your hard work will pay off and the other way round.
but, all you need to remember is that, life is like a wheel*is it a wheel? or anything bulat la like a ball* sometimes you can be up there, and sometimes, you are at the bottom. the figures are not the only way to measure you. perhaps one did not do well for his or her finals but understands the whole thing perfectly. who knows?
now, i need to figure out how will my 2009 be like. i am so scared thinking about the future.
one more thing before i go off, accounting is hard. don't think it is some kind of a loser's field. just because it is not something in the science stream, doesnt mean it is easy. i would like those saying , to venture into the subject first, then i will allow you to have a say about the actual subject.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
just a wild thought.
"numbers are funny. they can measure you, time you, analyze you all they want but they all know what really matters , it's how you play the game. Have you heard the expression they can't measure the heart, well the truth is , they can't measure any of it. Heart, want and need. And you can't measure a dream." nathan scott , season 6 : episode 12.
so come again, why do we live by the measurement of numbers?
and ohh, all of this is killing me and i am not excitedly anticipating any kind of figures right now.
so come again, why do we live by the measurement of numbers?
and ohh, all of this is killing me and i am not excitedly anticipating any kind of figures right now.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
hours away
the cutest little couple!
good day everyone!
it is 2.43pm and i still haven't had lunch. i am very hungry and i feel like eating spicy drummets but we don't have the inventory at home. hahaha. inventory. a very common word that i will see in about 2 weeks time. yucks. one think led to another, the word results popped in my head! i'm asking you guys ,my fellow fast track friends and others. answer me with honesty pls. if dapat 3.00 that's good enough right? if dapat more, alhamdullilah but if tak, we'll try again with more effort.
i don't have any specific plans for today because my mom's back and she doesnt like it that i go out too often. last night, nana caught me doing something fishy. hahaha. that was really funny. sorry nana.
my body is aching today from all the bruises i've been getting.
for instance, 1. i've got a bisul on my right knee and it's very painful.
2. 2 nights ago, i wanted to bite my sister's hand and while she was trying to protect helself from me , she knocked my head with her elbow. haha. skrg ni ade benjol.
3. my constant headache that doesnt wanna go away.
4. i'm hungry and my stomach is hurting.
byk x saket? the worst is the bisul. i cant even pray properly.
uh, i am surprised about how happy i am nowadays after things has settled down. knowing that it is not my fault, i am much much more happier. i should hv thrown away all the negativity long long ago. i've moved on. and for that, i thank you, God.
gdluck everyone for tmoro.
Monday, December 15, 2008
a little of everyting.
i dont feel like talking or writing tonite. i cant stop thinking about the results that will come out in about 2 to 3 days time. i am praying hard that it will be ok. lets pray together ppl.
//i know your little secret already. boohoo. just so you know, say if you wanna keep it a secret, don't publish it all over the net. HAHAHAHAHAHA. i sound so bitchy here but if compared to what you did, i am indeed very innocent. hahahah. so long and gdnite!
//i know your little secret already. boohoo. just so you know, say if you wanna keep it a secret, don't publish it all over the net. HAHAHAHAHAHA. i sound so bitchy here but if compared to what you did, i am indeed very innocent. hahahah. so long and gdnite!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
17, once.
happy birthday my baby brother, aiman.
baby brother??
he turned seventeen today, 14th of december and we had a little gathering.
my mom was not around so she asked us, me and suphannsa to throw him a little party.
it was short and fun.
yesterday was the day that God gave me a clue.
i prayed really hard and ask Him for a way and i got what i wanted.
i am more than fine.
so anyway, people, lets go out today!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
you are the company that you keep.
we can never get away from mcdonalds.
little little things do make wonders.
how just a simple word can soothe your soul
and
how a generous act can fickle your mind.
you get blamed for things that you don't do,
you get blamed for the things that you think is right ,
you get blamed for other people's fault
and
you get blamed when you are trying to do the deed for other people's sake.
i am not willing to jeopardize my willingness just to get a hold of a person's heart.
we stand on our own beliefs and as we grow older we learn more about our self.
you gave me answers to my tricky questions regarding who i am.
and for that, i thank you.
//i want to, more than anything, to move on. i really do.
i am searching for the courage and strength to do so.
where did it go wrong?
Thursday, December 11, 2008
"Will you please let me attempt to explain what you mean to me"
it wasnt even a real conversation. just us talking about useless things. we bicker a lot, so i guess we should have foresee this coming and not blame others for it. pardon my jealousy because i did not see any of that coming plus it was more of a betrayal. kawan makan kawan. i would not do that, so i will never understand how another human being can do that. i can nvr give away my heart to two people. that is crazy. only one at a time.
moving on, as nana would say. we move on and i agree. life doesnt revolve around stupid things. life has many option. if one fails on plan A, move on to plan B, next would be plan C but nana's plan stopped at plan D. i wonder why because there's like other 22 other alphabets * alphabets ade 26 right? *
my plan now is to stop thinking about things that don't matter much. i should be thinking about my studies. oh yeah, i went swimming just now with aliyah, my sister, nana and kak nuha and later we headed for kuewtiau sup! that was refreshing. i havent been swimming for at least 6 months. i should do that more often. i should try to occupy my mind with more beneficial stuff. i only lost my bestfriend right, i can still conquer the world and make the best out of it. he just doesnt know what he is missing. not that i am some kind of diamond but at least i still do own some self respect and i know what is precious and what is not. go figure that yourself alrite since you claimed that you are so matured.
i went searching for eclipse just now and it was sold out. ALOR STAR ? SOLD OUT? ECLIPSE?? haha. that's new considering kat alorstar xde twilight kat wayang pon. i want to continue reading the books because i find it amusing that i am actually reading about vampires. i have no interest in them before but somehow the way the writer captured it, it seems interesting. what will i be doing tmoro , indeed? i have to sleep and find out tmoro!
//i still havent got your sorry note and yet i sent you one. i let down my guard just to cater to your needs and yet you say nothing. i know i did that first and you were offended. i am deeply soory but it is better to say nothing than if i say things that will hurt you right. haih jasmin anis, so much for having your stability. he is giving you nigtmares now!
moving on, as nana would say. we move on and i agree. life doesnt revolve around stupid things. life has many option. if one fails on plan A, move on to plan B, next would be plan C but nana's plan stopped at plan D. i wonder why because there's like other 22 other alphabets * alphabets ade 26 right? *
my plan now is to stop thinking about things that don't matter much. i should be thinking about my studies. oh yeah, i went swimming just now with aliyah, my sister, nana and kak nuha and later we headed for kuewtiau sup! that was refreshing. i havent been swimming for at least 6 months. i should do that more often. i should try to occupy my mind with more beneficial stuff. i only lost my bestfriend right, i can still conquer the world and make the best out of it. he just doesnt know what he is missing. not that i am some kind of diamond but at least i still do own some self respect and i know what is precious and what is not. go figure that yourself alrite since you claimed that you are so matured.
i went searching for eclipse just now and it was sold out. ALOR STAR ? SOLD OUT? ECLIPSE?? haha. that's new considering kat alorstar xde twilight kat wayang pon. i want to continue reading the books because i find it amusing that i am actually reading about vampires. i have no interest in them before but somehow the way the writer captured it, it seems interesting. what will i be doing tmoro , indeed? i have to sleep and find out tmoro!
//i still havent got your sorry note and yet i sent you one. i let down my guard just to cater to your needs and yet you say nothing. i know i did that first and you were offended. i am deeply soory but it is better to say nothing than if i say things that will hurt you right. haih jasmin anis, so much for having your stability. he is giving you nigtmares now!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
waldorf here i come.
do i look like a tourist?
its one of their monument.
i really dont know the name of it.
today is a tuesday and it is the second day of hari raya aidiladha.
selamat hari raya everyone.
i woke up today at around 10am and lingered around my bed , while finishing new moon, written by stephenie meyer. it's not as good as twilght because edward was not around and their love is not as intense as twilight.
i did manage to finish it, though.
later on, nothing much happened except that i went to the hospitals because i am still suffering from the food poisoning.
my friends said i looked thin*thanks to 2 days of no food*
literally, with no food at all.
all i could munch on was bread.
plain old white bread.
i was running errands one whole day but still havent managed to order my contact lenses.
that will take me at least a week and i have none left to spare.
will do so tmoro.
other than that, i met kery twice today and that certainly made my day.
he is so fat now. haha.
im not kidding.
chubby and cute.
i sound a bit obsessive and my mom would kill me if she sees this.
sorry ma.
any other breaking news?
i dont think so.
other than the landslide in bukit antarabangsa, and it is affecting my family, there's none.
i really hope everything will turn out okay.
two of my aunties can't go back home and i'm sure they miss home like hell.
they can't drive their car because it is trapped but overall,
luckily their house is not affected, just the area within it.
alhamdulillah.
let's hope for the best and let's go to sleep.
ps: still haven't heard the most wanted word for now.
i'll be patient if i have to , like how i have always been with you .
its one of their monument.
i really dont know the name of it.
today is a tuesday and it is the second day of hari raya aidiladha.
selamat hari raya everyone.
i woke up today at around 10am and lingered around my bed , while finishing new moon, written by stephenie meyer. it's not as good as twilght because edward was not around and their love is not as intense as twilight.
i did manage to finish it, though.
later on, nothing much happened except that i went to the hospitals because i am still suffering from the food poisoning.
my friends said i looked thin*thanks to 2 days of no food*
literally, with no food at all.
all i could munch on was bread.
plain old white bread.
i was running errands one whole day but still havent managed to order my contact lenses.
that will take me at least a week and i have none left to spare.
will do so tmoro.
other than that, i met kery twice today and that certainly made my day.
he is so fat now. haha.
im not kidding.
chubby and cute.
i sound a bit obsessive and my mom would kill me if she sees this.
sorry ma.
any other breaking news?
i dont think so.
other than the landslide in bukit antarabangsa, and it is affecting my family, there's none.
i really hope everything will turn out okay.
two of my aunties can't go back home and i'm sure they miss home like hell.
they can't drive their car because it is trapped but overall,
luckily their house is not affected, just the area within it.
alhamdulillah.
let's hope for the best and let's go to sleep.
ps: still haven't heard the most wanted word for now.
i'll be patient if i have to , like how i have always been with you .
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
numb.
after what kery did, no one can touch me anymore.
not again.
at least for now, that's how i feel.
so for you to say that i like you, pls take back your words.
i did say i depend on you, emotionally.
i did say i love you but i said, i dont know how much
because, given a choice, i would choose anyone else but you, definitely.
i have chosen to stick with the high road rather than YOUR road.
so, think again before you say something because right now, i am numb.
i went through it once and i can go through it again.
but its no use this time around because oh well, you're a loser.
i just don't like the fact that you're spreading words around.
i'll just keep quiet.
you don't own up to your action.
your friends dont know how you've been treating me and what we go through.
they can say much but is that the truth?
so now, i'm trying my best to keep my dignity and i really wish that
you be a man and stand up for the right.
and one more thing, i dont bail on my promises unlike you.
not again.
at least for now, that's how i feel.
so for you to say that i like you, pls take back your words.
i did say i depend on you, emotionally.
i did say i love you but i said, i dont know how much
because, given a choice, i would choose anyone else but you, definitely.
i have chosen to stick with the high road rather than YOUR road.
so, think again before you say something because right now, i am numb.
i went through it once and i can go through it again.
but its no use this time around because oh well, you're a loser.
i just don't like the fact that you're spreading words around.
i'll just keep quiet.
you don't own up to your action.
your friends dont know how you've been treating me and what we go through.
they can say much but is that the truth?
so now, i'm trying my best to keep my dignity and i really wish that
you be a man and stand up for the right.
and one more thing, i dont bail on my promises unlike you.
hello malaysia.
its been a week since i last blogged and since then, i have too many things to share. i just got back from jakarta and i am suffering from food poisoning. the food was so good in jakarta that i couldnt care less about the cleanliness. haha. i finally got the 'es durian' that i wanted so badly! it was delicious! we reached jakarta at around 11pm on wednesday, and we were all too tired to do anything so we went straight to the apartment and slept the night off. the next day, that's when the adventure began. haha.we went to mangga 2 on the first day and it was boring. it was more like pekan rabu here in alor star but the food was magnificent. it was nothing much actually, nasik padang je but sdap nye. haha. i cant remember where did we go later. haha. on the second day we went to bandung. shopping heaven =) and yes, i did shop a lot for me and everyone else. mama bought clothes for practically everyone. haha. since this is our second time in bandung we picked the outlets that we really wanna go so that we dont really waste our time. the third day was more on sightseeing. a bit dull but it was ok. and on the fourth day, i was too sick to go anywhere. all i did was lay on the bed and read new moon. i know, that can be done at home but i cant really watch the tv either, xphm dong, diorng ckp laju gle. haha. overall , i was amazed to see that jakarta is actually beautiful. and the shopping is superb!
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
love you with no measure
jasmin anis is now in kl . away from her friends in kedah and is definitely away from a particular human being.
i really thought my past wont haunt me anymore. but somehow, it came back. i am here, taking full responsibilities of it and i assure you, it will not happen again.
i need time to get away,i need time to heal, i need time to wander around, i need time to think, i need time to chill and most importantly, i need time to find myself again. not that i lost it but somehow, it's gone while i was not aware of it.
you came by late at night, with the intention to talk heart to heart with me. it went elsewhere and it did not get to a point where i wanted it to be. i want it to be finished. at least, with an ending. an ending as a beggining or an ending as a closure. you know that all this while, you treated me badly and yet not a single sorry was uttered from u. i should have known you better.
i do know you just not as well. whatever, i reallllllllllyyyy need to get away from you.
anyway guys, thanks for always being there for me. i love you all with all my heart and soul.
i really thought my past wont haunt me anymore. but somehow, it came back. i am here, taking full responsibilities of it and i assure you, it will not happen again.
i need time to get away,i need time to heal, i need time to wander around, i need time to think, i need time to chill and most importantly, i need time to find myself again. not that i lost it but somehow, it's gone while i was not aware of it.
you came by late at night, with the intention to talk heart to heart with me. it went elsewhere and it did not get to a point where i wanted it to be. i want it to be finished. at least, with an ending. an ending as a beggining or an ending as a closure. you know that all this while, you treated me badly and yet not a single sorry was uttered from u. i should have known you better.
i do know you just not as well. whatever, i reallllllllllyyyy need to get away from you.
anyway guys, thanks for always being there for me. i love you all with all my heart and soul.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
there are like gazillions of people in this world but why did she choose you?
i had a blast today with nana and aliyah. they are always up for something mischiveous . haha. we transferred the dowries early in them morning. and we had brunch at city plaza. that place is getting worse by the minute. i collected my developed pictures and was satisfied with the results =) haha. later, bear texted me saying that he's in pacific. haha. we, being the girls that we are, rushed to get up and ready and in 15 mins, we're in pacific already. haha. it's kinda awkward when it is just us and bear. haha. i thnk so too.
when i reached home, my mom was cleaning the porch *guilty* and me, being the eldest daughter spent the whole day outside the house. sorry ma. and my dad was just leaving for work, he has to monitor the finals i think. the best part of my day was, i had to tutor aiman ,preparing him for his next and last paper which is principals of accounting. how i wish i could take the paper and not take the far250 exam. how easy life would be??
talking about how easylife would be , did u guys read about the mumbai attack. the whole thing is very scary. the innocents that died with no apparent reason, shows just how short life can be.
and life is something that u can never take for granted. it's more than having fun all the time, it is more than having the perfect clothes, shoes and jeans, definitely more than having the right boyfriend and friends, and definitely more than just studying and discovering it from just a book. life is so much more than that.
and bear, how i wish u will read this but i hope you dont ,and if you have decided to go on with whatever it is that u decide, please do it for the sake of doing it and not for the sake of doing it just to suck the hell out of me, please. thank you. i told you, life is more than just finding the right friend. alright everyone, lets go bed. life is so much easier and fun when you're asleep. hahaha
gdnite.
when i reached home, my mom was cleaning the porch *guilty* and me, being the eldest daughter spent the whole day outside the house. sorry ma. and my dad was just leaving for work, he has to monitor the finals i think. the best part of my day was, i had to tutor aiman ,preparing him for his next and last paper which is principals of accounting. how i wish i could take the paper and not take the far250 exam. how easy life would be??
talking about how easylife would be , did u guys read about the mumbai attack. the whole thing is very scary. the innocents that died with no apparent reason, shows just how short life can be.
and life is something that u can never take for granted. it's more than having fun all the time, it is more than having the perfect clothes, shoes and jeans, definitely more than having the right boyfriend and friends, and definitely more than just studying and discovering it from just a book. life is so much more than that.
and bear, how i wish u will read this but i hope you dont ,and if you have decided to go on with whatever it is that u decide, please do it for the sake of doing it and not for the sake of doing it just to suck the hell out of me, please. thank you. i told you, life is more than just finding the right friend. alright everyone, lets go bed. life is so much easier and fun when you're asleep. hahaha
gdnite.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
i am only human with no super power.
hello people.
how was your day? i filled my day today with the presence of only family members and only them, up until 8.30pm. i am going out with my frens at 8.30 pm onwards. hahaha. i am physically tired because i have been sleeping late and waking up early. i should be sleeping early today because i need to send the hantaran early in the morning tmoro. guys, its a group chores ok. haha.
anyway, i am quite pissed these days with the way someone is sending me the text messages. its better if you can just shut up and say nothing rather than leaving me unnecessary remarks. its not hurtful, its just annoying yet irritating. i am just normal human being and god knows, i have no super power. if i could have a shield to protect my heart , eyes and ears i would do so. that is , if only but we all know that is impossible. just dont exceed my limit. i might just leave you. just dont say anything if you have nothing nice to say ok babe. i am a girl and don't u ever call me sensitive because you're the one who lacks of manner.
i better be going now. i need to pick up nana and aliyah for dinner. mysara said something interesting "something to bitch about while makan tomyam " hahahahah. this is very true. and no, we don't bitch around like other bitches. we only gossip about important topics. hahaha. just a second ago, i found a picture of ashton kutcher. he cut his hair and now he looks extra tembam . its ok. cute jgak. hahaa. tata!
how was your day? i filled my day today with the presence of only family members and only them, up until 8.30pm. i am going out with my frens at 8.30 pm onwards. hahaha. i am physically tired because i have been sleeping late and waking up early. i should be sleeping early today because i need to send the hantaran early in the morning tmoro. guys, its a group chores ok. haha.
anyway, i am quite pissed these days with the way someone is sending me the text messages. its better if you can just shut up and say nothing rather than leaving me unnecessary remarks. its not hurtful, its just annoying yet irritating. i am just normal human being and god knows, i have no super power. if i could have a shield to protect my heart , eyes and ears i would do so. that is , if only but we all know that is impossible. just dont exceed my limit. i might just leave you. just dont say anything if you have nothing nice to say ok babe. i am a girl and don't u ever call me sensitive because you're the one who lacks of manner.
i better be going now. i need to pick up nana and aliyah for dinner. mysara said something interesting "something to bitch about while makan tomyam " hahahahah. this is very true. and no, we don't bitch around like other bitches. we only gossip about important topics. hahaha. just a second ago, i found a picture of ashton kutcher. he cut his hair and now he looks extra tembam . its ok. cute jgak. hahaa. tata!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
dont compare ok.
anyway, within 10 hrs, i'll be in kedah. haha.
mysara, dont compare my blog to hers ok. its not worth it. i need my fish first to make it FUN. for anybody to make fun of it. hahaha. some risks that i am not willing to take. as it is, someone was asking and telling me on how i should do a blog because girls love to write everything. *tebatuk kejap* hahaha. scary plak masa dia ckp tu. CANNOT tekantoi ok.
the bad news for today is i will be leaving kedah again this sunday for jakarta trip. as much as i am looking forward to it, i still wanna be in alostar with my friends. we'll be doing some sins from our bitching activities. hahahahaha. gosh, that sounded so harsh. haha. just for me to be in alostar, i had to argue with my mom. mama mama. im 19 mama, come on. i wanna be with my friends just because aight.
i cooked just now. rice crispies! haha. it is so gooooood. i wanna go down and mkn lg! i was planning to bake a cake or something but since i have only 5 days in alostar, there wont be enough time for everything is it?? fiz, cant wait for u to come back! haha. i cant wait for u to bring home my wrapped with love perfume! haha. its pink! pretty in pink. if i am counting my days to see mak gee and abg fiz, then i am actually counting towards the day that my results will come out. the nightmare. semester three equals to a big major disaster. ohh, nvr mind. i will study harder for my last semester! sorry guys to bring that up but i cant help it.
aight, gtg. tia wants to use the laptop. i cant wait for GG ep 12. nate baby, you are so HOT. and blair, u're my ultimate idol( sorry hilary), for now. hahahaha.
the cone of silence.
2.06am .
i cant sleep tonite.. im finally going back tmoro. my little sister is in pain and she can barely sleep now. i dont know what to do. she has problems with her legs and all i can do is ease her pain. sorry adek. i cant do much. anyway, she had fun today , skating with a friend while i , was friend-less. he could not make it because apparently, it's his mom's bday. so , ok. acceptable. he rang late at nite out of guiltiness i guess but nvr once did i hear the word sorry. i should have known. boring topic, i know.on the other hand, about mr K, i have moved on but somehow, i dont like the fact that he is now in facebook. i'll be checking on him and when the page notifies me, ill be cancelling and delaying whatever it is that im doing and i'll rush to his page. so much for moving on la kan. i dont feel a thing but i feel the urgency to know his whereabouts. one thing for sure, i cannot beat her in every way. far far far away, still, she wins. ok. i should keep that in mind. dont think and i will not get hurt. i hv a long way to go. i need to start packing my stuff because its all over the place. i went to sunway just now and i met like HALF OF UITM kot. haha. people people, i met 'demand'. she was berkepiting with another guy and walking with 2 girls. hahaha. the question is ' where's supply' hahaha. haih, i had lunch at carl's jr and my table as behind the accountancy's students of uitm. kecik la hai kl ni. i miss the kids. they're gone for the day.
balik umah msg2. haha. i miss them la pulak especially nia. she's like so cute and she was the one who was in me . haha. weird , i know. kids, they couldnt care less.
before i go, i wanna say hye to all the people that i miss :
mama and papa, i miss u. im coming back in less than 48 hrs. haha
nana, stop menggataling sgt. i thought u guys are in 'rehab'
alyh, jaga nana.
mysara, you'll get your info on wednesday over bfast ok? pick me at 10am sharp!
pu3, have fun at btn. wahaha.
ct, i know you're having fun with the snow falling down. haha.
iye, awat snyap ja??
anushia, where are u la dey?
aiman allam and supphansa, STUDY!
to all my cousins , dtg la ampang. kte g suzies! haha.
to all my melati hommies
( alya, qila, syaza, lynn, aisya, min, yana, lzr, izzah, fafa, shrifah, liy, hanis, zira, hannah and maryam)
i miss u guys. simpan cte byk2 and we'll hv story session during the first month of fourth semester okeyh? hahaha.
i cant sleep tonite.. im finally going back tmoro. my little sister is in pain and she can barely sleep now. i dont know what to do. she has problems with her legs and all i can do is ease her pain. sorry adek. i cant do much. anyway, she had fun today , skating with a friend while i , was friend-less. he could not make it because apparently, it's his mom's bday. so , ok. acceptable. he rang late at nite out of guiltiness i guess but nvr once did i hear the word sorry. i should have known. boring topic, i know.on the other hand, about mr K, i have moved on but somehow, i dont like the fact that he is now in facebook. i'll be checking on him and when the page notifies me, ill be cancelling and delaying whatever it is that im doing and i'll rush to his page. so much for moving on la kan. i dont feel a thing but i feel the urgency to know his whereabouts. one thing for sure, i cannot beat her in every way. far far far away, still, she wins. ok. i should keep that in mind. dont think and i will not get hurt. i hv a long way to go. i need to start packing my stuff because its all over the place. i went to sunway just now and i met like HALF OF UITM kot. haha. people people, i met 'demand'. she was berkepiting with another guy and walking with 2 girls. hahaha. the question is ' where's supply' hahaha. haih, i had lunch at carl's jr and my table as behind the accountancy's students of uitm. kecik la hai kl ni. i miss the kids. they're gone for the day.
balik umah msg2. haha. i miss them la pulak especially nia. she's like so cute and she was the one who was in me . haha. weird , i know. kids, they couldnt care less.
before i go, i wanna say hye to all the people that i miss :
mama and papa, i miss u. im coming back in less than 48 hrs. haha
nana, stop menggataling sgt. i thought u guys are in 'rehab'
alyh, jaga nana.
mysara, you'll get your info on wednesday over bfast ok? pick me at 10am sharp!
pu3, have fun at btn. wahaha.
ct, i know you're having fun with the snow falling down. haha.
iye, awat snyap ja??
anushia, where are u la dey?
aiman allam and supphansa, STUDY!
to all my cousins , dtg la ampang. kte g suzies! haha.
to all my melati hommies
( alya, qila, syaza, lynn, aisya, min, yana, lzr, izzah, fafa, shrifah, liy, hanis, zira, hannah and maryam)
i miss u guys. simpan cte byk2 and we'll hv story session during the first month of fourth semester okeyh? hahaha.
Monday, November 24, 2008
24th of november.
its been a while and i feel like its hanging. so for the past 18 months, its been hanging with no strings attached? i dont know but i know i'll nvr find out bout it soon. i'm going out today and not following the rest of the troops to Port dickson for a picnic today. i really wanna go but athirah insisted on going to sunway for a skating trip. since i'm in KL for her, so i'll just follow her wants.
i asked her yesterday, what if i wanna study abroad for real, and she goes ' NO. i wont allow you to go. you're the only one, abg min' hmm, how do i respond to that? those were her exact words. when i said i was being serious, she said she is as well. aiman will be going for his National Service on the 27th of dec until 11th of March, which i think is a bit longer compared to mine because mine started on the 1st and ended on the 11th of March. which means that my mom will be left only with athirah and my dad. she'll be lonely and how can i just leave her. i cant . and probably i might be going back regularly just to check on her, next semester. i miss u mama! i am stuck now in the hse , since i hv to wait for someone to send us to the lrt. yes, he proved that for him, family is the utmost important thing but why doesnt that give him a bonus point ?? haha. probably like i said before, i nvr looked at u THAT way, and i know i nvr will.
i asked her yesterday, what if i wanna study abroad for real, and she goes ' NO. i wont allow you to go. you're the only one, abg min' hmm, how do i respond to that? those were her exact words. when i said i was being serious, she said she is as well. aiman will be going for his National Service on the 27th of dec until 11th of March, which i think is a bit longer compared to mine because mine started on the 1st and ended on the 11th of March. which means that my mom will be left only with athirah and my dad. she'll be lonely and how can i just leave her. i cant . and probably i might be going back regularly just to check on her, next semester. i miss u mama! i am stuck now in the hse , since i hv to wait for someone to send us to the lrt. yes, he proved that for him, family is the utmost important thing but why doesnt that give him a bonus point ?? haha. probably like i said before, i nvr looked at u THAT way, and i know i nvr will.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
calling for ABCs
i miss home terribly. i do go out all the time but its not the same like being at home. we went to the gardens last night and had italianies for dinner. the food was ok, not great. i hv had better pastas at some other place in bangsar. the point is, its not that we dont go out. i do go out with my cousins but its not the same because i feel like for the past 10 months i've been spending time with families which is great but i just need my friends right now. i miss my UITM friends as well. the finals have brought us much much closer.
anyways, now that i dont have much to think about other than my social life, i am feeling everything to the finest. like the most tedious thing will affect me, would irritate me and i really dont need that. usually, my books will be there for me and will NEVER let me down. i can hold them for hours and they will be there. i nvr thought i'd say that but i think its true. where are my story books when i need them??! my english is going hay wire and its getting crappier by the minutes. i should start reading the dictionaries but i dont have my partner, calling for YANA. hahaa. books are like my glue. they hold me together. weird sentence.
the 10 kids in this room are playing hide and seek. one of them is hiding in me. hahahaha. seriously, like in me. hahaa. i'll be home in less than 72 hours , i'll be fine. and i'll be seeing a friend of mine tmoro. we'll see how it goes even if i dun feel a thing. i'll just put my happy face mode tmoro.
anyways, now that i dont have much to think about other than my social life, i am feeling everything to the finest. like the most tedious thing will affect me, would irritate me and i really dont need that. usually, my books will be there for me and will NEVER let me down. i can hold them for hours and they will be there. i nvr thought i'd say that but i think its true. where are my story books when i need them??! my english is going hay wire and its getting crappier by the minutes. i should start reading the dictionaries but i dont have my partner, calling for YANA. hahaa. books are like my glue. they hold me together. weird sentence.
the 10 kids in this room are playing hide and seek. one of them is hiding in me. hahahaha. seriously, like in me. hahaa. i'll be home in less than 72 hours , i'll be fine. and i'll be seeing a friend of mine tmoro. we'll see how it goes even if i dun feel a thing. i'll just put my happy face mode tmoro.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
just another day of my holiday.
i woke up today at 11am and i jumped straight to the computer. it's just one of those days that i wont be doing anything else except watch the tv and sit in front of the laptop. i am dreaming about being at home with my friends laughing our asses off from the useless things we'll be doing. but another friend wont be around as he's attending his sisters graduation in sh alam. my stay in kedah will not be complete if i dun see him and i hope he'll be back on time or perhaps i'll be seeing him here, in KL. i wonder what made me put up with him all these while. he's weird, most of the time. acting all macho-like all the time. he's cool but not cool like zac efron thingy. he's like trying to be cool in front of his pals that he doesnt act like a gentleman at all. i really wonder what is it that i am so attached to him. he makes me laugh but he's not as funny as kery. haha. here comes the comparison.enough with that, i woke up today and i searched for hilary duff's interview with ryan seacrest. i like it when she talks to ryan because she'd say personal things. haha. i am glad that i do hear from her because she's getting a little bored. she's starring in the new NBC's sitcom and i cant wait. i went to KLCC yesterday and i found myself reluctant to buy her cd. its just another greatest hits. she just had one before and now it's another one??! come on, hilary. you can do so much better than this. the song holiday is nice but then again, there's only 2 new tracks. haihhh. i need new obsession. haha. TWILIGHT! i like that kristin steward but i LIKE robert pattison. omg. as ryan said, awkwardly handsome. haha. he's hot but the fact that he is a vampire is definitely a bonus!
talking about this, nana suggested that we should take a year break from all the guys and re-structure ourselves. i'd do it if im not happy with myself but i am quite pleased. i may wanna shed a few pounds and i wanna do something with my hair but that's about it. i should take a shower now, i stink!
ps: cant wait for jakarta! yey.
talking about this, nana suggested that we should take a year break from all the guys and re-structure ourselves. i'd do it if im not happy with myself but i am quite pleased. i may wanna shed a few pounds and i wanna do something with my hair but that's about it. i should take a shower now, i stink!
ps: cant wait for jakarta! yey.
Friday, November 21, 2008
untouched.
i am trying to feel something here but i cant!
oh mann, he's coming over this weekend and i dont feel anything?
i need to be inspired. urghhhh.
oh mann, he's coming over this weekend and i dont feel anything?
i need to be inspired. urghhhh.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
2247, lrg pipit, tmn mutiara as.
god, i miss home man. nothing much i can do now but think about home, home and home. i miss home so much. i wanna be in my bedroom. a few adjustments need to be made. i wanna sleep in my bed. i wanna be with my pillows. i wanna kemas all my cupboards. i wanna lap all the tingkap and shelves. i need to be at home. i wanna bug aiman. i wanna kacau my mom with ' mama, mama' all the time. i want to bg susu kat my kucing and this is sincere. i wanna go lepak. i wanna see sarah before she goes away. i wanna see phc 484 all around town. i wanna pay my phone bills at the kiosk in front of kancut. i wanna go to cp eventhough its like crap there. i wanna go the playground. i wanna join nana n mysara for their morning run. i wanna watch E! at home while eating my spicy drummet i fried for lunch. i wanna go to mny and buy nothing. i wanna go jln2 with zakian and sit at the corner of the street gossipping. i wanna petik rmbutan kat umah azam. i wanna see my handsome neighbour. i need to be at home , most importantly because i miss home dearly.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
a joke for all of us to laugh at.
finally, i have ended my nightmares. it did not go smoothly and it was a disaster. my two last papers were terrible. my used to be fave subj, far has now turned into this monsterous subject that i fear most. i went inside the hall, Annexe at 2pm with a really heavy heart. i knew something was wrong. i opened the exam papers and my guts were deemed correct. the questions were out of our league. no, i dont know what's the accounting treatment when you want to sell of your treasury shares. do u add up the share premium acc? or do you make it neutral back and sell it off like i dunno. seriously, i dnt know and as much as i would like to say i dont care, i would be lying bcoz i do care. i need to know bcoz i will be an accountant someday, Insya Allah. SOMEDAY?!
i asked my friends what course should i take if i decide that i want to change to another major. they laughed. but what if i was serious?
the thing that led me to all these thoughts was, as i remembered, the last time i cried after any paper was during PMR. it was science paper 2. i couldnt answer it badly, i starred at the paper, blankly and what happened next was a few tears dropped. and that was sort of the turning point where i knew, i will nvr do well in science streams. but last sunday, i was doing the paper and i was shivering at the same time. i was thinking back and fourth, am i the only one who cannot think right now, the only one who thinks that this paper is hard it as hell, am i the only one who will be repeating it. as a result, i couldnt focus. doing any accounts is like playing a game for me, thats how i portrayed it. so if i am not having fun while i play my games now, why should i be playing it any more?
i am not a person who gives up easily but if one could feel how down i was feeling the other day, i bet they would say the same thing. haih, personally i think i would ruin my own personal achivement if i scored anything else other than an A , but my friends say that we would be lucky enough if we get a C. thats how bad it is. i think so too.
enough with all of that, the holidays have just kicked in. i just realised that i dun have that much days to enjoy. more holidays means more family obligations.
i asked my friends what course should i take if i decide that i want to change to another major. they laughed. but what if i was serious?
the thing that led me to all these thoughts was, as i remembered, the last time i cried after any paper was during PMR. it was science paper 2. i couldnt answer it badly, i starred at the paper, blankly and what happened next was a few tears dropped. and that was sort of the turning point where i knew, i will nvr do well in science streams. but last sunday, i was doing the paper and i was shivering at the same time. i was thinking back and fourth, am i the only one who cannot think right now, the only one who thinks that this paper is hard it as hell, am i the only one who will be repeating it. as a result, i couldnt focus. doing any accounts is like playing a game for me, thats how i portrayed it. so if i am not having fun while i play my games now, why should i be playing it any more?
i am not a person who gives up easily but if one could feel how down i was feeling the other day, i bet they would say the same thing. haih, personally i think i would ruin my own personal achivement if i scored anything else other than an A , but my friends say that we would be lucky enough if we get a C. thats how bad it is. i think so too.
enough with all of that, the holidays have just kicked in. i just realised that i dun have that much days to enjoy. more holidays means more family obligations.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
great escape. hahahahahahha
i need to go away for a while kan, then only you would notice that i am here actually, ALL ALONG!
we'll see. urgh. i nvr thought u would disturb me this much. byk ni kacau ni. klu xdpt A+ for my accounts , its you fault. haha. BUT i will not let you be the reason. u're not worth it. not worth enough. even though i am miserable like hell tonite, i need to get back with my studies. i need to fly away, away from the current problems. a friend said its much easier studying abroad. i wanna try that. xla dok kat menare smpi kul 4 pg ni hah. haha. aite. i gotta go and read a book now. cash flow pulak. confusing topic. but if i ace that thing, i can get away from mr just be friends. hahaha. he lost that t shirt. shows that he doesnt care. whatevr laaaaaa. ok. ttyl.
ps: i think i sound like a 2 year old. hahaha. i just miss u ok.
we'll see. urgh. i nvr thought u would disturb me this much. byk ni kacau ni. klu xdpt A+ for my accounts , its you fault. haha. BUT i will not let you be the reason. u're not worth it. not worth enough. even though i am miserable like hell tonite, i need to get back with my studies. i need to fly away, away from the current problems. a friend said its much easier studying abroad. i wanna try that. xla dok kat menare smpi kul 4 pg ni hah. haha. aite. i gotta go and read a book now. cash flow pulak. confusing topic. but if i ace that thing, i can get away from mr just be friends. hahaha. he lost that t shirt. shows that he doesnt care. whatevr laaaaaa. ok. ttyl.
ps: i think i sound like a 2 year old. hahaha. i just miss u ok.
Friday, November 14, 2008
anis family = chaos!
today, 14th of november.
12.28pm.
right then, u gave me reasons on why i shouldnt care anymore.
just a simple message saying ' none of your businesss' says it all.
i should always keep that in mind.
i should never care anymore.
i know it's just a figure of speech by then, but how i had to swallow
those words during the time that u said it clearly, was quite painful.
so , listen, every time i think i may be falling for you,
u make it obvious that have there's no solid reasons on why should i like you.
u are just a selfish jerk. thank you for that.
seriously, thank you .
now, i should get back to my accounts and settle Savvy's Sdn Bhd published accounts.
it may not be fun but at least it'll help me to get through my nights knowing that there are so
many other important things in life other than a young retarded boy who's ego is just as high as an inch but acts like it's higher than any mountains in this universe.
good nite.
12.28pm.
right then, u gave me reasons on why i shouldnt care anymore.
just a simple message saying ' none of your businesss' says it all.
i should always keep that in mind.
i should never care anymore.
i know it's just a figure of speech by then, but how i had to swallow
those words during the time that u said it clearly, was quite painful.
so , listen, every time i think i may be falling for you,
u make it obvious that have there's no solid reasons on why should i like you.
u are just a selfish jerk. thank you for that.
seriously, thank you .
now, i should get back to my accounts and settle Savvy's Sdn Bhd published accounts.
it may not be fun but at least it'll help me to get through my nights knowing that there are so
many other important things in life other than a young retarded boy who's ego is just as high as an inch but acts like it's higher than any mountains in this universe.
good nite.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
debentures and bonds?
here's a thought, when do u know that u have made a right decision?
how do u even differentiate between the right and the wrong.
my mom has always taught me to go with your instinct and right at this particular moment, my instinct is telling me to go study and not think about anything else. haha.
anyway, how do u really know?
my life has always been on the right track even when i was a little child.
my mom nurtured me with good values and the important things like, cleaning up, mopping, vacuuming, laundry and stuff. thats a very important lesson in life as u go along and when u're living on your own. she allows me to go out even though when i was much younger , we don't really see eye to eye on things like how i choose my friends, how i divide my time on studies and tvs, and how i used to not pray and how she nagged about it. haha.
* my mom just called. mama mama*
i can still remember vividly her exact face when i told her i went out with Bulan for the first time.
hahahaha. her expressions was priceless.
at that time, i bet she thought that i would tell her before i went out on my first date.
hell no, i bet she'd say no and she'd make a big fuss out of it. haha
i'll get teased like now!
so, how do i know i've made the right decisions?
certain actions i took left me with its own consequences.
for instance, i did not study for my MYOB's exam and now i have no certificate like everyone else. was i dissapointed with my own actions? YES.
i cant complain much about it though.
i did things to make me feel happy at that moment without thinking about my happiness later!
i just need to know now, how do u define the rights and the wrongs.
i feel like my world doesnt feel right , right now.
something is missing but i cant find the missing piece. t
i know i used to say that i'll be happy if i can study abroad but i am pausing any thoughts
of going because how can i ever be sure that i'll be happy there??
i've been away from a month but will i survive if it is 2 months?
my mom calls me at least 3 times a day, can i make it through the day without her checking on me?
i am so unsure about my life right now or perhaps this is just the exams blues talking.
either way, i need to find my source of unhappiness.
u do make me happy and u make me feel comfortable.
u make me feel stable and i think i need to get out from my comfortable zone
and stable state.
i need to find excitement.
u provide me stability, not excitement.
hambar.
how do u even differentiate between the right and the wrong.
my mom has always taught me to go with your instinct and right at this particular moment, my instinct is telling me to go study and not think about anything else. haha.
anyway, how do u really know?
my life has always been on the right track even when i was a little child.
my mom nurtured me with good values and the important things like, cleaning up, mopping, vacuuming, laundry and stuff. thats a very important lesson in life as u go along and when u're living on your own. she allows me to go out even though when i was much younger , we don't really see eye to eye on things like how i choose my friends, how i divide my time on studies and tvs, and how i used to not pray and how she nagged about it. haha.
* my mom just called. mama mama*
i can still remember vividly her exact face when i told her i went out with Bulan for the first time.
hahahaha. her expressions was priceless.
at that time, i bet she thought that i would tell her before i went out on my first date.
hell no, i bet she'd say no and she'd make a big fuss out of it. haha
i'll get teased like now!
so, how do i know i've made the right decisions?
certain actions i took left me with its own consequences.
for instance, i did not study for my MYOB's exam and now i have no certificate like everyone else. was i dissapointed with my own actions? YES.
i cant complain much about it though.
i did things to make me feel happy at that moment without thinking about my happiness later!
i just need to know now, how do u define the rights and the wrongs.
i feel like my world doesnt feel right , right now.
something is missing but i cant find the missing piece. t
i know i used to say that i'll be happy if i can study abroad but i am pausing any thoughts
of going because how can i ever be sure that i'll be happy there??
i've been away from a month but will i survive if it is 2 months?
my mom calls me at least 3 times a day, can i make it through the day without her checking on me?
i am so unsure about my life right now or perhaps this is just the exams blues talking.
either way, i need to find my source of unhappiness.
u do make me happy and u make me feel comfortable.
u make me feel stable and i think i need to get out from my comfortable zone
and stable state.
i need to find excitement.
u provide me stability, not excitement.
hambar.
the oldest yet he is still the baby.
that is my older brother, Adam who is now 23 , my god, dah bole kawin but i somehow pity the future wife. hahaha. he is under the apprenticeship of MAS.he is staying in Subang but acts like he is 1000 miles away from me. i know, the picture here is a bit disturbing sebab dia tangkap sndiri but this is among the latest with his hair long. he likes girls in general. his motto in life is all about money, work and girls. they are the sources of is problem. haha. anyway, he will be sitting for his oral test for his license. so, i am trying to be a good sister here and wish him all the best! you will pass your test , abdam so u'll get more money and i can have some! ahaha.
lil brat.....
that is my one and only sister. her name is athirah anis. she is 12 years old with the brain of a 40 year old. she talks a lot. haha. she claims that she's in love with nick jonas. uhhuh. she sees miley cyrus as her role model. and not forgetting, jasmin anis as her main idol. she complains a lot and very picky about food. she studied for her big exams as if it is her SPM. i wonder why??! she has sit for her UPSR and is waiting for the results in less than 2 days. i know she'll do fine because my adek is smart. ( not as smart as i am, but she'll make it ) haha. good luck adek!
one of the...
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
2 more to go!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! i just feel like screaming. i have just finished my most crucial paper( i think so because the lecturer is so like urgh, ohhh miss nazida nazri oiii ) which is LAW 240. i will now salute all the lawyers because they have to hafal all the statutory acts, the thousands of cases, the whatever laaa kan ade kat law merepek tu. accountancy VS law, accountancy shall prevail! ahahaha. nothing much is going on around here except for the finals. day in and day out, we are still studying non stop. we do have a life on our own, its just that during the finals, it stopped! i was hoping to get a day off for tmoro, but if i were to stop studying, then my studying plan for these two days are ruined.suddenly, i just feel like numbering my thoughts.
haha.
haha.
1. i think i did badly for a few of my finals, like MAF 280 and BEL 311. the thoughts of these
2 papers gave me nightmares and the fact that i will be having MAF and BEL till i graduate is
super scary.
2 papers gave me nightmares and the fact that i will be having MAF and BEL till i graduate is
super scary.
2. why BEL? because of the citation thingy. i dont get it.
3. i will be working with my cousin at his accounting firm next week for at least, 5 days.
4. since i will be in KL on the 21st, i can definitely catch the TWILIGHT. yey!
5. i cant wait for the long long long holidays to come.
6. guys, wait for me if u guys have any naughty plans, such as i dunno what, u tell me..
7. i will have to retain from being naughty or extra naughty this holiday because that will lead me to trouble.
8. i am reading someone else's blog and god, how lame mine is. haha
9. i am still mad at someone. i am trying my best to keep my cool but i am afraid it will
just explode once i see that person.
10. i am trying to lead a healthy life, trying to cure my migraine. so this holiday,
you guys ( nana, yah, mysara, pu3, iye and if there's anushia) will help me !
11. i hope this will be the last holiday that i'll spent with puteri because, even if it means i will miss her like hell for the next few years, at least i know she made it through
her A- Levels.
12. i will have to help my mom with her hantaran because the hantaran is for my friend's family.
it would be unfair for her to do it alone, i guess.
13. i better sleep now. i am planning to wake up at around 12pm. and not later or earlier by a minute to that. ahah
14. goodnite. someone is having fun at the karouke's tonite. no one i know, calls it karok. only u!
3. i will be working with my cousin at his accounting firm next week for at least, 5 days.
4. since i will be in KL on the 21st, i can definitely catch the TWILIGHT. yey!
5. i cant wait for the long long long holidays to come.
6. guys, wait for me if u guys have any naughty plans, such as i dunno what, u tell me..
7. i will have to retain from being naughty or extra naughty this holiday because that will lead me to trouble.
8. i am reading someone else's blog and god, how lame mine is. haha
9. i am still mad at someone. i am trying my best to keep my cool but i am afraid it will
just explode once i see that person.
10. i am trying to lead a healthy life, trying to cure my migraine. so this holiday,
you guys ( nana, yah, mysara, pu3, iye and if there's anushia) will help me !
11. i hope this will be the last holiday that i'll spent with puteri because, even if it means i will miss her like hell for the next few years, at least i know she made it through
her A- Levels.
12. i will have to help my mom with her hantaran because the hantaran is for my friend's family.
it would be unfair for her to do it alone, i guess.
13. i better sleep now. i am planning to wake up at around 12pm. and not later or earlier by a minute to that. ahah
14. goodnite. someone is having fun at the karouke's tonite. no one i know, calls it karok. only u!
Friday, October 31, 2008
i should be studying!!!!!
the title says it all. i should be holding a book and reading it instead of checking out the internet.
i did study last night. half of the second chapter of law 240. law of contracts. it's not attractive and interesting enough i shall say. i was wondering is it worth it, me coming back like this over the weekend? i think not. personally for me, because if i were in melati right now, probably i would actually follow my studying plan but the fact that i'm home, made my mom happy, that is something else. very happy i think. she insisted that i go back at night , and not at 3.20pm so that i can accompany her while she's doing her work. she's happy im home, minus all the irritatingness. hahaha. oh well, pros and cons being at home. i am having another migraine but im getting used to it nowadays. petang je pening. uhhuh, mlm ok sket. boring la. i cant wait for the holidays! alrite, i think i better stop here before i talk crap, as usual. but u know what, all the HSM 3 songs are playing over and over again in my mind. i cant find the STOP button. ahaha. not only the melody, but the images of zac and vanessa are there as well. haha.
i did study last night. half of the second chapter of law 240. law of contracts. it's not attractive and interesting enough i shall say. i was wondering is it worth it, me coming back like this over the weekend? i think not. personally for me, because if i were in melati right now, probably i would actually follow my studying plan but the fact that i'm home, made my mom happy, that is something else. very happy i think. she insisted that i go back at night , and not at 3.20pm so that i can accompany her while she's doing her work. she's happy im home, minus all the irritatingness. hahaha. oh well, pros and cons being at home. i am having another migraine but im getting used to it nowadays. petang je pening. uhhuh, mlm ok sket. boring la. i cant wait for the holidays! alrite, i think i better stop here before i talk crap, as usual. but u know what, all the HSM 3 songs are playing over and over again in my mind. i cant find the STOP button. ahaha. not only the melody, but the images of zac and vanessa are there as well. haha.
a wonderful discovery
today is a thursday. it should have been like any other thursday. but somehow, it wasnt.
i woke up at 12 pm. haha. something that i have not done in a while. and i know i shouldnt be doing it, oftenly. anyway, as usual, i cleaned up the house and all . did not study until late at nite. what should i do with all the notes? how am i gonna memorize all? all? nonsense. all the crap. i dunno. but something happened today. he came all the way from penang to see me. something that he would not do unless , i dunno. i am surprised and overwhelmed. certain action he did really makes me wonder, yes, up until this second. stagnant. not moving. hmm, i duunooo. i'll figure it out later. more things to come like finals, muet and other things! adoiii.
i woke up at 12 pm. haha. something that i have not done in a while. and i know i shouldnt be doing it, oftenly. anyway, as usual, i cleaned up the house and all . did not study until late at nite. what should i do with all the notes? how am i gonna memorize all? all? nonsense. all the crap. i dunno. but something happened today. he came all the way from penang to see me. something that he would not do unless , i dunno. i am surprised and overwhelmed. certain action he did really makes me wonder, yes, up until this second. stagnant. not moving. hmm, i duunooo. i'll figure it out later. more things to come like finals, muet and other things! adoiii.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
GO WATCH HSM PEOPLE. ITS GOOD!
tell me something, why am i not feeling well today? i am in alorstar as im typing right now.
WHY? im sorry ok. it didnt go well because i did not plan it.
i did not know.
so , on my part, im not saying im innocent but i guess i was so caught up and i didnt think about the effects of it and how it affected others that are extremely close to me.
so , on my part, im not saying im innocent but i guess i was so caught up and i didnt think about the effects of it and how it affected others that are extremely close to me.
how i wish people could actually feel my heart and think using my brain with all the
knowledge i have.
how low i have always felt being around you guys, how insecure i am, how intimidated i am,
just being around you guys, you guys make me proud like hell but,
being with the other half, they make me feel comfortable.
certain things are undeniable.
i accept myself the way that i am but you guys are so jugdemental.
i know, i know, you guys are far from perfect but i'm not the judge here today
who's perfect and who's not.
very pretty , ohh yess.
very smart, yes yes yes.
attitude wise? hmmm, let me think.
i dunno. i;m just saying.
dun put me in a very guilty position.
thats wrong.
SORRY. my deepest sorry.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
flick r.
nana, me, mysara, iye and alyah
abdam, abg ina, abg nadia, abg yeen, abg alin, shahirah , me , ablia, abg zada and oli.
appreciate what u have.
and so, i said earlier, my birthday kinda sucked? i take that back. hehe.
let me re-blog what happened on my birthday.
i had this big marketing presentation that took us weeks to finish it. so unfortunately, on the eve of my birthday, we had to finish up everything. my group had to make sure that our report was ready and the slides were perfect before the next day, so i was up all night doing it, till 5am. when the clock hit 12 am, my friends in college, came and sang me a birthday song. that was awesome and we hugged and borak2 like usual. so , i was waiting for my close kedah friends to wish me. i know, i should not have waited, hahaha, but still, you cant help it. i waited , waited and waited but none of the 8 ppl, wished me. i mean, lots of ppl wished me, thank you, but i was waiting for those 8 ppl. my precious 8 friends. i had to do other stuff to take my mind off off it. luckily, puteri wished me at 1 o'clock. she was studying that night so, ok la kot. haha. i was cheking my phone all night long waiting for those msgs but no, none wished me. ok laaa, ni panjang sgt. emo sgt plak. ahhahaha.
later that afternoon, we were done with our presentation, phewwwww, it went smoothly and my friends asked me to pick a place so that we can eat and celebrate my birthday and qaila's birthday ( her birthday is tmoro, so happy advanced birthday qaila. hehe) so i picked secret recipe. it was super fun because, the presentation was remarked as our last assignment for the semester. thank god! i had my meal and my cake. sedap nye ! there were like 11 of us (me, qaila, lynn, hannah, alia, mariam, fafa, pah, oggy, sal, syaza) thanks guys for the treat! we went back to the college and mostly , everyone went back to their home for 'study leave' uhhhuhhh. our super short study leave. bosaaaaannn btol.
anyway, i was waiting for my brother to pick me up pulak after maghrib. he came at about 7.45pm and i thought we were going straight to ampang but he said, we're gonna make a quick stop at my cousin's place for her open hse. i was like , ' ok, but im not hungry. i ate just now' he was like , ' its ok. i need to get her drinks anyway, so kte kne la pegi' . so during the journey, i didnt really talk much because i was tired. he kept on insisting that i actually talk. haha. abdam abdam. as usual, he was saying about this girl la, that girl la. hahahaha. dgr je la kan. singgah giant la die nak bli air lg.
when we arrived, he was hesitating his moves. i know he knows where is my cousin's hse because he's been there like a gazzillion times and he was calling her for the address or something. i played along la , because i've never been to her hse. i went in and everything was quite dark but i managed to see my cousins. they posed like mannequins on the glass wall. hahaa. i wasnt shocked because, oh well, they are my crazy cousins and i know them well. they can do silly and stupid stuff. haha. so , i continued walking and to my surprise, i saw my friends there, in my cousin's apartment!! my close kedah friends! ok, i was shocked, surprised and puzzled. i was like, What the heck are they doing here??! i walked in and they sang happy birthday and there was a cake with 19 candles. hahahaha. then only, it hit me, that it was my surprise birthday party. haha. my brother was like ' terror tak abdam plan? ' i blew my candles and felt like crying. hahaha. i was speechless. everyone ran towards the food because they were so hungry. hahaha. and iye said it was all my brother's plan. hmmmm, never thought my brother is actually sweet. hahaha. he had planned this like a week ago. haha. i was really surprised. so, basically, i wasnt mad at my friends for long , hehe, they did make it up to me. ahahha. we hanged around, took lotsa pictures and they went back at around 10 plus. i went to mamak's with my cousins later. hahaha. hmmm, it was a really fun and a memorable night.
like what my brother said, its not everyday that i turned 19 right.
thank you abdam for knowing what i really wanted for my birthday. i wanted a birthday party. hehehe. i love u so much, well, we have been quite close kan since i moved to sh alam. haha. blessing in disguise i guess and i'm glad to have a brother like u.
thanks to all my friends and my cousins for making it happened last night.
i should be studying now, ctu's on wednesday and i have more chaps to go. but the book is not interesting laaa! how?????? haihhh, i'll post the pic later, since i still dun have any of it yet pon.
i really have to go and study now. haiiihhhhhh. toodles!
let me re-blog what happened on my birthday.
i had this big marketing presentation that took us weeks to finish it. so unfortunately, on the eve of my birthday, we had to finish up everything. my group had to make sure that our report was ready and the slides were perfect before the next day, so i was up all night doing it, till 5am. when the clock hit 12 am, my friends in college, came and sang me a birthday song. that was awesome and we hugged and borak2 like usual. so , i was waiting for my close kedah friends to wish me. i know, i should not have waited, hahaha, but still, you cant help it. i waited , waited and waited but none of the 8 ppl, wished me. i mean, lots of ppl wished me, thank you, but i was waiting for those 8 ppl. my precious 8 friends. i had to do other stuff to take my mind off off it. luckily, puteri wished me at 1 o'clock. she was studying that night so, ok la kot. haha. i was cheking my phone all night long waiting for those msgs but no, none wished me. ok laaa, ni panjang sgt. emo sgt plak. ahhahaha.
later that afternoon, we were done with our presentation, phewwwww, it went smoothly and my friends asked me to pick a place so that we can eat and celebrate my birthday and qaila's birthday ( her birthday is tmoro, so happy advanced birthday qaila. hehe) so i picked secret recipe. it was super fun because, the presentation was remarked as our last assignment for the semester. thank god! i had my meal and my cake. sedap nye ! there were like 11 of us (me, qaila, lynn, hannah, alia, mariam, fafa, pah, oggy, sal, syaza) thanks guys for the treat! we went back to the college and mostly , everyone went back to their home for 'study leave' uhhhuhhh. our super short study leave. bosaaaaannn btol.
anyway, i was waiting for my brother to pick me up pulak after maghrib. he came at about 7.45pm and i thought we were going straight to ampang but he said, we're gonna make a quick stop at my cousin's place for her open hse. i was like , ' ok, but im not hungry. i ate just now' he was like , ' its ok. i need to get her drinks anyway, so kte kne la pegi' . so during the journey, i didnt really talk much because i was tired. he kept on insisting that i actually talk. haha. abdam abdam. as usual, he was saying about this girl la, that girl la. hahahaha. dgr je la kan. singgah giant la die nak bli air lg.
when we arrived, he was hesitating his moves. i know he knows where is my cousin's hse because he's been there like a gazzillion times and he was calling her for the address or something. i played along la , because i've never been to her hse. i went in and everything was quite dark but i managed to see my cousins. they posed like mannequins on the glass wall. hahaa. i wasnt shocked because, oh well, they are my crazy cousins and i know them well. they can do silly and stupid stuff. haha. so , i continued walking and to my surprise, i saw my friends there, in my cousin's apartment!! my close kedah friends! ok, i was shocked, surprised and puzzled. i was like, What the heck are they doing here??! i walked in and they sang happy birthday and there was a cake with 19 candles. hahahaha. then only, it hit me, that it was my surprise birthday party. haha. my brother was like ' terror tak abdam plan? ' i blew my candles and felt like crying. hahaha. i was speechless. everyone ran towards the food because they were so hungry. hahaha. and iye said it was all my brother's plan. hmmmm, never thought my brother is actually sweet. hahaha. he had planned this like a week ago. haha. i was really surprised. so, basically, i wasnt mad at my friends for long , hehe, they did make it up to me. ahahha. we hanged around, took lotsa pictures and they went back at around 10 plus. i went to mamak's with my cousins later. hahaha. hmmm, it was a really fun and a memorable night.
like what my brother said, its not everyday that i turned 19 right.
thank you abdam for knowing what i really wanted for my birthday. i wanted a birthday party. hehehe. i love u so much, well, we have been quite close kan since i moved to sh alam. haha. blessing in disguise i guess and i'm glad to have a brother like u.
thanks to all my friends and my cousins for making it happened last night.
i should be studying now, ctu's on wednesday and i have more chaps to go. but the book is not interesting laaa! how?????? haihhh, i'll post the pic later, since i still dun have any of it yet pon.
i really have to go and study now. haiiihhhhhh. toodles!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
loner
happy birthday jasmin anis. i was so sad last nite because i had tonnes of work to do. i slept at 5 am to finish all my presentation. i waited for my close friends to wish me but uinfortunately, none wished me at 12 am. how sad is that. gosshhhh. sdeyh gle kot. my mom wished me and asked what is it that i wanted.i dunno. i feel weird today. damn it. lets hope tonite will be much happier with my cousins. aaaaaarrrrrrrghhhhhhh! i need a hug laaaaa, mama
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
just because.
i need a break just because
i need my mom just because
i need to sleep just because
but i cant find seem to say i need to study just because....hahaha
it doesnt work that way i guess.
my bday is coming this weekend.
i seriously dont have any plans except for going back to ampang.
my mom maybe coming this weekend.
maybe, depends.
i was hoping a certain someone would come and cheer me up this weekend.
lets hope that certain someone comes aight.
i know my some of my frens are reading this.
so i should clear some things up a bit.
hahahaha.
that certain someone is nothing more than a friend.
i dont have feelings for that certain someone.
i tried to search for that feeling but i cant .dr pu3 agrees * testified*
that certain someone is my bestfriend and when i talk to him i dont usually feel satisfied but
at least i feel like somewhere, in this world, there's someone that cares bout me in a way that is very weird.i know...
im not in the modd to talk rite now. so i'll blog later laaaa.
mysara, you'll get your updates later babe ok? hahahaha!
i miss home badly............
i need my mom just because
i need to sleep just because
but i cant find seem to say i need to study just because....hahaha
it doesnt work that way i guess.
my bday is coming this weekend.
i seriously dont have any plans except for going back to ampang.
my mom maybe coming this weekend.
maybe, depends.
i was hoping a certain someone would come and cheer me up this weekend.
lets hope that certain someone comes aight.
i know my some of my frens are reading this.
so i should clear some things up a bit.
hahahaha.
that certain someone is nothing more than a friend.
i dont have feelings for that certain someone.
i tried to search for that feeling but i cant .dr pu3 agrees * testified*
that certain someone is my bestfriend and when i talk to him i dont usually feel satisfied but
at least i feel like somewhere, in this world, there's someone that cares bout me in a way that is very weird.i know...
im not in the modd to talk rite now. so i'll blog later laaaa.
mysara, you'll get your updates later babe ok? hahahaha!
i miss home badly............
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
after a while.
1. Are you smiling?
not really. i dont have a good reason to smile right now.
2. Have you ever kissed anyone named Josh?
nope. i dont think so.
3. What is irritating you now?
the ignorance in everyone. its bugging me me like hell.
4. When did you last eat pizza?
last nite, we had a pizza feast. they ordered in 6 pizzas from dominos.
5. Have you ever been camping?
yeah. during my school years for girls scout and when i was in national service, it was called wirajaya. i miss those times so much.
6. Do you have any friends who are famous?
urm, yes. juretoo , u are famous arent u? hahaha.
7. Are you any good at poker?
nope.
8. What do you want?
i want to sleep, i want a holiday badly, i wanna go to a good concert, i want blackberry bold, i want a new sandal, i wanna eat ice cream, i wnna hug someone. and ohh, i really wanna see bulan actually.
9. Are you tired?
yes, mentally and physically.
10. Do you like anyone?
now? i dont think so. other than that mysterious guy, no. and i dont even no him . so , no. i dont like anyone at the moment.
11. Can you play the piano?
nope. i cant play any instrument.
12. Do you ever throw up?
yes. it doesnt feel good.
13. Do you pee in public?
nope. disgusting.
14. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
nope.
15. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
mcdonalds , though i really wanna try taco bell.
16. Last thing you said??
ade ade.
17. What are you wearing?
a t shirt and a pair of jeans.
18. How many abercrombie shirts do you own?
urm a few. shirts and t shirts. my favourite t shirt back then was a red abercrombie tee. i miss that tee.
19. How many Myspace views do you have?
one.
20. Do you want to be a princess?
at times yes . but princesses can be very bossy and bitchy, so i dun like it.
21. Do you believe dreams come true?
yes. dreams do come true.
22. Last song you heard?
crush by david archuleta.
23. Do you like Batman?
oh yes! i wanna marry batman if behind the mask, he is christian bale! haha
24. Who is in the room with you?
4o other ppl. im in class.
25. What are you wearing on your feet?
ipanema sandals.
26. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
my white flats. it is so cute!
27. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
my mom.
28. What was the last thing you ate?
traditional muffin from the cafe. haha
29. What were you doing before this?
went to the 7th floor to pray.
30. What is the closest item near you that is black?
my cardigan.
31. Who instant messaged you last?
alya.
32. Who's house did you go to last?
mak long's last weekend.
33. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
jeans.
34. What is the last movie you watched?
KAMI, a bit dissapointing.
35. Why are you taking this survey?
because i'm bored and i dun feel like talking. would rather type than talk.
36. Do your friends ever tell you to stop taking surveys?
nope.
37. Ever been to QuizPox.com?
nope.
38. Where are your parents?
in alor star. at work i suppose.
39. Where did you get the pants you're wearing?
in an outlet in san marcus. i miss those shopping trip.
40. Coach Purse or MLB game tickets?
coach purse. what is MLB?
41. Where was your default MySpace picture taken?
raya picture i thnk. so its in batu pahat.
42. Why did you pick your background?
its pretty and cute.
43. Who are you currently texting?
no one.
44. Are you happy with where you are?
can i say no. will u transfer me to elsewhere?
45. Is cheating ever ok?
nope.
46. Do you burn candles?
nope. but would love to burn one now.
47. Are you happy with yourself?
not today. i feel bloated and tired.
48. What was your entire schedule today?
do you really wanna know? i hav class from 8.30am till 6pm. not fun.
49. Do you want something you can't have?
yes. lots of things. for a start, i dont wanna be here.
50. What makes you smile the most?
television, watching things i like.
full of bs.
and so, all the responsibilities keep on piling up, all the reasons for living are so obvious and the only way out is to deal with it. i'd rather act on it than complain and do nothing. i wanna act seriously during a certain period of time. last night, someone ticked me off. talking too much without giving much input for the project. talking about things that dont matter. i was mad last nite about lots of stuff. i cant really say it but yes. im mad. if i could run away now, believe me, i would.
the stability that i am feeling right now with you, felt really good. after a while, i really need it. thanks .
the stability that i am feeling right now with you, felt really good. after a while, i really need it. thanks .
we are two separate parallel entities and we're doing fine.
i'm in taxation class now as usuals. i'm having a terrible migraine and the stereo is blasting off with hujan's song. no i dont like it when i'm having headaches, i cant handle noise. last weekend i went to the doctor and i got lots and lots of ubat. painkillers, migraines, some medicine called caffox and some other migraine medicine. for somebody who has a problem with consuming pills, thats a lot. probably cause i'm so stressed out nowdays. too many tests , quizzes and presentations to do and the time is running up. mama said why dont i do it with no pressure because with or without the stress, all the things are to be done jgak. i know but i cant help it. today is my mom's bday. HAPPY 46th birthday mummy. i love u so much and i pray that you'll age gracefully. i know you will. hehe. she wants us, me and my brother to come back this weekend for her bday. its kinda impossible mummy with the workloads im having now. sorry. will make it up to u later okeyh. since i'm having this terrible migraine, i cant eat dairy products. i like em alllll!!! milk, ice cream and everything!
i can hardly wait for the holidays. i waiting patiently for it. i have all the plans lined up! i cant decide where am i going this holiday. i wnna go to the us badly, but whre am i gonna stay? if i were to go to london, i cant stand the winter. puterrrri, faster la. cpt la abes a -levels. so that we can go on a hliday together! yey! ahahah.
i can hardly wait for the holidays. i waiting patiently for it. i have all the plans lined up! i cant decide where am i going this holiday. i wnna go to the us badly, but whre am i gonna stay? if i were to go to london, i cant stand the winter. puterrrri, faster la. cpt la abes a -levels. so that we can go on a hliday together! yey! ahahah.
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