Google, thank you. I'd love to work with you.

And they say I don't write 'jiwang' material anymore. I googled the word jiwang and one of the definition is 'deeply in love' *face, meet palm*. They, who are they, sheesh, don't ask me who are they. So, my answer to that is, lately I haven't been inspired. So, they answered back 'Oh, all this while ade inspiration la?' or something like that. Bahahaha. That particular they, even munched her their Blackberry screen, just in case for future reference. Funny things that keep me laughing while I am driving (Oops).

I think it's quite obvious that I am bored and I am having a migraine attack. No food and drinks consumption since last night, due to obvious reason. (Read : fasting). I had to educate my associate about fasting. I told her I am hungry and I have a bit of a headache, she said 'Drink water laa'. Hahah. I wish I could. Hence, here comes my part where I have to tell her that we don't drink and eat from dusk to dawn, or is it the other way round, dawn to dusk. Wait, I'm gonna go google. Okay, got it. Dawn till dusk.

The other I had to educate them and (myself as well) about why women don't go to the mosque for Friday prayers. I was quite embarrased actually when I couldn't answer. I should have known why. So, a friend gave an answer through Twitter saying that it's because the mosque used to be small and limited, thus, the priority goes to the men. Wait, let me go ask Mr Google again. He seems to know it all :P

Oh my O_O The answers available is too broad. Seems like I need more time to do a research on this. As for now, time's up. Its 5.31pm. It's beyond my working hour :)

But hey, the core part of the post is still hanging ( At least I think so) about the jiwang part. The thing is, I can probably still write and the same person can still give me much inspiration. Just by looking at that person, can still give me like some kind of feeling ( Don't ask, I can't explain) but is it still appropriate to post it here?

They say ( Some other people, not the same they as above) that, the messages, notes and posts written but they are not being sent means a lot more. Hell, they mean a lot. Yes. Okay, I want to go back. Bye. That's the end of day 98709876097687 of my internship, Thus, 5 more days left. Toodles.

I have the biggest crush on you because you're dashing but that's just about it.

The countdown has started six months ago, I just didn't think that we would actually come this close to the end. 9 more days left, 6 more working days & one day for clearance.

The book that I have closed long ago, is slowly re-appearing in my sleep. It's a lose-lose situation, not a win-win situation. I snooze, I lose. I'm freshly awake, I still lose.

If I could just reveal myself, I would. It would make my life easier and your life a living hell. I just don't want to ruin it because I don't want people to do that to me as well.

If I can pick any place I want to go right now, it would be London. I just need 4 days. One day in Bicester and the other 3 days in Oxford St. I'll come back sane, happy, an empty pocket but a whole new wardrobe :)

Maybe I should start reading a book but not fiction ones. My vocabulary is so poor that the other day, I had to pretend like as if I understand what my mom was talking about when I dont. I need to brush up on my English words( a lot of them).

Maybe I should start a new routine. For example, wake up at 6.45am and not 7.15am so that I dont miss out my Subuh prayers but its a lot easier to be said that actually being done.

But over the days, I learned that when you make time for God, God will actually make time for you. InsyaAllah. I learned that the hard way because He pays cash these days. In cold hard cash.

But I also learned that I am actually going to miss working. Boo me! But I don't think I'm gonna miss it that much for me to stay for another two months though :p

You say I'm being defensive, I say you're being offensive.

Definition given by an anonymous. Thus, I am quoting the anonymous.

Mom worked on her magic trick again, last week.

She has been asking me to come back since last week. It's not that I didn't want to go back but a 2 day weekend is quite short and to go back and forth from KL to Alor Star is really tiring.

792km (392km x 2) in 2,880 minutes (48hours x 60minutes), is something.

BUT, when a mother asked you to do so, you will drag your lazy ass home.

To me, my mother's words are law as she speaks.

It's an unwritten rule that all four of us understand, in real silence.

Killer Instinct.

Sometimes,  I hate my instincts for being right. It should have been a reminder to tell myself to do the right things, to make the correct decision and to live peacefully but sometimes, you tend to go against your own self just to test the water out. Perhaps you should not have done that. Starting tomorrow, I have only 15 days left in the firm, because as much as I complain, I know I am going to end up with a bittersweet feeling and mixed emotions. Today, I went back at almost 9pm, I think this is the longest I've ever stayed just to finish my job. Usually, I'll just leave but today, the senior that I was helping was really nice, sweet, helpful and very down to earth. It didn't feel like a chore to help her out, it just felt good but come 8.45pm, I became fidgety. I wanted to go home. Haha. That was the  longest I can do. I will be happy to leave the work behind, happy to wake up late everyday but I will be sad thinking about how I can't just access the firm whenever I want to, well, not that I have any other purpose to do so, but you know, just having those options are better than, none! Hehe. 

Yesterday was Sharifah Sakinah's birthday (Happy birthday babe :D I wish you all the best in life and I hope you'll get married soon :DDD. Haha) but 6 days ago was another friend's birthday which I totally forgot and I feel like a bad friend, because up until now, I still haven't wished her yet. I promise I will do it after I am done with this, but just incase you're reading this Liy ( I can't type your name in full because if people were to Google you, they'd find my blog... So, Liy is fine right...) Happy 22nd birthday pretty :) New Zealand seems so faraway right now but I know you're coming back soon :DD

Birthdays add up another year to our age, and so, a friend is living up to it by getting hitched this coming weekend. I am 22 years old (soon, not yet) and I've got a close friend who is getting married. I can't even find my other half yet, I can't even decide what to eat for dinner on a daily basis, let alone to take care of another human being, and more human being to come?! Ahhhhh, it's not my turn yet so Fafa, congratulations on your wedding :) See you on Saturday!

I play a scene in my head and within seconds, it happened. 

Pictures time :)

This is actually so cute. Mom brought her new little kittens to KL along with her last week. The kids were so excited and in this picture, they were staring at the kittens in awe, especially that little naughty boy, Elan. He wanted to get in the cage and cekup the cats and kiss it too! So freaking cute! :')

Ps : Mom is feeding them with little mini bottles. Its amazing how dedicated she is, because the kittens need to be fed every other hour, just like a new born baby. That's dedication Mother.

Last week we had our first SIFE BootCamp and we got these t-shirt that is HUGE and if you can't see what it says on the t-shirt, then there is something wrong with your eyes.. because it is really big..

Dinner with the working ladies at Sakae Sushi at the Curve and later, dessert at Chocolate something something, I can't remember its name but the dessert was so yummy, I had to rub my tummy :P

See this, the three of us had to squeeze in this little tiny space for 2 days but these are only some of the documents and files. Working with them was quite fun but they are workaholic, like really workaholic.





This was a nerve-wrecking day. It was our evaluation day, where the lecturer came to assess us and will decide whether we all pass the internships or not. I really hope that I pass though. Haha. We finally met each other again after 5 months of being at different locations with different tasks and seniors. After 5 months, we should all be a bit more experienced and wiser but I doubt that on my side. Am I much wiser? If I am then why do I feel like slapping myself on the face hard, today? Because I was being so blur and stupid. Oh yeah, I just got an email from the HR department, saying that we should do a few things before we close the chapter of internship in our life :) That should put a smile on my face.

Moja, Qosh and Salmah just graduated and so, they had a little graduation party at Fullhouse, Sunway Giva.
One is working with GE, one is currently doing her internship with Microsoft in Singapore and one is..err, still looking for a job but you'll make us proud, Momo. Hehe. These guys are the backbones of Sife and they are leaving us :'(
I wish you guys all the best in everything that you do and have a great future ahead of you :)
Ps: Had a great time with them as usual, then one of the alumni told us a little secret about ourselves just by a glimpse of our signature.  Scary.. because it's quite true and accurate..

On the exact day that this picture was taken, I remember that I missed this particular cheeky boy so much, that I had to rush back home. He wasn't this quiet. That's why I had to hold him like that. He is slowly picking up words around him but he can't seem to pick up the word 'Aunty Min' !

We looked like yellow teletubbies. Haha. We got up at 7.50am on a perfect Sunday morning just to go see Faizal Tahir that sang only 2 songs. Okay, they woke me up at 7.50am so that they can see Faizal Tahir sings live at One Utama. He's good, like really good. They are big fans, I am just another girl who listens to his songs on the radio, when it is on. But most importantly, we got free milk and free shot glasses :)



Ohmyfreaking..

Oh my, I cannot access Facebook from here anymore....Then, it's gonna be so boring because I cannot access Twitter as well. It means that I have to do work...or nothing...I prefer nothing but I only have 23 days left here before I get to do nothing, so I think I should do work but right now, no work to be done, so I think I better stay here. Hehe.

The cousins are all hyped for our little Perhentian vacation on the 8th of July which means, they are working out like crazy as if they are running for a marathon or better yet, like they are the fattest kid that get featured on The Skinniest Loser of All. Crazy this people, I tell you.

But unlike them, for me, it was like I just joined The Food Channel or something, with Ian Wright. Food is everywhere and I can't seem to get my hands and mind off from them. Yesterday, I had roti bom with chicken curry in the morning, rice, fried chicken, kuah masak lemak and veggies, oh the dessert for breakfast was Molten Lava cake made by Fiza Khalid, then, bread with kuah sardine, then Molten Lava cake lagi. Then we went to Ikea and we had meatballs and Daim cake and we tapau-ed Currypuff for tea, of course I had that as well. We went back home and we had ubi kayu rebus with sambal, and for dinner we had char kueu tiau and later, I had KitKat for dessert. God, I'm tired just by writing this, I wonder how did I swallow everything in one day.

And the best part is, I didn't feel guilty. HAHAHA. And those crazy obsessive bunch wanted to go running la, go jumping la and all. I've been exercising, trust me but food is another category of exercising, that I actually enjoy. Haha. So, starting tomorrow, I think I should start fasting again because this is getting ridiculous. The things the discussed about are like monokinis and bikinis, and I was like, can I just wear a tshirt or something? Haha. Dang it! Need.To.Work.Out.As.Well.

29 days to go.

Hello June, you look lovely but you started off roughly.

On the last day of May, we had a celabratory dinner to sort off 'celebrate' those who had just finished their internship while me, on the other hand, has got 30 more days to go. One month to be precise. Am I excited to end this thing? Hell yeah. Have I decided whether I want to venture into it again? Half-heartedly, yes. I don't want to join this line again, BUT, I know I will learn a lot and I know I should learn a lot and devote myself into this industry till I am at least, a bit smarter. One senior asked me the other day, how old am I, I said '22 years old'. He said, I should be enjoying life. I thought so too but the way I look at it now, there's two sides of the coins right?

I just know that I don't want to be waking up in the morning feeling miserable, like I am now. The routine now is, I'll sleep at around 12am, and wake up at around 6.55am. Sometimes, I'll take a long shower in the morning (I usually take a quick shower, like really quick and short but I still smell nice ;P ) just to prep me for work. I will try to cheer up but still, feels like I had to drag me feet, my hair, and my heart to go to the car and start the engine. Being miserable is not the way to live your life. Probably because I don't enjoy working in the current team or I don't know. My favourite team mate is on study leave, thus, leaving me with some seniors. Then, it is true about what you learned in Management class. The people around you does play a part.

Ignore this, I am going out with my cousin tonite for a sushi session. I'm fasting, so I am hungry :O On a side note, I am bored right now. Bored. I don't fancy anyone lately. Is there anything wrong with that?