can't u see that i am actually smiling?

hello YOU! yes YOU. i know YOU are reading this.

oh well, YOU don't need an introduction i suppose and i guess you can find your way around here like YOU always do. i'm glad to see YOU just now and i am really happy coz it's been a while and i actually miss you ;)

ok, moving on. i'm going back to sh alam tmoro night with a light head. ahaha. ringan la sbb xcukup stdy like my coursemates. hahaha. padah blk umah! it's ok. if you're happy, you'll be fine. hmm, 7 days holidays after this. what should we do?

hanis, pah and I have been discussing about things that we want to do during intersession and the answer is , we want to play sports. hahaha. ok here's the thing. hanis will bring badminton rackets but she said she has no shuttlecocks. pfttttt we'll buy it okay hanis. hahahah. hanis wants me to bring my skipping rope and i went looking for it and i can't find it laa. btw, it is sooo pretty, it's pink. the skipping rope laaa. haha. ok ppl, what else can we do? movies? we do that all the time. sleeping? should not mention this right? intersession is actually the time that use to reimburse all the lack of sleep. haha. more activity ppl? window shopping? dah pusing sunway bjuta kali cuma xle lwn puteri la kan. haha. hmm, come to think about it, final pon xabes lg. hahaha. ok back to the main topic, sports. any suggestion?

certain things that you have to do to make yourself happy. sometimes, you make sacrifices for the ones you love but what happens when you have to jeapordise your own self? hmmm. weirdo.

ok back to reality. books are calling.

ps : i was waiting for you actually.

static.

probably, this gap that we're having now is not a really good idea. you tend to lose your momentum in studying and you're just too lazy to start again. this is like the 5th day of the holidays and i still haven't finished the first chapter yet. so much for ' oh i will stdy once i have had my rest' la. haha. the computer has some kind of a magnet attached to it, ym is like super glue and facebook is like oxygen. haha. hyperbole, i know but when you think that time is not a limitation, that's how things work. at least for now.

usually home is where i gain sanity but not this time. it's too crowded. not with my 5 future kids but there's all of us and the last time that we actually lived in a house together, all 6 of us was when we were younger and at that time, we didn't need extra space. yeah, it's a sign that we have grown up. in terms of maturity, not necesarrily though. we go through changes. some towards negative and some towards positive.

hmm, change is good, i suppose. but i don't really like change. i like things the way they are. i am actually waiting for one tree hill. it is still buffering. in this latest episode, kate voegele is reaalllllyyy pretttttty. she did something to her hair and it's realllly aweeesoooomeee. seriously, prettty! check her out!

ps: hey u, insecurities much? haha. i guess so ;p

show me all the signs that i need pls.

limitations. a simple word that can bring along many interpretations with it. human limitation, brain limitation, physical limitation, thought limitation, implementing ABC limitation, LIFO's limitation and so on. This world has so many limitations that somehow, you can go on and on listing it.

I, myself know my own limitation. how far can i run, how deep can i go, how low can i feel, how fast can i write, how twisted my brain can be, how slow i can accept facts, how fast can i take a shower, how irritating i can be, how big my hair can be, how much money do i have and so on.

sometimes it kills me deeply, to know that these limitations are the only thing that is separating me and all my wants. it's not so much about not getting it, but it's about the things that are keeping you from it. you know you have so much more to offer but because of these limitations, you can't show them what you have.

it can be really depressing to know that you are inches away from achieving your dream but the only thing that is blocking your way is money. most of the times, when opportunities show up, they make it a point to run away before you can even catch them. what do you do when you count the odds and the result says go for it but deep down inside your heart you know even if you go for it, with your strongest will and effort you know you will not make it to the end?

they say that the beauty is in the attempt but what do you do when all your attempts failed? having to know the truth doesn't make it easier every time we find out about it. it just makes you stronger. it will probably be good if we have a flexible heart. a heart that can bend at all times in any kinds of situation, which means that it will not be broken. it is flexible. but then we will not face sadness and perhaps, we will take things for granted and not treasure it well. human limitations. that's why. we are human with feelings and not man-made robots.

it's just a random post because during the finals, there were too many limitations questions and it kept me thinking, the only thing that is keeping me from getting an A+*uhhuh* for all these subjects are actually all the limitations available. time, brain, and our own ability. we have so little time to study with limited space in our brain that are left to be occupied with all the notes and we don't have the capability of a robot to answer all the questions with very short period of time in a freaking cold hall. that and my mind is always buzzing away about everything else but the papers in front of me. and of course, i am facing with some limitations myself, now! hmmm

here's a quote for the day

' to say that my heart is broken would be too over the top but to say that i didn't get hurt would be an understatement'

i have been too patient for too long . i am loving the outcome.

home sweet home.

no, this is not home sweet home. this is room sweet room when you are in the faculty and all you wanna do is sleep. haha.

it feels good today, when i woke up after snuggling in my own bed with my sister.
it feels good today, when i woke up and i had to ask the question ' hmm, apa nak buat arini eh?'
it feels good today, when i woke up and my mom had cooked us nasi goreng for breakfast.
it feels good, when i woke up and my mom asked us whether we want to go to Penang or not and i can gladly answer YES with no hesitation.
it feel good when it was my mom who tried to wake me up for Subuh prayers this morning,personally and not the static alarm clock.
it feels good, when i woke up today to find that everyone is around, the whole family including King Adam. urghh.
it feels good, when i woke up and my mom asked me to do the laundry and mop and sweep the floor. haha. though its not fun, you know you just have to smile while doing it.
well, it feels good to just come back right.

it feels good to eat at Nurha's last night. just hanging out, doing nothing.

i really wish you can stay babe.
more than anything else now.
i really do.
i miss you already duhhh.

okayh, Penang plan was canceled so no Feringhi Beach which means no Dvds for me.
more internet, more going outs, more sleep and more and more and more.
ohh lupa Far and Maf ada lagi.

haha. carl's jr mmg terbaikkkk la kan.
aloyah, wish you were here. there's a space in between . hahahahaha

i feel like my right shoulder is a bit dislocated. a bit. haha. maybe tension kot blaja byk sgt.

the last day in hell.

it's 4.12am in the morning. today we will be sitting for our last paper. yahooooooooo!

and i'm going back to Alostar on Fridayyy yeyyyyy! sounds like i haven't been home for a while but the truth is, i just went back. haha. maybe sbb nana will be fetching me and the thoughts of seeing suphannsa of friday really excites me!

etr is a really sucky paper. sucky in a way that i can't explain. oh yeah, about my last 3 papers, the first one went well but the second and the last one are urmmm, should i say that i regretted studying for it? haha. ntah laaa. ignore those papers. blk ni ada cuti 9 harrriiii. yeyyy! mcm cuti sem dah. considering that we don't have long long breaks, this is gooood.

i can't wait to watch he's just not into you. the feeling of nak tgk wyang after all the disastrous paper is somehow very calming, relaxing and soothing. hahah. over plak.

but i think we all suffered badly this semester, up until the today. still suffering and i think we all deserve a celebration. not a small one but a really big one, saying 'we've made it!'

haha. push aside on how our results would be, we've been through enough. i know i have been through enough this semester.

i better study now or sleep. sleeping sounds very attractive and seductive now especially when your friends are sleeping like there's no tmoro ;p goodluck everyone!

acceptance.

today is the last day i'll be in as for this week. blerghh bosan xnak blk sa. last night was not a blast considering how twisted everything was. haha.

a lesson to be learned. privatize your twitter. haha. yeah apart from that, i guess last night i was annoyed by some of the comments made. i don't like it when people drops remarks on how jiwang romantic etc my writings are. i mean, thats the beauty of writing i guess. when u say it out loud then it's like euuww ok jiwang but i think when u write it down it's more or less become an art. i suppose u guys dont understand the value of it but trust me it'll get u far. writers get incredibles credits for writing a beautiful piece, lyricists get all the money from writing a nice song thus clearly, words do get u far. at least somewhere. it got me a date with abu and ali though ;) so what i'm trying to say is i am not mad when i get comments like 'min, jiwaaaaaanggg min, min emotional minnnn' i just get annoyed and irritated. i think u guys do like to read my blog kan. its a way of finding out who i really am and all my thoughts at that current moment. so ok la tu. at least, i am passionate about something and i go for it. there's a reason why i took literature for SPM. i enjoyed learning it and trust me, the knowledge that i got from back then is very useful now. somehow, the most valuable lesson i got was, read in between those lines. i dont know how to draw and do a lot of things, but as long as i can write, i am happy. don't think i havent thought about pursuing journalism for my degree. i have given it a thought but i think accounting is more interesting. for now la. anyway, what i'm trying to say is, we like what we like and by doing the things that we like, we are different from others. being different is good.i think so too. i'm tired of having to keep all my writings in one place and lock it up so that u guys arent able to find it and perhaps, u guys are asking why cant i just save all my writings in my laptop and handphones and just be a closet poet or something. but guys, where's the thrill?
and there goes the freedom of speech for one human being in this world.


thank you.

introducing, mr Khoo Cheng.

believe it or not, that's khoo cheng. haha
i look like a very proud owner. hehe.

good day everyone, it's a nice day to be studying all day long and do nothing else but study. gahhh, xde life!
it's ok, keep this in mind all you fast trackers, 9 days holiday after ETR.

by then, i'll be watching all the movies, marathon of FRIENDS and OTH.
you name it, we'll watch it.
oh yeah, that's our kucing.

used to be named as amron but my mom prefers khoo cheng.
haha.
he bites A LOT.
he's always in his cage and when he gets to go outside like today, he's very happy!

my day is going on just fine. how about YOU?

yeah you.

ok mari smbung study or maybe start ngn mandi. haha.

ps : love love love the necklace, puteri nur sarah ,like seriously. haha.

i miss shah alam more right now.

had a night tour with my mom just now and i found my self remembering about the past so much that i am actually shaking now. god, i nvr thought this would happen. not now though. everything is all over the place. everything. started with when my mom and i went for groceries in Giant. ni blom masuk tesco lg ni. donuts. ok i better beat this thing. i wanna go flip through some books. ttyl

pictures of you.

PHOTOS. they represent a lot of things. alright, lets take a photo and i'll tell you some of the things that happened during it.

exhibit A : my national service photo. that was second last day there and it was our graduation day. the day that we all know that we have turned into a 'wirawati' cewah. haha. that's a picture of me with wani, dayot and coach angie. i would never thought i'd survive in the jungle for 2 months and 11 days but surprisingly i did but with the help of seventeen magazine and constant visits from my parents and friends. hehe. thanks guys for coming.

exhibit B : hmm, the donuts. lets sum it up shall we. it was a day full and loaded with questions, happiness and stability. it was Big Apple donuts. we never made it to JCo donuts though. i hope someone else will take you there considering how much you love donuts.

exhibit C: the second picture from the right on the first line, that's a picture of us at the tasek. remember guys. finally, a few of us had their driving license and we drove to jitra. haha. it was during my NS break. it was during those times that i found out, i missed my family, friends+K so much. that's picture of him driving during the NS break. miss him ohh. byk la gmba kat tasek. the ones with suppy when we had our photoshoot. that was very fun actually.

exhibit D: here's an interesting picture. haha. second picture from left on the second row. that was after our last class of LAW 240 with Ms Nazida( she was still a miss back then, bkn puan . haha) we were all so happy that we went into Puteh's Hilux truck with at least 15 of us at the back shouting all over UITM 'slamat hari raya' haha. especially depan DC and bus stop menara. haha. silly us. but it was fun though. hehe

exhibit E: the last picture on the right at the very bottom is actually all the quotations from my very favourite tv show, one tree hill. some one from the fan forum drew it and i took it. but all in all, my fave quote will still be ' it sucks being the footnote in other people's love story' haha. maybe because brooke said it and she really meant it. thats why the quote is really deep kot.

exhibit F : if u look closely, there's a picture of us at KENKO midvalley. doing the fish spa. haha. it was very ticklish. qaila had the best time of her life. hahaha. i think that will be the first and the last for them but i went to do it once again in ampang point and that was the last one. oh yeah, for every semester there will be a futsal tournament for the fast tracks students and we would always there. i played once during the first sem and i didnt really kick, i screamed a lot. haha. taking pictures would be the most highlighted activity for the night because that's the time where all the coursemates get to gather formarly haha like with yana, lzr, izzah and all.

exhibit F: the picture of me hugging marc was a really sad photo. it was our last day in houston after a month being there. if i'm not mistaken, it was taken in front of target and that was the last time i saw him. we entertained each other so much that he begged us to come back and spend some more time with him. haha. very good looking one that mat salleh. anyways, when he drove back home, we followed him at the back and saw him crying. pity him. hehe. i miss those moments more than anything else. one thing led to another. that reminds me of hilary duff. haha. i'm just glad to say that one of my very difficult wish did come true and i am very happy. haha

exhibit G: look at the guy with the green tee. alright, that's bulan. the picture is too small but if u can actually see, he's smiling widely. he'e actually talking to bear at that time. that was taken from 2 years back even before i enrolled into uitm. i havent seen him for so long. hmm.

exhibit H: next to the picture where i am sleeping(sleeping is not a habit, its a must in order to survive in this tough world.haha.dah xlarat nak cover from paparazai alia n hannah with additional member of syaza. dah byk sgt.haha) , is actually taken on the first night of raya. i had just straigten up my hair for almost 3 hours and that's when my cousin dedided to go out and have teh tarek. it was around 1 am at that time and it was raining heavily. all i could think of was my freaking straightened hair. not worth it kot klu basah and it'll be curly again. haha. with all the equipment that i had during that time, i covered my hair. haha. they were all laughing like hell because i couldnt care less about anything else but my hair. yes, sgt vain. haha. it was raya kot esok tu. haha

many other pictures and it'll take me days to explain one by one. but overall, i am happy because i have all these photos to hold on to. i think i should make copies if let say my computer would crash.

" after all, it hurts just the same"

hello everyone.

here i am, cuddling in my own bed. happiness baby! i have finished my semester four of my diploma. that's a wrap! huh! last nite, we had a silent competition. it is called, ' pertandingan sapa tido plg lama' and the winner is tadaaa~ SAL! haha. followed by other contestants, lynn, alia, jasmin and so on. haha. it was the best sleep with as usual, the weirdest dream and the bad news was we had to wake up for our critical thinking test. spoiler btol la! so later we had lunch in burger king as to celebrate that everything is finally over. konon la tp business proposal xsiap lg. anyways, evrything is really over now and it all falls down on us. our own finals. individual. hmm. i guess we have to study now and nothing else. but tonite is about relaxing and rejuvenating. haha

today, a lot of things happened. firstly, it was morning. lets not talk about it but all i can say it's all about choices. choices that need to be made and we have to face with our own consequences later. so. i made mine and had to live with it. ok ok. at the ktm today, i found an angel. a nice looking angel that i have been looking for. so the question now is, why today? especially after what had happened during lunch? perhaps it is saying that there's other better people out there and you have yet to find it? ahha. i think i've found it. i think i got approximately around 2 hours just staring at the angel. ok jasmin anis. moving on with other things * pls sense the kemamaian* dah ngtok ni.

i want to continue watching one tree hill. a really heartbreaking episode. i want to meet sophia bush and say hi la. she's so inspirational.

equal to be different. wahahha

ok ni smbil buat business proposal nak bukak pharmacy drive thru. haha. thanks kak chaq for the idea and all the help!

pick yours, ppl!
* selipar dari part 1. dah buruk! kaler biru muda and tali merah*

one of the craziest nights ever.
thanks to far 360 part 2 : auditing and taxation.

and tonite, here i am in menara.
trying to finish up etr.
our last assignment for semester four.
to suck up to pak mail. haha.

far 360 has given us a lot of bad effects.
it has made hannah and sal confused. kronik okayh.
haha.


ok qaila, jom smbung buat financial plan ;)